Soul Shatter: Hidden Effects of Severe Physical and Psychological Trauma

By RMF Runyan

A personal delving into the effects of severe physical and psychological trauma and severe traumatic brain injury. Also delves into the resulting CPTSD on top of suffering Adult ADHD.

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• Language: English
• Publisher: RMF Runyan
• Release date: Jul 12, 2018
• ISBN: 9780463037461

RMF Runyan

A life long atheist.

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Notes & Foreword

This is a collection of posts I and others made at Atheist Republic (AR) forums, with some elaboration and refinement made to the text. Posts made by others have had no changes made except for formatting. There are two additional essays I have written which are connected to the initial AR posting, but have not been posted at AR.

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Acknowledgment

I wish to thank LogicFTW at the Atheist Republic for giving half of the title of this treatise. He was the one who said, "…a rare, no bullshit window into a truly life changing event…"

Thanks, Dude.

And before I even get into the nightmare, I feel you should know what my family truly meant to me. Although this poem was written for my wife (29 years ago, 1990), to my wife, it can be applied to the love a father also had for his twin daughters. Even to this day, I cannot read this poem without crying.

When I say, I Love You…

I say the words I Love You so much that I wonder sometimes if you take for granted the feelings that are behind them.

I never want you to see them as just words to begin or end a conversation.

I Love You is just my way of saying that you have touched a place in my heart and made me come alive.

You have claimed a part of my heart that, no matter what happens to us, will always belong to you.

You taught me how to love, you broke through all my defenses, and you comforted my fears.

You touched places in me I never knew I had and made me feel things I never thought I’d feel.

You have all of the patience, care, understanding, and concern needed to build the kind of relationship we have, and to build the kind of relationship we shall forever have.

So when I say I Love You, the words are not spoken out of habit.

It is my way of saying thank you for being you and for returning some of the joy you have given me.

Your Everloving SoulMate…

Soul Shatter

Hidden Effects of Severe Physical

and Psychological Trauma

Author’s Note: This is an attempt to rewrite part of a Research Paper, titled as above, written about 12, 13, 14, ?? years ago from memory. It shall not be exact. Even though I have been an atheist all my life, I do mention such things as "soul and even the dreaded g word. Just remember, soul is used because there is no better way to describe the deep mental, emotional, and psychological trauma. And the g word is just used because of a bad habit" ingrained by the Religious Absolutists.

Additional Author’s Note: I posted an older version of this on the Atheist Republic forums. I have since included the responses to that posting. The opening interrogative (italics) is exactly the same as the opening of the original paper.

If you knew where a lightning bolt was going to strike, would that make dealing with its aftermath any easier?

For our eighteenth wedding anniversary, I made plans to drive the Skyline Drive and Blue Ridge Parkway with my wife and daughters, staying at B&Bs (Bed and Breakfast inns) along the way. Which reminds me: Why do we park our cars on a driveway and drive them on a parkway?

Yes, I added this in the original paper as an attempt to lighten the horrible nightmare that follows.

I cannot tell you exactly where on the Skyline Drive we were at when the accident happened. All I can tell you is that I ended up in a hospital in Charlottesville, Virginia. I have looked at the Skyline Drive near Charlottesville using Google Earth Pro and have found a couple of places where this accident could have occurred. However, I cannot say