Cry Out!
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Dr. Cynthia D. Cole
I am qualitfied to write this book because it is about my life. It is about my life experience and the journeys that have created the woman that I am today. Writing this book about my life has facilitated my overcoming many personal obstacles that I felt were preventing me from realizing my fullest potential in my life to myself and others. I was abused as a child and it took many years for me to overcome and understand that I am important, meaningful, and great as I exist at this time. I now understand the importance of family, friends, and God's presence in my life. My personal accomplishments have facilitated my ability to write this book. I have completed educational milestones to a PHD in Psychology which has also provided clarity to my personal well-being and health. I have come to understand myself, family and others on a higher level of learning. I currently reside in Pensacola, Florida after retiring from the U.S. Navy for 20 years.
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Cry Out! - Dr. Cynthia D. Cole
© 2012 by Dr. Cynthia D. Cole. All rights reserved.
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First published by AuthorHouse 01/04/2012
ISBN: 978-1-4685-4016-1 (sc)
ISBN: 978-1-4685-4015-4 (ebk)
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Contents
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 1
Growing Pains
Brewton, Alabama is a small town where I was born in an area called Pea Ridge, Alabama on Aug 27, 1960. When I was born I had two brothers, Otis and Ozzie. They are both seven years older than me. Ozzie and I have the same mother, Daisy, and Otis and I have the same father, Ruel. My mother and father, Daisy and Ruel Floyd, were married in 1958 and we had bought a very small house where we all lived. My brother, Ozzie, always looked out for me and when I turned three, he started to take me places with him and his friends, on my mother’s orders, of course.
My sister, Edwina, was born in 1962, and I don’t remember much about her except for what my parents and family told me. My parents say that she was very different from me, she was very aggressive. My brother, Ozzie, says that she was very sweet and always wanted to sleep with him. At a year and a half, she became very sick. My parents say that she had an enlarged heart. She was admitted to McMillan Hospital which was the only hospital in Brewton, which at the time wasn’t very good. After several months of being there, my parents decided to take her to Pensacola, Fl. A physician stated that they wanted to give her a shot before she was discharged from McMillan, and when my father was taking her to the car and was placing her in the back seat to rest, she collapsed and died. I don’t remember her except for her being in an incubator at the hospital and my time standing at the coffin during the funeral.
During the 60’s, racism existed, however, I was too small to realize it. My family seemed frustrated by it sometime, but I don’t remember them saying that it was as serious as it was maybe twenty years ago from the 60’s. My mother’s family, the Thomas’s and Griffins, visited us a lot from Evergreen, Alabama which was only an hour away from our house. We would always attend church where my father was raised with his great-aunt Big Mama; her real name was Julia, and the rest of his family. My father’s family was huge; there were three to four generations.
When we went to church on Sunday, it was an all-day event, typical of most church’s routine. I loved going to church and visiting my family, because I got so much attention from my great aunts and uncles. I was my Big Mama’s favorite, I know because she never hit me like she did the others and I never did anything to make her want to hit me. Basically, I was afraid so I always made sure I didn’t make the same mistakes they did to make Big Mama upset with them.
My brother Otis lived with mostly with my Big Mama and sometimes he would stay with us. Ozzie and Otis didn’t really like each other; I think they were jealous of each other. So Otis would not visit too often. I would miss him when he left and I wanted all of us to be together. Ozzie did not get along that well with my dad either he would always get in trouble because of skipping school or fighting. My dad was very controlling so he was very strict on me too.
I had a lot of friends during my middle and high school year and my dad would not allow me to be with them. He would always accuse me of boys and say that I was not to have my girlfriends call me because he knew that they were calling me to connect with boys. However, this wasn’t true but I could not convince him otherwise. I wish he had trusted me more.
My mother was somewhat passive when it came to discipline. She was always working with two or more jobs trying to make life better for us. She was always saying that she did not want to be poor like her parents and did not want any more kids. She was always buying new things like furniture, cars and clothes. My mother worked out of town in Andalusia, Al. at a shirt factory. My father worked in Brewton, Alabama, at a wood mill during the day in which he was able to take care of me while my mother wasn’t home. She also worked at Gleaton Cleaners during the day. Sometime after school or during the summer, I would go with her to work.
My mother was not very good at punishment. She whipped me once when I was kid, I don’t remember what it was about but I screamed at her that I hated her and she never whipped me again. However, she was very good at slapping me whenever I did or said something she didn’t like. Sometimes we would be out shopping and she would just turn and slap me and I would ask why she did that and she would say, You know why
, but I didn’t most of the time.
During my elementary school years, we purchased a house in Brewton, Al which was very small. My father was a carpenter too so he built two more bedrooms, a den and carport onto the house. We were the typical family; we would have school, work during the week. On Saturdays, we would go to Pensacola, Fl, which is only about an hour from our house.
We would always go and visit my grandfather (on my father’s side) and his sisters while we were there. If we didn’t go I would always beg to see my grandfather. I loved him so much and he would always have a dollar for me whenever I came to visit him. I would have visited him anyway even if he did not have any money. He was so funny and he could always make me laugh. Occasionally, my parents would let me spend the night with him and I would have so much fun.
We didn’t really do anything that much, just sitting around talking and playing. I remember one night, he was drinking and he asked his wife, Jesse, to fix him another drink. When he lifted the glass to drink, the bottom fell out of it, and his face was hilarious. I laughed so hard at him but his wife didn’t think so because she