Jesus Fibromyalgia and Me

By David Buie

This is an effort in understanding the thoughts and ideas of someone who was given a new perspective on life after he was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. A somewhat unique experience based on the fact that he is male and the majority of Fibromyalgia patients are female. Not just a male’s view, but an opportunity to learn and understand the trials and tribulations of an illness that remains a mystery. The normal perception is that if you look fine you must be fine. This is the reaction most Fibromyalgia patients get from those around them. Along with the new adjustments of a change in physical ability and mental sharpness, is the exploration of spiritual matters pertaining to the reality of my relationship with Jesus. This work is written with the hope that it will help someone who either has Fibromyalgia, or lives with someone who does. There is hope in the suffering.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Lulu.com
• Release date: Jul 12, 2018
• ISBN: 9781387941001

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Jesus Fibromyalgia and Me

Jesus

Fibromyalgia

and Me

DAVID MICHAEL BUIE

Copyright © 2004, 2018.

David Michael Buie

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Unless otherwise noted scripture quotations are from the King James Version. Used by permission.

Scripture quotations marked NLT are taken from the Holy Bible, New Living Translation,

Copyright © 1996. Used by permission of

Tyndal House Publishers, Inc.,

Wheaton Illinois 60189.

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Special Thanks:

To Jesus, My Lord and Savior,

For giving the gift of Life and the gift expressed in this work. Without you Jesus, this would have been impossible.

A brief description of this manuscript’s subject matter:

This is an effort in understanding the thoughts and ideas of someone who was given a new perspective on life after he was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. A somewhat unique experience based on the fact that he is male and the majority of Fibromyalgia patients are female. Not just a male’s view, but an opportunity to learn and understand the trials and tribulations of an illness that remains a mystery. The normal perception is that if you look fine you must be fine. This is the reaction most Fibromyalgia patients get from those around them. Along with the new adjustments of a change in physical ability and mental sharpness, is the exploration of spiritual matters pertaining to the reality of my relationship with Jesus. This work is written with the hope that it will help someone who either has Fibromyalgia, or lives with someone who does. There is hope in the suffering.

Shadows

Shadows on the wall

Mock my loneliness,

Reality sets in,

It’s just my life I miss.

Emptiness has my soul,

My losses are complete.

From a house on the sand,

There is no retreat.

No trace of tragedy,

No evidence of pain.

A picture perfect life,

To show no sin or stain.

An intellect on overtime,

Dreams that fell so fast.

Hope that disappears, from

A heart, that’s made of glass

God knows my insincerity,

I have an empty prayer,

A curse, a praise, a lie,

It’s just too hard to care.

Shadows on the wall,

Mock my loneliness.

Reality sets in,

It’s just my life I miss.

JESUS WAS GODS

ONLY BEGOTTEN SON

...THE ONLY PERFECT MAN TO EVER WALK THE EARTH...HIS PURPOSE....TO SEEK AND SAVE THAT WHICH WAS LOST...REJECTED BY HIS OWN CHOSEN PEOPLE...HE WAS BEATEN AND BLOODIED AND HUNG ON A WOODEN CROSS TO PAY THE PRICE OF...SIN...THE BARRIER BETWEEN GOD AND US...DIED ON THE CROSS...FORSAKEN BY GOD...WHO WILL NOT TOLERATE SIN...DEFEATED DEATH...BY COMING BACK TO LIFE ON THE THIRD DAY...THROUGH THE POWER OF GOD...FREELY GIVES THE SALVATION THAT HE PAID FOR...TO US...HIS OWN CHOSEN PEOPLE...WHO NOW ARE...ALL THOSE WHO WOULD BELIEVE.!

Introduction:

This is my account of learning to deal with the invisible demon called Fibromyalgia; An invisible illness that wreaks havoc in the lives of anyone who has, or lives, with someone who has it. The hardest part of living with this is learning your new limitations, and where the new you fits in now. Paralleled with this journey is the adventure, and I use that term loosely, of discovering the many facets I have in my relationship with Jesus. He is the only reason I can even begin to imagine enduring this chronic condition. I firmly believe there is purpose in the drastic change that has occurred in my life. Even though my physical abilities are somewhat diminished, the love of Jesus has shown me strength in my weakness. This journey is nowhere near complete, and this is not a perfectly detailed story. It is however, a look through a window into the many changes life has brought me. A glimpse of the physical struggle paired with the spiritual conflict of someone trying to find purpose. I realize there are so many who suffer a great deal more than I. There is but one truth and his name is Jesus. If he has allowed you to partake in his suffering, then he must have great plans for you. I like to remember this scripture:

So take a new grip with your tired hands and stand firm on your shaky legs. Mark out a straight path for your feet. Then those who follow you, though they are weak and lame, will not stumble and fall but will become strong. (NLT) Hebrews 12:12,13.

Chapter 1

I can still recall, in my mind, the events of the year 2001. It was the year I became someone else. This was not something I had planned, or even foresaw it just happened.

At a certain point early that year, my wife knew that something was not quite right. I had come home early from work, and by the time she got home, I had already made an appointment to see my doctor. I had experienced some strange aches and pains in the fall of the previous year, but just dismissed them as a product of just growing older. It soon became