Prison or Passion
By R.K. Russell
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Prison or Passion is a collection of vulnerable and eloquent poems from R.K. Russell, who has started and played in the NFL since 2015, for the Dallas Cowboys and Tampa Bay Buccaneers. With bare honesty, walloping punchlines, and endearing flare, Prison or Passion captures the struggles of being a young boy witho
R.K. Russell
Ryan Russell is a professional football player in the NFL and a born poet. He began writing around the age of seven when he lost his stepfather in a motorcycle accident and realized just how little his biological father was truly in his life. Ryan's mother relocated him from Buffalo, New York to Dallas, Texas were Ryan then fell in love with football. The environment in Buffalo was full of abuse and the family friends that were thought to be helping were actually doing the most damage. In Dallas it was safer for Ryan and his mother to only have each other. Though his love for football was well known and well celebrated he kept embracing, improving, and exploring his first love of writing. Ryan graduated from the prestigious Purdue University and was drafted to the Dallas Cowboys. He saw most of his success with the Tampa Bay Buccaneers and is excited to apply the same handwork and dedication to his writing.
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Prison or Passion - R.K. Russell
Prison or Passion
Poetry & Prose Collection
by
R.K. Russell
"To all the women who raise men,
The world isn’t aware of how vital you are."
Table of Contents
The Warden Isn’t Home
The Prison Has Flowers
The Free Man Repletion
The Warden Isn't Home
Here To Stay
The only thing that won’t
Leave me
Are these abandonment issues.
Love's Name
I don’t know love’s name.
I call at it with pronouns. Ma’am. Sir. Hey you.
I wait to make eye contact. To get love’s attention and obtain its affection.
I don’t know love’s name.
I wave in its direction but never touch.
Love never sees me.
I don’t know love’s name.
Maybe it’s because these scars have me too terrified
To introduce myself first.
Neverland
I’ve always been fascinated with Peter Pan.
His proposal sweetened by pixie dust and dreams that soar like him. Many nights I imagined the timeless boy tapping on my window in twilight. The way questions would fall over each other and tumble out of my mouth. Would he hear them over my grumbling stomach?
You see Peter, I’ve been a lost boy. I don’t need to run away because I was born into abandonment. I knew I had truly found Neverland because they would never love me.
Peter what do you fear? You never age, you’ll never die. Peter, I’ve been dying everyday. Loneliness my silent, slow, deliberate, killer. Surely a boy as hollow and empty as me can fly.
In my Neverland there is no Captain Hook. No one chases after this lost boy. God, I wish someone hated me that much. I wish I made someone feel something.
Damn it Peter, I wish I made anyone feel anything. I stayed up so late imagining what I would say to that timeless boy when he tapped on my window in the twilight.
Every night came. Every morning followed.
There was never a tap.
Neverland.
Four Letter Word
Don’t talk about
F
O
U
R
letter words you don’t believe in.
Open Door
I could feel the calluses on his hands as he held my heart.
He turned it over roughly a few times, growing familiar with its fragile surface.
Once he found the chamber where I held my love for him; he impaled the spot with both thumbs.
Gold rushed out and flowed over a bare ring finger and extended all the way to a scarred wrist; a failed attempt at silence.
He continued to peel my heart back turning it inside out, and I watched in self hating amusement.
After he rang the light from every corner he dropped the cold, empty, organ on stone floor and walked out.
I realized he didn’t bother closing the door in the first place.
That’s a sign that should have told me he wasn’t staying long.
I crawled over to the heart, my heart, not knowing I was on the floor the whole time.
For years I sat in that spot.
That one spot, and I filled my heart with love, light, and with GOLD.
After a few years I hear a knock at the door, and I let my father in to repeat a process my mind tells me I deserve.