Diary Of A Madman, Book 1: Recent Madness

By Jaysen True Blood

Welcome to Jay True Blood's mind.  Everything within this book has been taken from his nonfiction blog. Religion. Politics. Life philosophy. Personal epiphanies. FRom educational reforms to economic reforms, religious realizations to personal philosophies and even scientific thoughts...it's all here.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Jaysen True Blood
• Release date: Feb 3, 2020
• ISBN: 9781393937821

Jaysen True Blood

Jaysen True Blood was born and raised in the Midwest where he currently resides. His first taste of writing came early in grade school with a class assignment. a few years later, his love for writing would return as he found himself with another class assignment, this time a poetry unit. through junior high, he would write a series of novels, many poems, and begin his long interest in writing song lyrics as well. In high school, he would learn the value of tall tales, myths and other kinds of stories as he continued to build his store of stories. upon graduation, he went for a semester at a university, where he would write two stories, one of which would become a serial online for about six months. Returning home, he worked at just about anything he could find, but never strayed far from his love of the story. After his first marriage, he signed on with Keep It Coming, an e-zine, where he wrote two serials, "Tales From The Renge" and "Breed's Command" (the same characters appear with Fancy Marsh in several subsequent westerns. The serial was taken from a manuscript written for a class assignment while in high school). H also wrote writing and music related articles for the print version of KIC that came out for just three issues. When KIC went under, Jay was once again forced to work at different jobs just to make ends meet. between 2007 and 2010, Jay would release "Seven By Jay: Seven Short Stories", "The Price Of Lust: Book One Of Faces In The Crowd" and "So Here's To Twilight And Other Poems".

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Addiction and Disease in America

Posted on JANUARY 6, 2018

We hear a lot about addiction and disease in America today. We are either ignorant of the facts or too steeped in Party politics to give a clear thought about these subjects. We believe that certain air-borne viruses and bacterial infections are the deadliest diseases. Just like we attack certain drugs as being dangerous. But we neglect less tangible forms of both as being unimportant.

We can be addicted to many things. Nature based  and chemically designed drugs are only a tangible addiction. There is something far more addictive than these. It is willful ignorance. Willful ignorance, or blissful ignorance, is the desire not to know anything that might oppose your bias or the false information you have been fed. It causes its addicts to claim that the truth is all lies and lies are alternative facts.

This addiction leads to the worst kinds of disease: Hate, Fear, Greed, Bias, Prejudice, and Gluttony. These lead to such symptoms as a lack in compassion, self-worship, lust for power, narcissism, sociopathy, and worship of status...not to mention a tendency to see those with less as being your slaves and not important enough to further your needs.

Both the addiction and the diseases it causes are lethal to the people who suffer from them and those who become targeted because of the addiction. these diseases can cause the fall of even the mightiest nation, can destroy even the most noble of beliefs, and possible end all life as a result.

I may be exaggerating a bit, but you get the picture. In our arrogance, we have allowed people to become addicted to ignorance and thus, allowed the spread of the diseases it causes within the human soul. Physical addictions can be rehabilitated and physical diseases medicated into harmlessness, but spiritual and mental addictions and diseases (the ones that are taught, not medical) take a bit more to eradicate from each individual. And many times, those who suffer from them refuse to open minds and learn truths, thus making it impossible to rehabilitate them.

Sadly, this addiction and its subsequent diseases have overtaken even religious leadership, thus disseminating  to their flocks. It has permeated our political leadership and, thus, is handed down to their loyal party fellows as party doctrine. Most of all, it seems to have taken root within the elite, the wealthiest among us, and is handed down to us in misinformation, making us believe that the rich cannot get along without a tax cut or that corporations cannot afford to pay livable wages simply because the CEOs believe that their pay is far more important than those who actually do the work that makes the profits.

But it is this addiction and its diseases that we should address rather than whether weed should be illegal or whether personal preference (IE transgender, homosexual, nonsexual, and anything else that is a matter of choice or way of life) should be legislated or regulated. NO, I am not saying that I think they should legalize heroin or cocaine. Far from it. But, if you are going to sell a derivative, don’t be surprised if there are addicts.

All I am saying is that we need to end the addiction to ignorance. We need to put an end to diseases such as greed and hate so that we can truly unite as a country. Most of all, we need to quit focusing so much on the lifestyles of those around us and start looking inward, judging our own heart by what we see around us, rather than judging those around us by what resides in our heart.

Only In America

Posted on JANUARY 2, 2018

Only in America:

Can we say that we are Christian but worship sports, politics, money, hate, fear, celebrity, or power.

Can we claim to be Christian and yet never back to Judaic customs and laws or follow everyone BUT Christ.

Can we claim to be Christian, but sit in judgment of our neighbor.

Can we claim to be Christian, but condemn our neighbor.

Can we claim to be Christian, but oppress those around us

Can we claim to be persecuted when we aren’t, yet persecute those who do not believe as we do.

Can we claim that there is a war on Christianity and be the very ones waging it from within.

Can we claim to love God, but hate our neighbor.

Can we claim to love God, but oppress the poor.

Claim to love God, but ignore the messages He sends us through those we see as inferior, depressed, or heretical.

Only in America indeed. And only in America can we ignore the truth and history, and believe a greedy minority when they tell us that the facts lie.

Screaming Inside

Posted on DECEMBER 29, 2017

The last month has been torture for me. Yes, it has been exactly a month since my wife’s passing and I am still sitting in the wreckage that was once my life pondering why I need to be here. I have exhausted all lines of thought with every post...or so it feels.

Now, I just feel tired. Like someone who has overstayed their welcome somewhere. Or someone who has stayed on vacation way too long. Or someone who should have been gone long ago but who stayed just a bit longer to find out the ending of the movie.

