Duramen Rose
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WWI
the Spanish Flu
a boy who runs away to war
and struggles to find his way home
again thereafter
soldiers, hobos, dead men, and his Valkyrie
a modern American epic of war and innocence lost
this is Duramen Rose
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Duramen Rose - Andrew L. Roberts
Dedication:
For my brother Joe who gave me my first words, and all the good things that make me who I am.
For my Father and for my Great Uncle Frank, for the most obvious reasons.
For my friend Summer Fletcher, and the conversation that first inspired Duramen’s story.
For Earl, John, Clare, Cliff and Ashley — dear friends all — who read these poems in their most primitive drafts.
And for Dene Brimmicombe-Wood, the stranger across the sea in England whose kind words after reading this book convinced me that I had written something of true worth.
I only saw the beginning on my own, but the middle and the ending came through grace.
Thank you
Sessrumnir
This is the red place
the place where we tell our stories
standing here before the fire
the newly dead
stripped down to nothing but our essentials
bare as the newly born
we display our wounds and our scars
some are still raw
others faded and pale
composing the roadmaps of our victories
and of our defeats
but it doesn’t pay to count which are which
there’s no glory in it
but together
we’ll unwind the skeins of our lives
talk them out
using our best songs and plainest words
trying to make heads or tails of
who we are
how we lived
and how we died
it makes for a long night
so much talk
the laughter and the tears
all bound and married to so much guilt
and remorse
slow dancing with our used-up pride
but that’s okay
this is our solstice
and we’re waiting for the sunrise
but I’m a lousy storyteller
I’ll admit that right now
I don't know how to put it all together
not in a single straight line
going from the very beginning
to the very end
all neat and clean
and telling it that way
wouldn’t make much sense
my thread has too many knots
too many tangles
like me it’s a mess
so I’ll start I guess with the woman
who brought me to this place
I’ll start with Eir.
Eir
The first time we met
was in the churchyard
she was on horseback
I heard her before I saw her
and I will never forget that voice
bright as a good axe ringing against
heartwood
and her words
so sharp about the edges
hard and yet not quite so
powerful —
I guess that’s what I’m trying to say
powerful —
though it did not come to me at the time
I was soaked clean through and freezing
half-buried in mud
my dead German still lying on top of me
he and I had fought the night before
I’d been bayoneted in the side
and was already a dead man
even before he shot me
his bullet
tore through my left shoulder
clean
with the hum of an angry hornet
and the crack of breaking branch
but it didn’t slow me down
I was too mean
we banged into each other
making the sound of two oven mitts
being clapped together
that big sort of woomph! sound
you know the one
and when we fell we fell down hard
with my trench knife and its brass knuckles
buried deep in the center of his chest
I figured
we were both going to die together
so enemy or not
after everyone else had fallen
and the guns had gone quiet
I slipped my arms around him
pulled him close and held him tight
he didn’t resist
seemed to understand
he pressed his cheek against my throat
and we both
wept
then he shuddered
died real sudden and ugly
but I kept on holding him
the rain came and the rain went
over and over again
all through the night
with me waiting for my own death
slow
so slow in its coming
morning brought gray mist and no sun
there was a bitterness in the air
just a hint of chlorine
drifting in from the somewhere
beyond the trees
it wasn’t enough to do any damage
but it was there
an ugly rumor
ready to kill anyone who wasn’t already dead
I couldn’t feel my hands or legs anymore
and the woman on the horse —
she was speaking with the two farmers
who stood over me
they were robbing the dead as good farmers will
when their fields have been plowed under by artillery
and she had arrived as they were about to bash in my skull
the larger man had a hammer
and the other
who moved like a rat
was tugging at my right hand
holding a straight razor
eager for my granddad’s ring
and that pissed me off bad
but there was no fight left in me
and the woman —
I couldn’t have been seeing her too clearly
but she was real all right
yellow haired and tall
dressed in a long gray cloak
perched way up high atop a dappled mare
and even now
when I close my eyes
I can still smell the horse’s sweat
mixing with the woman’s strange perfume
honey and hemlock and something else
so different from the stink of mud, blood and shit
and still
all the same
I knew
I knew
it was just another smell of death
the men were speaking in hurried French
she in slow Dutch I think
first everything was polite
then the tone of the conversation turned sideways
went from discussion to argument in a matter of
six
seven
maybe eight heartbeats
then there was a loud bang and flash of light
followed by another and a third
after that everything was silent among the graves
with only the woman and her horse left upright
dismounting
she picked her way
between the headstones among which we’d fought
loomed over me
staring for a time
thinking I guess
working out some sort of decision
about what to do with me
then she knelt
pulled away my dead German
and with the corner of her cloak
wiped the mud from my face
then she spoke
said something I couldn’t understand
and when I didn’t answer
she looked into my eyes
leaned in real close
and inhaled my breath
I felt it plain as day
all intimate and unnerving
beautiful even
and up close
her face was so bright
pretty and handsome too
milk and strawberries
surrounded by corn silk
but moonlight cold and polished iron smooth
and those eyes
God
those eyes
then she kissed me right on the lips
shocked me
tasting like dandelions and sunshine
like summer
and home.
