Talking To The God

By Constance Williams

A young woman’s spiritual experiences as she found herself asking many questions about God. His presences in her life when she really needed him and the times when she didn’t seem to need him, and the many spiritual revelation that begun occurring to her in those times. Therefore, she would bellow out why he wasn’t there for the troubled times, even though, she had done the right things such as praying, fasting and giving to the needy and the poor, the sick and the lame.
But the times, when she was in a comfortable place, holding a job and taking care of her home, and heavenly favors would never be readily available to her. Which, had her now holding on to her faith in God, while still seeking for answers when trouble came along.
Hence, she declared; when coming home from work one night and a police officer accuses her of running the stop light while she was in the middle of the road when the traffic light had changed from green to amber. After arguing back and forth with the officer and being tired coming from work, she wanted the bickering between them to stop. And after hearing the in the back of her car, a voice saying she should be brave, she blurted out a prayer of destruction. Causing the officer to pull his gun on her.
And with him pulling his weapon on her, two golden looking human beings, whom she presumed to be angels, appear from out of nowhere and began defending her.
She then recalled more of these mysterious events that kept on happening to her. Since, after finishing the night shift in a nursing home and driving home on a long lonely road, there came a loud noise from the vehicle she was driving; a tire was punctured, she thought.
Stepping out of her car and observing the damage, she thought, the company bus coming behind her would have stopped and replace the damage tire with the spare, seated in her car trunk.
Therefore, she sat for a while waiting for the bus to come. But instead, a brown car pulled up with tinted windows, a man exited it and began coming towards her with something looking like a crow-bar held behind him.
Finding it very strange that the stranger had his hand held behind, she was still thankful that help was coming her way. But before the man with the crow-bar in his hand could get any closer to her, a little blue car stopped with a white couple inside of it.
Hastily, the man jumped from his car and immediately got to work fixing her tire. And soon as he was done doing so, he waited for her to get back in the car and

• Language: English
• Publisher: Lulu.com
• Release date: Dec 30, 2020
• ISBN: 9781716277214

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Bool Title:

Talking To The Gods

Authored By:

Constance C. Williams

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Lulu

December 30, 2020

Title:

Talking To The Gods

Authored By:

Constance C. Williams

December 30, 2020

Talking To The Gods

Chapter One

Rantings

Where is he who cares for me?

Whom so many have professed, would bless me!

Why has he left me to suffer and moan?

Why do I feel so much shame, disgrace, pain and alone?

How could He say He loves me, and for a purpose like this I was born?

Why is there so much uncertainty and confusion; so much war, strife and delusion?

Where is the hope and prosperity; like He had given to men of old… land flowing with milk and honey; like He had promised to the courageous and the bold?

Am I to live like this?

Not a penny in my pocket and not a friend to cherish?

No adorableness of a child, a pet, a new worth or new birth to chuckle, about?

No comfortable home to dwell in, or, even good food to nourish my flesh which lacks the appearance of a well-nourished human body?

Where is the God who has created you, me and this planet we live in?

Who claimed, he knew us before we were beckon to come onto this earthly, green planet; seen with all its possessions?

Who has trillions like me in his powers that he releases, every time a male and female shack-up for seconds or even for hours?

Matrimonial or not, the struggle is the same, so I need these questions answer right now, so I don’t spread anymore blame, share the heart felt pain or the perpetuate game!

I know He is here alright! No doubt about that!

But what does he wants from me?

After I have suffered for so long on this planet called earth, not sure if I am going or coming; not even sure of my worth!

The abuse and mistreatment had been too much to bear!

And they weren’t coming from any aliens either; they were coming from folks who look and spoke just like me! Folks who understood my language, culture and customs; and some who had shared with me, the shelter I was dwelling in!

Why do you see me differently?

I asked.

But, I couldn’t get an answer! So I had to turn to a source far bigger than they who were around me, and who also had chosen me for this earthly purpose… this war!

Not too much of a spiritual on, though, but a spiritual battle.

Chapter Two

Reflection

I was less than a year old, when I heard and even had seen him! He had made a promise to me, he somehow couldn’t have kept!

It was very strange to me, but it stood vividly in my mind, as I wondered and pondered during life’s tiresome journeys. Sometimes lonely, sometimes sad; most times broken, at other-times, even confused and mad!

