Logbook of an Explorer The Pinocchio Story Finding the Self

By Paul Lungust

Using free verse poems as clues to a hidden treasure trove of knowledge, this book leads the reader through one realization after another, toward an understanding of a possible and very plausible view of Life and the universe. Recorded during many sessions of meditation, the author, a self-proclaimed explorer, gives a guided tour of his thoughts and realizations while seeking to find his own version of the self – the true self.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Paul Lungust
• Release date: Sep 13, 2017
• ISBN: 9781370594702

Paul Lungust

Michael Countryman (Aka, Paul Lungust), BA, is retired from 30+ years of research related programming, as a statistical programmer. During high school, Michael studied Auto Body Repair with no thoughts of entering collage. In the Army, as an enlisted soldier, he learned to diagnosis faulty avionics equipment on helicopters. After leaving the Army with an honorable discharge, he went to work for an oil exploration company as an Open Hole Engineer. And then, eventually, during his senior year of college at the University of Texas at Arlington, while studying in the experimental psychology department, he was nominated for senior of the year and was given the honor of participating in a senior's thesis program, where he self-learned the SAS programming language for analyzing statistical data. In 1987 he got his first programming job as a SAS programmer, and from there moved from one company to another searching for some yet to be discovered sense of fulfillment. In 1990 Michael learned to use the Tarot cards and became involved in energy healing - taking classes in Reiky and Shiatsu massage. In his Reiky class he felt for the first time the sense of connection that he had been searching for. He later met a psychic healer from Russia, and traveled with her for more than a year, learning the inside secretes from a life-long practitioner. He had his own clients for a short time, but became skeptical of the true effectiveness of his work as a healer, when his mother died from a long term illness without him being able save her.In 2000 he studied meditation at Buddha Gate monastery, near San Francisco. Between programming gigs, mostly in pharmaceutical companies, Michael would isolate himself and go deep into meditation. In Eugene, Oregon, he spent six months in a small apartment, meditating for eight to ten hours a day. After the 9/11 tragedy he moved to China and taught English as a foreign language. He lived and taught English in China for over nine years, working in several different private schools and eventually opening his own school, where he taught only during the weekends and only three students at a time. The other five days a week he concentrated on perfecting the message that he would present in his writings. "There is no need to write anything, unless you know that your words are true today and tomorrow," he said.Now, retired and living in a travel trailer in East Texas, Michael continues to work alone trying to put into concise words and telling stories the truth of our existence and our connections to each other through the energies that hold our universe together.Michael is published on-line with two book, so far, under the pseudonym, "Paul Lungust." In a world of false truths, accepted corruption, endless advertisements, sales gimmicks and manipulation, Michael's books are free.

Book preview

Introduction

I am not the one who wrote this,

though he is not that much better than me.

He is not a deity.

March 10, 2003

All along my path

I have encountered confident people,

who were wrong.

Because of this,

I am careful about sharing the truths

I have discovered.

April 19, 2003

It is not my intention to change the law,

or to remove God from His Throne.

I am just an explorer –

one of many.

March 13, 2003

My exploring must be unhindered

by societal or personal

incentives, obligations and restrictions.

March 15, 2003

I was given the gift of travel.

I was not given the gift of leadership.

I am a worker,

and my discoveries are influenced

by that fact.

April 23, 2003

I travel into other worlds

so that I may understand my… self

even better.

January 18, 2003

I am new here, in this world,

but this personality

is very old.

January 18, 2003

Sometimes I get that icky feeling

that I am exploring places

where I should not be.

Like a child,

I feel vulnerable

when I explore the spaces

between the worlds.

I know I am risking my establishment here,

but how else will I know where here is,

unless I venture

beyond its borders.

April 22, 2003

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