Scrupulosity: A Rude Awakening

By William J. Ryan

Christianity is primarily used as examples of Scrupulosity levels 1 through 4 in this book because of my familiarity with it and because of its power over this American government and its leaders, thereby all of us. The psychological disorder Scrupulosity is found by this author to be at a much more dangerous level than found in its classification as a form of OCD. I believe that it manifests itself in the criminal behaviors such as rape, murder, and genocide.
The sufferers of this learned religious mental disorder that is found in the human mind are all around us. They commit crimes and cover them up under the pretense of doing God's work. There is a word describing these criminals of God's and that word is Scrupulosity at any level. We all suffer because they all suffer.

• Language: English
• Publisher: William J. Ryan
• Release date: Apr 14, 2018
• ISBN: 9781370183340

William J. Ryan

I am William J. Ryan. I am in my 60’s, an autodidact (self-directed learner) and I am dyslexic. I not only suffer from trouble with letters, numbers and spelling of words changing on me, but structuring of sentences will sometimes be backwards. (Don’t worry; I hire someone to edit these stories before I publish them!) I write for the joy of writing, of getting an idea out there. I write in many different genres, children’s stories, historical fiction, fiction, science fiction, crime, and adventure, all the way to anti-religion. I do research on everything that I write about in order to try to be as factual as I can be. I have self – published 35 books and 22 screenplays! Self - publishing is a great way to start, but it is hard to get the audience’s attention. I am also the illustrator of all the artwork within each of my books and most of the cover art. You won’t find many authors out there that include artwork in their stories. More About Me Born in poverty, by white trash sperm and egg donors, my childhood was one horrific nightmare after another, that I would spend the rest of my life overcoming. Freeing myself from this extremely dysfunctional cluster of lost self-indulgent beings, by cutting off all contact with them, was the best thing I ever did. At an early age I chose not to have children for I was not given the skill to raise them and chose not to pass on the gruesome genetic dysfunctions that I had inherited. Writing personal painful events in one of my fictional characters is second nature and comes far far far too easy. In my early 20s, I discovered my reading and learning disability had a name, Dyslexia and I worked as an adult to overcome letters and numbers changing before my eyes. Later in life, as an older adult, I learned the power of reading and writing and became an Autodidact. This affliction never leaves the afflicted. I am glad to trade the curse of Dyslexia for the skills to invent and create people places and events that I see so clearly in my mind’s eye. Every story, every town, every person is 100% real to me and I see every picture on the wall, the view out the window, the streets and homes of the neighborhoods, making them all real to me and I hope the reader. Artfully crafted acquired skills, from a childhood trying to escape the insanity surrounding this small boy and his young developing mind, where he found himself. i.e. A clear example of a Dyslexic sentence. A short stent (seven years), in the criminal banking industry; where I saw V.P.’s change mortgage interest rates higher on loans, to increase the profits for the bank, cheating the customers. When I refused to participate, I was told, “I needed to think of the Bank First”. My response was “I will never do this.” I also witnessed V.P.’s instruct managers to create duplicate false files (and they did) concealing the crimes of the bank during a government audit, so they would pass. When I could find the courage to walk out, (without notice for they did not earn it) I did and changed my life’s path for the better, still looking for that place in my child’s mind, where people were honest, decent and truthful. All of my life up to this point, I could not face my tormentors, because I was beaten down so badly as a child. I finally found my voice and the inner strength to take the bullies in my life on,,, one at a time. With each confrontation, with each face to face battle, I have grown stronger and developed the skills to beat back the bullies of the world, exposing them for what they truly are. There is no one I will not attack back, fending off their aggression, their bullying of the weakest among us all,,, children,,, has become my single life focal point. At this intolerant unforgiving stage in my life, my understanding of man’s history, is continually being rewritten, removing the light of truth, so I pull further away from people. The worst being the so called God Fearing People, that believe they can do anything to anyone and God will forgive their sins so they can do it again. Every one of them has shown me the black oozing bag that is their soul. There is no helping them, so I stopped trying and recoil from the religious. The evil that all religious people do every day, in their God’s name, (genocide, rape of a child, land grab, slavery) show us all that their god must have horns and a pointy tale. This clear understanding of people and the evil that exist just under the skin, emerges in all my stories. A good writer should not create without understanding, but write what they know. I know this evil all too well and I can write and attest to it!!! Favorite Quotes (some) “Just because you are born in shit, does not mean you must stay there.” The quote is from a female pilot from WWII, instrumental in the development of the WASP, name unknown. “A man’s strength is measured by the strength of his enemies” Sioux These quotes are indeed very powerful. My list is very long and grows with every day. Each day I wait for them to come and kill me,,, the Deceivers that I expose. “Hell is other people” From the book NO EXIT by Jean-Paul Sartre 1944. The things he must have witnessed,,, as the Good German Christians gathered up the Jews (the god killers, Jewish Decide) for the slaughter. Oops did I let that slip? Yes the Nazis were unapologetic-ally Christian,,, Gott Mit Uns (God with us) was worn upon every German Christians soldiers belt as they justified their actions with words of Scrupulosity and its madness. Example; “Our movement is Christian” Adolf Hitler. These Christians are not good people and for me this quote helps prove it. “The waste,,, the waste,,, the waste.” These were the last words of the abdicated King Edward VIII of England. Somehow it seems to sum up the best efforts of man on Earth. “I am ashamed to say I am a member of the human race.” said by Charles Bukowski, August 16th 1920 to March 9th 1994. Words I hear in my mind every day as I see more atrocities of man and his foot print upon this small planet. I carry all of these words with me every day and use them to steer me from the rocky shores of others as I set the heading of my ship away,,, off into the setting sun,,, as I was born,,, alone. Personal Hero’s Ferdinand Waldo Demara Jr.; his skills of camouflages and moving from one life to another, immeasurably helped to guide me and re-invent myself for the better. It is with envy I look to him and his life, for he truly is,,, The Great Impostor. This is but a small window into my soul and reveals but a small part of what has made this man what he is,,, good or bad.