Not the madness that would take one to an insane facility, but a madness of figuring out who I am… where did I come from and why do I need so much publicity to get along?

But, most importantly, why was I always treated so inferior than anyone else, who was around me?

And so, I tucked in the corner of my mind; all the strange happenings I had observed and experienced during my short life-time or my every day journeys!

Most times, fearing the folks around me, would really call me mad and physically abuse me, even more than they already had!

Now I was much older and a little wiser too!

I had been to many a places around the world where knowledge was imparted into my brain… it was the best way for me to learn information spoken into my thick head!

I had obtained knowledge from educational systems of the world,

Knowledge, from religious systems of the world, and also knowledge, from off the many streets of the world.

Knowledge, that has been imprinted on the four corners of my mind now – knowledge and understanding that I will never ever forget now either… like rejecting cocaine, when I didn’t have a cent to my name!

While other knowledge came jingling into my brain whenever something similar would be occurring in my presences; causing me to question, where and when some of these experiences had unleashed themselves into my presence!

It was only natural that I started questioning the voices that I had heard; not in my head!

But those voices whom I had heard speaking, as if, someone was right there beside me… voices from persons whom I couldn’t even read their faces or even see!

Voices that uttered sounds that seemed to be with me while others seemed to be against me!

There were times, I didn’t know whom to trust; but I noticed, they had personalities like any grown human being… conflicting, caring and sometimes; dreadful and threatening!

Sometimes declaring horrendous warnings of arson, if dwellings were made of lumber, and not cemented or properly rendered! Causing the inhabitants or dwellings to slumber, because fire had completely taken it over.

Whether the losses were materially, financially or emotionally bound; they the dwellers would all end up suffering trilogy, leaving an effect of trifling trickling; and very little, or no triumphant reigning at all!

Only pure sorrowful endings and added sufferings!

Some of these spirit, I could tell, even embodying the body of men; causing them to activate other senses!

Sense of violence and contempt and senses of sexual permissiveness, allowing some to bed the already wed!

Many more of them would activate a sense of beheading, and when you ask why? They become clueless and can’t ascertain the reasons for shredding their own human brethren’s head!

Some portray them as Satan and others say demons, many more referred to them as reincarnated humans. Humans’ who somehow hadn’t fulfill their life’s mission!

But, I call some of them; Gods! Gods walking the earth trying to reclaim whatever was stolen from them, before and after their forefathers’ birth!

They needed to build kingdoms of their own, for whatever that is worth; I presumed.

Especially, since they have been rejected and alone for many a decades, without any direction about where they might have been from!

They could have realized that their souls hadn’t reached the heavens as yet, or probable, they haven’t obtained residency on any of the other planets; causing them to relive their lives here on earth. Resulting in them reaching another realm of heavens!

But, this is only my presumption and perception, though, only the True God really knows all things well.

And as a large shadow flow into my room that night, and kept still for a while, as if it was waiting for some orders from another source. I became very bold and demanded that it showed itself… I was too curious!

I needed to know who or what it was!

I was so very amazed when it responded to my request!

Amazingly, a beautiful dark skin man appeared to me with a fleshly being!

I could physically touch him and feel his smooth skin against my hands! Even though, my earthly consciousness had been altered for a brief moment, before I could actually do so!

I was shock!

I was in disbelief!

But not terrified at all!

And so, he came and sat at the edge of my bed beside me; as I felt his body to see if it was actually real!

And with the surprising emotions I was feeling, I commented to him that he was indeed beautiful!

In my mind, I immediately thought, that when it is said, that black is beautiful, it is really beautiful! And soon after, I was then out of the state of sub-consciousness and back to this natural realm of earthly understandings!

He then stated that he had to go now!

But where to, I did not know and neither did I get a chance to ask him, either!

Was my home a road for his journey?

I questioned myself.

Or, was he hiding from others who were of a different caliber in being or statue than he was?

Or had he just come there to see how I was doing?

My thoughts pondered.

And for many a times I had thought about it – this experience.

But he wouldn’t be the last one who would come to see about me or what I was doing!

And further looking back… I can recall in the state of New Jersey and in the dead of winter, when I went to visit my sister’s house for thanks giving dinner.

It was there that I had notice a flow of white clouds engulfing the house she was living in! Making me ask, if there was someone burning something – garbage in the back yard; causing a huge body of white clouds to engulf her entire house!

