Butterfly on the Highway: A Guide to Experiencing Spiritual Transformation in the Face of Adversity
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How do you get past trauma? How do you overcome the storms that have overwhelmed you? Follow Melanie Sanders-Stewart as she details her journey from struggle to victory. Learn how she survived everything from a broken heart to a murderous truck driver who was hell-bent on revenge. Hear God's heart regarding your situation. If you want to get past the tears, the questions and the doubt, this book is for you!
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Butterfly on the Highway - Melanie Stewart
Butterfly on the Highway
A Guide to Experiencing Spiritual Transformation in the Face of Adversity
Copyright 2018 Melanie Sanders Stewart
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Butterfly on the Highway
A Guide to Experiencing Spiritual Transformation in the Face of Adversity
Melanie Sanders Stewart, PhD
© 2018, Melanie Sanders Stewart
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I have tried to recreate events, locales and conversations from my memories of them. In order to maintain their anonymity in some instances I have changed the names of individuals and places, I may have changed some identifying characteristics and details such as physical properties, occupations and places of residence.
Dedication
To the Almighty God of the Universe for pursuing me with your ever-lasting love.
To Jesus for hearing the cry of my heart and answering it.
To the Holy Spirit for inspiring me to write just as you inspired the authors of the Bible.
To my mom, Frances, and my sister, Patrice, for always lending me an ear or a shoulder and loving me through it all.
To my daughter, Alyx, for being my tireless cheerleader.
Acknowledgments
Sharon Benson—you always told me the truth, though it was sometimes hard to hear. You never neglected to love me unconditionally, and that made it all worthwhile.
Janice Kay Gunter—you always make me feel like I can do everything! You are a great teacher and an even greater friend. Thanks for cleaning up my grammatical errors in the first draft. Love you, Big Sis!
Tiffany Buckner—your Spirit of Excellence shines through all you do. Thanks for being such a wonderful editor and publisher. You made me feel like I could really complete this!
My fellow Media Specialists in my district—because you always strive for excellence at work and have such loving support for one another, I just want to brag about how your care helped me to press forward with my dream.
Russ McLeod—for identifying the depths of my visions in vitro and encouraging me to birth them out.
Table of Contents
Introduction
Chapter 1
The Darkest Hour of the Soul
Chapter 2
I Don’t Deserve This
Chapter 3
The Heart of the Matter
Chapter 4
Out of the Deep
Chapter 5
My Personal Apocalypse
Chapter 6
The Formula
Chapter 7
Going Where You Don’t Want to Go and Doing What You Don’t Want to Do
Chapter 8
Things are Not What They Seem to Be
Chapter 9
You Don’t Have to Do Life Alone
Chapter 10
Beauty for Ashes
Chapter 11
The Struggle
Chapter 12
Get Out
Chapter 13
The End of the Journey (Or Is It?)
Introduction
Butterfly on the Highway is a compilation of the journeys we undertake as we progress through life. It is a story of stories--a saga of sagas. Sometimes, we have a choice of which road in life to take, but sometimes, like a butterfly on a busy highway, we are tossed about, and a path is chosen for us. We wake up one day to find ourselves suddenly in the line of fire, traveling down a road we would not have chosen, and we question ourselves. We handicap and stunt our growth by thinking if we'd turned right, turned left, or stood still perhaps none of it would have happened. We would be in a better place physically, spiritually and financially … a place where we would live and thrive in a state of unmatched euphoria. To dwell on this and overwhelm ourselves searching for immediate answers is counterproductive and a moot point. Life is not a state of perfection, but rather, a slow, painstaking process that blows us from one direction to another like a butterfly on a windy day. We question our identities and how we've ended up in the realities we've been subjected to--only to wish that we were someone else. The fact of the matter is…you are who you are right now, and there is a greater purpose behind it all. Sooner or later, we all see the light at the end of the tunnel, whether it be through life or death. We reach a plateau where all travels and questions come to an end, and then, we are ready for the next step. This is where the real journey begins.
Chapter 1
The Darkest Hour of the Soul
Have you heard anything yet?
Maggie asked.
John glanced from the road briefly to give her a confused look.
Heard what? From who?
he asked, perplexed.
From God.
John released a deep sigh and gripped the steering wheel tighter.
No. Nothing yet.
They rode on in silence for a while, each of them deep in thought. Finally, Maggie couldn’t stand to replay the day over in her mind anymore. She needed some distraction. She reached over and turned on the radio. The song I Trust You
by James Fortune was playing. The lyrics seemed to describe all they felt after spending the whole of the day at the hospital. The prognosis was not good.
The doctor flung around terms that were more than a little difficult to comprehend, but there were a few words they understood all too easily—Take care of all your business while you can.
A storm was brewing on the horizon. Ominous, dark clouds quickly rolled in, almost covering the sun completely. There was no hope left, and both John and Maggie were drained at the thought that this time next year, she would not be there at all. What about the girls? They needed a mother. What about her family? She'd always been the dependable one — the glue that held everyone together. What about John? She was his life — his reason for living. What would he do now? None of this had been in the plan. They were supposed to grow old together. That’s how it should be. She'd just celebrated her birthday a month prior to the news, and it was disheartening to know that it was probably her last.
The song continued. As the singers’ voices began to swell with impassioned certainty, something moved deep within Maggie, and she began to cry. There was so much to do before her heart gave out. Yet, one thought kept moving to the forefront of her mind— the question that had plagued her since her first heart palpitation years ago: Would everything be alright?
Your job performance for the past few months has been subpar. Therefore, the board has reached a consensus. Andrew, you are terminated from your position effective immediately. Security will escort you to your office to retrieve your things and then to your car.
With a wave of the hand, Andrew was dismissed from a job he'd dedicated the majority of his days and nights to. He thought of all the years he had neglected family events and his own personal health in order to make sure all his work was done and to make sure that the bosses and investors were satisfied. As he walked down the hallway, Andrew felt like his life was over. How will I pay my bills? What will everyone think? How could they do this to me after all the time I've committed to working for them and all the things I gave up for them? What will happen to my family? Why now? Why me?
Melinda was five months pregnant when she found out about the affair. Oh, he was a sneaky one, all right. He made every effort to cover up every move he'd made between her and the other one.
Yet, even though he did all he could to keep her from finding out—and it did work for a long time—Melinda found the letter from her
in the armrest of his truck. Her suspicions were finally confirmed, even though she could do nothing about the affair.
All throughout her marriage, Melinda had been verbally abused and controlled by her husband. He moved her far away from her family and wouldn’t allow her to have any friends. Anytime she talked on the phone, he would snatch it out of her hand to see who she was talking to. He wouldn’t even allow her to have