Home
There’s always someplace
that wears that word
be it a city
a mountain
or some farm
mine was Eden
a small town
lost in a sea of trees and hidden meadows
not far from the Oregon Border
a world of redwood and cedar
with that one sacred grove of Douglas Fir
where we cut our Christmas trees each December
it was a place of hard work
mutilation and broken bones
a place of frequent pain
punctuated by fits of quick laughter
and good fist fights
a place where everything
felt
clear-cut
honest
true
and true in that spiritual sort of sense
that can’t be bound in a single book
or list of rules
I wish I had not lost my innocence so soon
but I know now the world is anything but simple
half of what surrounds us moves in a blur
while the rest remains impossible to see
let alone take aim upon
what stands still is either dead
or soon will be
and that thought makes me tremble
inside
makes me shake
like a hunter who’s watched his quarry too long
because as any sharpshooter must confess
eventually your target gets inside of you
becomes a part of you
he is no longer an it
he is you
indistinguishable
and once that happens
if you are able to squeeze the trigger
you’ll find yourself wondering after
what part of myself did I just end?
was it the good or was it the bad?
but it doesn’t matter how you answer
because once the bullet flies
there is no calling it back
and I seldom missed
my lieutenant called it my talent
I suppose it could be such
if murder were an art
instead of what it truly is
before the war
I was already a fair shot
but I never cared for hunting
I liked my deer and quail living
pork always suited me better on the table
and beans —
oh how I loved our neighbor Mrs. Pimentel’s beans
along with her Morcela
and her sweet Folar
freshly baked and steaming
as though every day was Easter morning
I can still see it
waiting at the center of the table
on her favorite fancy plate
with the painted rooster
standing beside it
I loved that woman’s cooking
and think I loved her daughter even more
once upon a time
I am sure of it
though it gets harder for me to believe
that América could ever have loved me
América and home.
América
Amy — for short
named by her grandfather Anthony
for all the hopes and dreams
he carried away from the Island of Faial
she with her nut brown skin even in the winter
molasses black eyes —
large as a doe’s
and her cedar burl hair —
all swirls of copper and honey
she was my first kiss
and I hers
she made me feel alive just being near her
a smile and laugh you couldn’t contain
no matter how hard you might try
I know
those are funny thoughts
for a dead man
yet I lost her
gave her away
ran away
became a soldier
what a fool
and she after three long years of waiting
surrendered
found someone else who was
not a soldier
not a fool
someone who wasn’t me
I thought of her
every night on the transport ship
slow steaming across the Atlantic
surrounded by cigarette smoke and seasick men
all vomit and false bravado
it was easier to miss her in that tedium
but when we reached the front
I couldn’t even begin to recall her face.
too bad for me I suppose
so much better for her I’m sure
but it was a good lesson
wasted on a lousy kid
and isn't that how it always works?
the most important lessons
we learn too late
at least that’s how I learned all mine
every single damned one
especially with Amy Pimentel
princess to our Holy Ghost Queen
América
my first and almost
love.
Departure
In our town we were Portuguese mostly
and Greeks
there were some Swedes and Danes too
an abundance of Irish and a few Mexican families
yet in our talk
and in our bones
we were all the same
in spite of any hyphen we might wear
we knew how to get along
we had no choice
real Europeans — the ones I met later
they were a confusion to me
I couldn’t see the difference between
Austrians and Germans
and the French
and all politics tangled between them
well
that was a mystery of which I had no interest
in unraveling
I was a kid after all
and satisfied with knowing what
I