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    Scars of Blue: A story of Policing, Corruption, Mental Health, and Survival
    Scars of Blue: A story of Policing, Corruption, Mental Health, and Survival
    Scars of Blue: A story of Policing, Corruption, Mental Health, and Survival
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    Scars of Blue: A story of Policing, Corruption, Mental Health, and Survival

    By Chad Holland

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    Broken relationships, betrayal, lies, violence, and horror, Scars of Blue-A story of Policing, Corruption, Mental Health, and Survival is an unrestrained account of the life, love, and the loathing of a man serving in law enforcement. More than just another "cop book," this is a story of the heart and soul of the person behind the badge. It's a tale of a lifetime of loneliness, and a first-hand account of a personality shattered. It is also a story of hope and survival. Scars of Blue will give you a look at a life while serving the badge, and reveal the humanity behind those who wear it.

    Scars of Blue shares the life and police career of Chad Holland, who spent almost two decades in patrol, investigative, and elite units, while working in quant suburbia. As well as, one of the most dangerous cities in America. Beginning with the story of an abused and nearly broken little boy, and continuing onto a tragic, corrupt, and violence filled career in law enforcement, Scars of Blue gives you a front row seat into the life of a police officer. This is a personal account of what created the man behind the badge, and the personal suffering that followed.

    Raw, honest, and compelling- Chad provides a breathtaking account of what it's like to live in the split second moments a police officer has to act in order save lives, as well as the dreadfulness of having to take a life. He describes in vivid detail what it's like to psychologically drown in the emotions these terrifying moments leave forever upon you.
    LanguageEnglish
    PublisherBookBaby
    Release dateJun 1, 2021
    ISBN9781098361693
    Scars of Blue: A story of Policing, Corruption, Mental Health, and Survival

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