Code Blue: An Oath to the Badge and Gun 4: Code Blue, #4
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Gary is at wits end and he's finally made a decision to take all of the gathered evidence he has and decides to report everything to the Department of Justice. As he reports everything, he worries about what's to come of his life as he can no longer be a police officer. He finally comes to grips that there's much more to be done about racial issues in America. Gary also starts to repair the relationship he once had with his son Gary, Jr. A book that will make you realize that life is more than just a paycheck and a pension and it's about doing what's right.
Jamell Crouthers
Jamell Crouthers started writing at the age of 13, it wasn't until his 30s where he realized he could impact others with his writing. Jamell was able to incorporate a prose format and social issues and be able to write books on what's going on in the world today. Writing about social issues is something that Jamell is very concerned about and his writing journey has allowed him to write books on various subjects. His goal is to change the world one book at a time.
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Code Blue - Jamell Crouthers
The Paranoia Is Real
I came home from a brief vacation to unmarked cars,
Sitting on my block and they’re watching me.
Everywhere I turn, I feel someone is behind me,
Whether it’s a car or a person in front of my house.
Constantly being watched, this doesn’t feel good,
Trying to get sleep is a joke, I’m constantly looking out of my window.
I drink to try and forget someone is possibly watching me,
Seeing unmarked cars parked in front of my house most nights.
My conscience is eating away at me after all that I’ve seen and let happen,
My vacation barely helped, I came back to an empty home and liquor bottles.
I’ve had enough, I walked outside and walked up to the unmarked car,
I needed to know their deal and why I was being constantly watched.
They were private investigators watching my every move,
I surely wasn’t told much information other than me being investigated.
Their job was to watch and see my movements, what I do daily,
They know of my alcohol addiction, my guilty conscience.
There were all of these questions, I asked what I was being investigated for,
I was told it was corruption within the police department and DEA.
They didn’t understand, I was caught up in the middle of it,
I didn’t actually commit any corruption but I’m an accessory to them.
My only way out was to go talk to the Department of Justice,
They already knew I had all of the evidence to expose everything.
I started to ask how in the world they knew I had evidence and information,
All they would tell me is they know of the bulletins in my car and the illegal money.
Damn, I actually forgot about the money in my glove compartment,
Which meant they must’ve been sitting in the parking lot that day.
They were watching me the whole time, they knew I was a good cop,
I started to wonder if the DOJ had me followed after my deposition.
Reflecting back on all of the lies I told them that day as I was nervous,
When I left that deposition and ended up in the bathroom vomiting and emotionally torn.
Now I’m scared shitless of prison time and not getting out of this mess,
Thinking about the badges that sit on my living room table.
My paranoia was on point, so was my gut reaction to seeing them everyday,
Which got me to thinking, they must have been following me since that day.
They know about my wife and son moving out, all of the cases,
They surely weren't telling how long they’ve been following me but I have an idea.
I wanted to invite these guys in my house but I truthfully couldn’t,
My house looked like a tornado hit it full of liquor bottles on my living room floor.
They told me it was time to make certain decisions in my life,
Along with getting help for my alcohol addiction because it’s clouded my judgment.
I told them not really, it was an escape from reality for just a little while,
Then one of the guys told me he was a former alcoholic and he knows the deal.
So I couldn’t bullshit him, which means I have to get my life together,
I asked how long were they planning on following me, I was told until I went to the DOJ.
I was basically fucked at this point, there was a point of no return,
I’m a corrupt cop who has let innocent men die and an alcoholic who needed help.
I walked away from their car knowing that I had some truths to face,
Soon enough, I’ll make the biggest decision of my life, I’m done thinking...
The Decision
I sat on my couch with a bottle of liquor next to me,
And the DOJ phone number of the investigators.
The decision was calm my sanity by getting drunk another night,
Or dial these numbers and set up a meeting with the DOJ.
Maybe I could do both, I can call, setup the meeting,
Then celebrate by drinking, I would no longer be trying to escape.
Here I go trying to trick my mind into drinking, yeah that guy was right,
I was full of shit and in denial of my addiction, well at least most days.
All I’m doing is fooling myself and my mind is playing tricks