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Scrupulosity

A Rude Awakening

Written and Illustrated by William J. Ryan

Copyright 2018 William J. Ryan

Published by William J. Ryan at Smashwords

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All information, theories and any philosophies or hypotheses should be verified by the reader from outside sources before one takes action to protect oneself from any of the impending dooms that are predicted to come within this book. All theories and characters in this book (if any) are fictitious and any resemblance to others or actual persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental unless a true name is used and true quotes are used.

It is hard to do the right things when

others around you are doing the wrong

things (murder, rape of a child).

Table of Contents

Preface

Chapter One

Chapter Two

ChapterThree

Chapter Four

Chapter Five

Chapter Six

Chapter Seven

Chapter Eight

Dictionary

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Preface

Scrupulosity: Reportedly 1.) A psychological disorder, with possible pathological guilt over moral or religious issues. 2.) An obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD). For me, the author of this book, I have broken the subject down into four categories which helps me to think of Scrupulosity as an obsessive addiction as well.

It should be noted that I am not a psychologist or a psychiatrist, but I am a layman trying to understand the madness that accompanies God and religion.

Layman: 1.) Non-ordained member of a church. 2.) A person without professional or specialized knowledge of a particular subject. Both meanings apply with regard to myself and this book, (except that I am not a member of a church).

Scrupulosity is a well kept secret. Few people openly discuss this subject for fear of reprisals from the faithful. Galileo Galilei, known by some as the father of astronomy, modern physics and modern science, was born in 1564 and died in 1642 while under house arrest by the Christian power. The religious have a history of striking back at those attempting to stand up, challenge or attempt to discredit their religion. They believe that they are defending their god and their actions (rape of a child, murder, genocide) are somehow in their god’s name.

Those attempts or attacks can be found within what I call the Three Deadly Sins (TDS): 1.) Dishonesty; 2.) Felony; 3.) Embarrassment. These three require some detailed explanation to help understand their applications in this book.

Dishonesty is not used as we laymen may think of the word, for the extremely religious, the word has other twisted meanings. 1.) To get openly caught by the public or non-religious. 2.) Breaking mans laws is to be overcome; breaking God’s laws requires only self proclaimed forgiveness and justification. It should be noted that the extremely religious feel they are above man’s and God’s laws. For me, it helps explain why the guilty are not presecuted.

Felony is a rare event that takes place when the extremely religious can no longer be protected by their faithful followers and are prosecuted by the non-religious and man’s inconvenient temporary laws. These man laws get in the way of the God people and are to be overcome at all costs, for they have twisted things in their minds, thinking they are doing God’s wor and have special rights.

Embarrassment: this may in fact be the worst of all sins within all churches, over rape of a child, murder and genocide. For to bring embarrassment down upon the extremely religious is the greatest sin of all. Apostasy will occur with total renunciation from those within the holy circle, cult or pod. Total blind faith is a requirement of all religions… not the truth. The two cannot mix or the pillars of God will crumble. This madness found within must prevail at all costs.

Because I can find little information on this obsessive compulsive disorder, I wanted to understand it better and in doing so, I have broken Scrupulosity down into four parts, as this layman understands.

It should be understood from the start that I am not making fun of God and I am not trying to destroy peoples belief in God. I wish only to expose