Notes From A Broken Heart
By Elaine Wills
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Notes from a Broken Heart What I Wanted to Say is a titillating story of a woman seduced by a con man. Bennie stripped Sirrah of love, money, and self-esteem. Sirrah considered suicide, but God said, "No." In writing what started as suicide Notes, she worked her way back to stability. She could be any woman anywhere.
Sirrah's sto
Elaine Wills
Elaine Wills is an entrepreneur, educator, mother, and friend to many. She writes to inspire and relay messages of hope that there is nothing that God will not bring you through. As a survivor of childhood traumas and adversity, she overcame obstacles that taught her to rise above her circumstances and never give up hope. She obtained her bachelor's degree at the University of Detroit in Biology and Business Administration and a Master of Education Degree from Wayne State University. Her passion for helping people took her on a journey across the country where she became a certified Peer Support Specialist through the National Alliance for Mental Illness. Her tantalizing stores are meant to start a dialogue about issues that are swept under the rug, especially the issue of mental health. Her passion for storytelling was a catalyst for writing this, her first book. She aspires to inspire. Her creative depiction of relatable situation identifies how people deal with emotional trauma.
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Notes From A Broken Heart - Elaine Wills
Prologue
Things occur in life that trigger the darker side of our private thoughts. How do you grieve an unrequited relationship or mourn a lost love? What does it take to get over a lover who leaves without explanation or notice, tearing your heart to pieces? What about the person who wronged you and ignores you as if it were you that did something to him or her? She or he refuses to answer your calls or talk face to face. The former partner treats you like you are dead to her or him, while she or he is very much alive to you. Death would be easier to cope with; at least there is a body to bury. You might as well be dead. The impact of what happens in the heart of someone who falls in love with the uncaring person can be devastating. Does the perpetrator get to walk away with no consequence? The answer is yes, they do.
How many times have you felt a deep love connection with someone and wondered if the person felt it too? How do you deal with that situation? Do you play it safe and say nothing or assist that person by making yourself useful in some aspect of his or her life, hoping to get noticed? Do you risk rejection by voicing your feelings on the off chance that the one you love and admire will reciprocate? Either way, you leave yourself vulnerable. Love is a gamble that does not feel good to lose under any circumstance.
Notes from a Broken Heart is about a woman who bet on love and lost. She fell in love with a man that did not love her. The notes in this book reflect her effort to regain control of her life and emotions through written expression. She had no outlet for her pain and was too embarrassed and humiliated to tell anyone what happened, so she wrote her truth.
Sirrah had a good life. She was successful and financially stable, but something was missing. She didn’t have a mate. She longed for the kind of love that she witnessed between her mother and father. They had the sparkle of love. Sirrah met Bennie Zoudiki and trusted him to fill the void. She gave him the best of herself in anticipation of becoming his wife. For five years, Sirrah opened her heart and her finances to his promise of marriage. The more she gave, the farther away the promise moved. Sirrah put her hope and faith in a man. She put Bennie before her family. But most importantly, she put a man before God.
Notes from a Broken Heart is Sirrah’s reaction to the relationship with a man who almost took everything from her. Not only did he break Sirrah’s heart and cause financial damage, he also took peace of mind and damaged her spirit. The relationship brought her to a point where she wanted to die. Sirrah’s notes began as a suicide letter, pointing blame at the person who hurt her. She wanted everyone to know what Bennie did, how he treated her with disdain while she treasured and adored him. Bennie led her down a rabbit hole where nothing was real like Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland. She was left to figure out if he ever really loved her. Sirrah took care of his personal and physical needs. Casting her pearls before swine, she assumed a wife's duties without the benefit of being a wife. She loaned or ultimately gave him money because he never paid her back. Sirrah couldn’t prove it wasn’t an act of love after loaning Bennie cash because he wouldn’t sign a promissory note. He questioned her trust when she brought it up. Sirrah thought they were in a loving relationship, especially when Bennie proposed and moved into her house. He pulled her into a false sense of security with promises of a bright future. She allowed him access to everything, including her body, and all he did was take what she offered. Sirrah would later see the rift between his words and his actions. She mistook his actions for love. It was all lie.
Chapter 1
Sirrah Noel Washington was the seventeen-year-old only child of Zahara and Nicholas Washington. Zahara, a freelance restoration artist, is African American, and her father, Nicholas, is Caucasian. Nicholas was a colonel in the Air Force. He was in charge of all training at the flight test center. Flying was his passion. They lived on Edwards Air Force Base, called the middle of nowhere because it was in the Mojave Desert. It was an exciting place for Sirrah to grow up. It allowed easy access to areas with different climates. Her family visited Mammoth Mountain to ski. Las Vegas was four hours away, and Los Angeles was two hours in the opposite direction if they wanted to visit the beach. The Air Force base regularly provided entertainment. Sirrah thought the base’s most exciting feature was its flight test center. She loved watching different aircraft take-off and witnessed the Space Shuttle Columbia land in the lakebed.
Sirrah knew her parents loved and adored her. Her father encouraged her to be a strong Black woman. Even though she is biracial, he knew society would view his daughter as a Black woman. Nicholas was persistent in telling her she could be whatever she wanted and to not limit herself to mediocracy. Sirrah had a strong sense of self-worth and the value she represents as a person. Sirrah never doubted it when