maladaptive
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So "maladaptive" is a story, where I am losing myself in a made up dream world after I refused accepting reality until it escalates in the end.
This book is composed of poems about the highs and lows in my life. The introduction encourages the reader to believe in their dreams until it turns into a bipolar nightmare full of self-doubts and pride while truths about social media and toxic friendships are uncovered. In the end I show you how it feels like to fall in love with an unavailable person and I will find myself distancing romantically from reality again.
It may contain sensitive topics like bullying, suicide, mental illness, violence, toxic friendships, eating disorders and unrequited love.
Katharina Stertz
Katharina Stertz is an author, artist, illustrator and writer. Through her art she wants to inspire and encourage people to create and to follow their dreams.
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maladaptive - Katharina Stertz
index
introduction
bipolar disorder
toxic friendship
social media
erotomania
introduction
I like what I do
even though I am not good at it
you should be jealous instead
because I found a way out of my sadness
I rather live in my dreams
and create their colors on my own
than drowning in that salty reality
Shout out to the people
who get excited about the little things
who appreciate the little sunrays in the morning
and admire the same sunrise every evening
like a true passionate lover
who fell in love with the sun
shoutout to the people
who try their best not to care
about other people’s thoughts
shoutout to the people
who are the biggest dreamers
who believe in themselves too
who lose themselves
in the deeper meaning of life
shoutout to the people
who are listening to their favorite songs
over and over again
without getting tired of them
shoutout to the people
who are not afraid of facing reality
who dare to fight on their own
shoutout to the people
who can enjoy their life sober
who are glad of their advantages
than taking advantage of you
I know you are stronger than you think
and I am proud of how far you have come
some people cannot see your starlight
when they are living their life on daylight
your time will come
when the sun is going down
listen,
you don’t need a formula for everything
some things are incomparable
some things are unpredictable
you need to accept it
as how you accept the incomparable beauty
of two different flowers
and when you realize that
you will be satisfied one day
if you are reading this right now
I promise you
the sun will rise again
the wildest storms will find an end
and the prettiest flowers will bloom
after the strongest rain
sometimes you are running too fast
until you stumble and fall on the ground
you will always stand up in the end
no matter how much time you need
to stand up again
no matter how much time you need
to heal your scars on your knees
believe me
you will run faster than ever
faster than everyone else
you noticed
I could change everything if I wanted
but you treated me like a psycho
just because I could not see my limits
I dreamt so much bigger and brighter
than everyone else
just to distract myself from my pain
alone I was going forward
I never gave up to live my dream one day
I worked hard to make it
I prayed for the things I needed
my head is in the universe
your framed expectations
won’t bring me down to earth
I am higher than the sun
I can read these jealous people
their green faces are full of envy
they were just too proud to grow
I have never settled for less
I knew they will look up at me one day
like they look up at the moon
because I believed in myself like in a religion
let me tell you