I saw the end of the movie. I didn’t like it. It was too painful. Too much for me to bear.

I learned the deepest secrets of true love. I saw the fragile blossom preserved. And then...stomped put by death. Cold. Heartless.

I witnessed, within my own marriage, what was meant by Two become one. I also came to realize, upon her passing, how both die together. It was all so beautiful when she was alive, but now...

Now life holds no meaning. No reason. No color. Just the constant reminder that I am still here to finish what I started and to begin what needs to be begun. The warrior in me wants to pick a fight while the rebel in me wants to do something worth dying for. The revolutionary in me wants to start something BIG. Simple because I’m goin’ out with a bang.

Memorializing A Loved One

Posted on DECEMBER 18, 2017

It deeply saddens me how people make a memorial for a deceased loved one about their own personal religious belief. Whose memorial is it really? Ids it for the living? Or is it about the one who has passed?

So many make it about the living. What makes them comfortable? What should be played in their church? What symbolizes closure to them?

True closure, like a true memorial, is a celebration of the life that has passed. Catholics call it a Wake. I call it giving honor, in death, that should have been given in life. It is about being joyous about who and what a person was in their life, despite your own misgivings.

Forget the hollow ashes to ashes, dust to dust or the hollow unfeeling verses that a preacher might read. These are meaningless and self-serving. A true memorial is a celebration, not a sermon.

How well did you really know the deceased? Speak of the happy memories you had. Tell about the happiness that person brought to your life. the positive effects they had upon you.

Most of all, confess of all wrongs and realize that, even in death, you are forgiven much. Allow others to know how you treated the person. Was your relationship a good one? Was it a little strained? Or was there animosity between you because of something you did?

But always make the memorial a celebration of the person being memorialized and never a time to sermonize or try to claim salvation for a soul you had no hold upon. Salvation is up to God to determine at a later date, not for you to dispense through some pointless preachings or hymns that make YOU feel better.

No, a memorial is about remembering both the good and the bad about when a person was alive. It is about rejoicing and celebrating their life, even if you did not agree with what they believed or how they lived. We placed too much emphasis on our own desires while they were alive, now they are dead and our expectations have come to nothing. Allow these things to be laid to rest so that the person themselves can be remembered.

If the person was not overly religious, do not perform religious rites or rituals. If they did not believe that same way you believed, do not set up the ceremony you desire, but rather honor their wishes–whether written or spoken. Remember, they are still with you and can see what you are doing and whether their wishes are being fulfilled. Show respect for the deceased through keeping with their wishes.

Closure can only be found through rejoicing and celebrating the life now past. It cannot be found in empty sermons or misguided hymns. It cannot be found in a building or a religious conviction. Understand that no matter the path that the soul took during life, it was on the same path as you and that all paths, no matter the trappings hiding it, still leads in the same direction. It is only the misguided and the ignorant who believe otherwise. Celebrate the life, but do not see death as the end. Death is only the beginning of the next phase of the journey. What lays beyond remains a mystery.

In conclusion, remember that you are not the one being celebrated or memorialized. The dead is being celebrated or memorialized. They could care less about your desires for them. Keep your desires out of it. Simply celebrate the life now past and forget the religiosity. drop the illusions. rid yourself of the lies, the myths, the falsehoods. Forget about final conversion. Just celebrate the life you came to memorialize without trappings, without fear, and without bringing yourself into the picture unless it is through remembering good times and bad as a part of that person’s life.

Sorrow brings realization

Posted on DECEMBER 18, 2017

Though the realization first manifested itself before Kelly died, the silence after has given me ample time to come to terms and fully realize the implications of the revelation.  For those who have followed what I have put here in the past, you know that I do not classify myself as a Christian in the now widely accepted tradition. I do not agree with the way what should be a way of life is being billed as a religion or used for personal gain.

There is no promise of monetary gain. No promise of health beyond measure. No promise of happiness in this life. At least not in the actual words of Christ.

I suppose that a large part of the problem with modern Christianity is the fact that they forget what the true fundamentals are. They revert back to the Old Testament and/or cherry pick New Testament verses to suit their personal biases. At the same time, they ignore Christ’s actual example and teachings. They omit Christ from the dialogue they are using.

Let me explain what I have realized. Perhaps when I am through, you will find what I have found.

Let’s start by dividing the Bible into three sections.

The Old Testament. This is often referred to by Christ as the Law and the Prophets.As Christians, we should believe that this section has been fulfilled by the birth, ministry, death, and resurrection of Christ. In other words, this, for all intents and purposes, is no longer important as much of anything except as a foretelling of Christ’s first coming. It has nothing to do with our walk although Solomon’s wisdom should still be listened to and followed simply because it remains true. Christ summed up the laws of Moses in two different Golden Rules. The first summary, Love Your Neighbor as Yourself and Love God with Your Mind, Body, and Soul was later distilled down further in Do unto others as you would want them to do unto you.

The fundamentals of Christianity. There are only four books in this section: Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John. These four books contain the teachings, the ministry, and the example of Christ. It are these teachings and this example that we are to follow and exemplify not the teachings or examples of Paul, Peter, John, James, or Moses. We are to follow Christ. Therefore, we are only to take to heart that which appears in only the first four books in the NT simply because we walk according to a New Covenant, one where we are free-and therefore the rest of humanity also-to either follow or reject HIM. And if we follow him, we drop all of our prejudices, all of our fears, all of our hate, all of our greed, all our self-indulgences in order to fully focus upon the way of life he offers us. This means that being a Christian is not a religion. It is a way of life. And as such, it demands that we look inward, not outward, for what should be changed.

Finally, we come to the internal memos. Those books meant for specific churches that answered specific questions dealing with how to better separate the Christians from, say, the Bacchanalians or those