Although, I hadn’t smelled anything burning, I still had to ask because of the large puff of white smoke in front of me!

I needed to assured myself that what I had seen was for real!

I had to confirm it myself, so as to tell my consciousness that what I was observing was very, very, real!

It was shortly afterwards, I saw a little girl emerging from the clouds; as if, she as busy or on an errand!

She ran from room to room… looking and searching for something, but what? I couldn’t tell! And then, suddenly, she wasn’t to be witness anymore; vanished from my very eyes into thin air!

Somehow, though, I was amazed because she looked like me!

The only differences were; her hair was much longer than mine and the features of her face looked very, very white!

As white as the clouds in which she had emerged from!

I then turned to my sister to enquire from her; if she had noticed the body of white clouds inside of her house!

And nonchalantly, she responded…

It has been in the house all the time… ever since, I moved here!

I found it very strange, but stranger things would later happen!

Things that would make my mind be consumed with the life after death, stories, preached in churches and at other times, on street side pulpits.

Who are we exactly, and how many other persons knew about this spiritual world where activities weren’t much further from the living?

My thought continued to linger.

Chapter Three

Inquiring Angels

It was probable few weeks after visiting my sister’s house for thanksgiving dinner… at my own house, I had heard a tremendous banging on the walls of the house!

The banging continued for a while… couple minutes well!

I certainly believed, I had visitors; so I shouted more than once;

The door is open, come on in!

Needless to say no one responded or entered my house.

The banging continued even more, with much urgency.

I recalled saying out loud once again;

You guys must be getting deaf! Because I have yelling on the top of my lungs that the back door is open, so you guys should come on inside!

At this time, I thought it was my sister or one of my nieces who had come to visit me!

So I got up from where I was resting to enquire; why my so call visitors weren’t responding to anything that I was saying to them!

I then opened the back door and proceeded to march downstairs.

To my amazement, there was no one there!

I went outside the yard looking and calling out the names of my nieces and my sister; and still, no one answered!

I felt as though, someone was playing a prank on me!

Certainly, I didn’t realized I had a spiritual visitor until I was on my way back upstairs to my apartment and noticed a ball of fire coming from the gas hose behind the stove; just as I entered through the back door of my apartment!

This was propane gas!

This could blow up the entire house at any time… at any minute!

Strangely, I am not the one to panic at the drop of a hat! Or get hysteria at the drop of a catastrophic situation; but truthfully, my heart was racing; boom, boom, boom!!!

It was beating like a drum at a carnival festival!

I am usually pretty calm during any traumatic situations! But not this time around!

I wanted all that was necessary and important to me, to be saved!

However, I knew to call the emergency number of the city right away, even though, I was shaking like a leaf and a wet puppy!

So that’s what I did, first!

I then grabbed my pocket book with all my identification cards, my credentials and whatever little cash I had; and then I was out of there… out of the house in the flash of no time!

Another miracle was right behind this one; because by the time I bolted to the downstairs of the house to escape the inevitable, the fire truck was right at my door-steps! As though, they were already outside waiting for me to call them.

I couldn’t believe how fast they had arrived there!

It was as if, they were outside waiting for me to open the doors to let them inside!

Anyway, they entered the house with a rush… hose, tools and fire extinguisher in hand, as if, they were saving some place of very great importance, like the white house!

Some of the firemen, immediately, rushed to the basement of the house and turned off the main gas line from there! While some had entered my kitchen and removed the gas hose from behind the stove.

Warningly, they then instructed me to replace the gas hose as soon as I could! But, under no circumstances should I use the stove, until the old gas hose had been replaced!

No one could hold me from a thanks and praise dance!

It was coming deep from within… so I began praying and thanking the Almighty God, for sending an angel to alert me of the pending trouble, and for the earthly saints - the firemen, for responding as fast or as quickly as they have had done that day!

To me, this was evidence that there was an unseen being looking over me!

This unseen being, which I couldn’t see sometimes, but only hear; and at other times, I could hear, but couldn’t see!

And then again; I have to admit it… I sometimes could both see and hear him and also others!

Why the variables, of sometimes?

Sometimes seeing, sometimes hearing, and sometimes both!

This is a question, I too ask myself many a times… I’m still unable to come up with