Craved: Stepbrother series, #2

By J.L. Ostle

I wanted something that I knew I shouldn't have. I didn't give a f''k about the consequences until it was too late. The one person who brought light in to my life left, taking a piece of me with her. I have tried to move on, but how can you move on from something your blood, body and soul craves. She was my temptation, I will make sure that I am hers.

I haven't seen Aidan since I left without saying goodbye. I was expecting him to chase after me, phone me every two seconds begging me to come back, but none of that happened. I am now getting ready for the next chapter in my life-college. I want a new start. I want to forget the dark blue eyes that haunts my dreams.

How am I meant to move on if the one person who has the power to break me all over again ends up in the same college as me?

He is determined to break through my walls I have built up, make my body scream for him. Why do I find it hard to say no? My body screams for me to say yes, but am I willing to listen?

New adult contemporary romance with mature content. Recommended for 17+ due to mature language and adult situations.

• Language: English
• Publisher: J.L. Ostle
• Release date: Sep 12, 2017
• ISBN: 9781386663232

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Dedicated

Always to my little boy.

Craved

A Stepbrother Romance

Book 2

Copyright 2015 J.L. Ostle

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Chapter 1

Kacey

CLOTHES ALL PACKED, check. Toiletries that will last me the year, check. Photo book, check. Emergency money, check. Right, I think I have everything. I grab my kindle and shove it in my backpack. No way that is disappearing. I learned from my last trip to always make sure my baby is right next to me on all travels. Just thinking back on my last car trip when Mom was dropping me off at my dads. It feels like a lifetime ago. It’s weird how things are now, though. I met my father who was once a stranger to me, who now calls me nearly every day.

I can’t help but laugh when he called during our dinner time and Mom had to grab the phone from me and tell him to get a life and let us eat in peace. It was very amusing. The new friends I made I still keep in touch with. Rebecca and Ryan were my rocks. I don’t think I would have been as happy for the time I was there if it wasn’t for them. But the one person who is still stuck in my head no matter what I do. I fight it, and keep myself distracted, he comes in my dreams. His deep blue eyes, his touch on my skin. My dreams are always the same. Him finding out I was leaving and stopping me at the airport. Him not sleeping with that Barbie wannabe, or that girl I bumped into. Maybe then things could have been different.

You’re his stepsister, nothing could be different, it’s still wrong.

My head yells at me, but I shake my thoughts. I was willing to fight everyone, fight wrong and right, just to be with him. In the end, the feelings were only going one way. From me. I can’t be angry at him, not really. He knew we couldn’t have a relationship and he moved on, doing what he did before I showed up. But the ache is still there. I miss him. Knowing the one thing I want, I can’t have. I wasn’t going to keep watching him be with other girls. It would break me over and over. It was for the best that I left. He has probably moved on with his life and doing everything with a pulse.

Just move on. He has.

Yeah, easier said than done.

Hey, sexy bitch, you coming down or what? Viv yells from downstairs. I shake my head and grab the last of my boxes and close my childhood bedroom behind me. This is it, the next chapter in my life. I am off to college and I can’t wait. I walk down the stairs and see Viv and Mom laughing at something.

What’s so funny? I set the boxes down near the door.

Your Mom was telling me about that bloke who made her finish work early. Remember the one that helped you come home sooner to me. He has been Facebooking her. She wiggles her eyebrows up and down as I see Mom blush. Yeah, I am the spitting image of my mother. Same big expressive brown eyes, long thick brown hair. Curvy frame. Most people think she is more of an older sister than a Mom.

Really? Mom if you like him, go for it. You deserve to be happy. It’s true. She has always put my happiness first. If this man can make her happy, I’m all for it. The next thing I know I feel arms around me. She pulls back with tears in her eyes, I feel the tears prickle behind mine.

I still can’t believe how much of a beautiful, gorgeous, amazing, smart young woman you have turned into. I am going to miss you so much. Remember make sure you be happy too. That is all a parent ever asks, for their babies to be happy. I know you went through some unforgivable things when you were at your dad's but you didn’t let that change you. I am so proud of you. She gives me a huge hug, then I feel Viv’s arms wrap around us as well.

I deserve to be a part of this love too. I giggle into my mom’s shoulder.

Right, let's get the last of these boxes in the car. I also have a huge surprise for you, we both have. She grabs a box and walks outside. I see Viv with a huge smirk on her face.

Oh God, what did you two do? Whenever Viv smirks you know, she’s done something sneaky.

You will see, come on. I eye her trying to see if she will say more, but she grabs a box and saunters out. Yeah, I know Viv would never spill. I grab the last box and walk outside and see a car parked out front. I am paralyzed to the spot. I know that car. I can’t move, though. I see Rebecca get out of the vehicle and run straight at me, with tears in her eyes, this time, I let the tears I have been holding to fall. I feel her arms go around me, we hug each other like we haven’t seen each other in years and not just six months. We skyped, called, messaged every chance we got, but it was never the same.

Is this just an exclusive party? Or can anyone join? I look up to see Ryan with his huge charming smile.

Ryan? I squeak out. I run to him and hug him just as hard as I did to Rebecca.

Glad I know you missed me. He chuckles. I pull back and grab Rebecca’s hand and Ryan’s and look at them both. They are here. They are with me. They were my best friends during the time I spent at my dads. They were there for me.

What are you guys doing here? I leave in a few minutes for college. I feel my heart ache that they have to go again, this was such a short meet up. If I ever saw them again in person, I wanted to spend more time than just a couple of minutes.

Well, it looks like we are all going to the same college together. Ryan smiles at me. It takes a few minutes for the news to settle in. They are coming with me. We are going to the same school, the same college. I must be dreaming. I am going to spend four years with my oldest best friend and my newest ones.

You are coming with me? I whisper.

Yeah, where ever you go, we wanted to come. But you should thank Viv for this, it was her idea. We applied and we got accepted. You are stuck with us. Rebecca gives me a watery smile. I look at Viv, and I see her give me a huge smile, but I see a tear roll down her cheek, she quickly wipes it away. She did this for me. I motion her over, we all give each other a group hug.

I can’t believe you all did this. I am so happy we are all together. Just like it should be. I don’t think my heart can take anymore happiness.

Right, enough of this mushy shit. Let's get our amazing asses in gear and let's start our new life together. Oh and we are going to be living together. Viv quickly adds in. I step back looking confused. We are going to be in dorms, it isn’t guaranteed that we will be roommates, especially that Ryan is a guy, even though he is gay, they wouldn’t allow him sharing a room with a girl.

We don’t know who we will be living with, it’s the luck of the draw type thing. I see them all look at each other and then smile at me.

All our parents -put together their money and got us a four-bedroom apartment just ten minutes away from UCLA. So we are going to be roommates. Please remember though if I bring back, a gorgeous male specimen don’t get jealous. You can oogle but not touch. Ryan sticks his index finger out, pointing at each one of us, I can’t help but laugh.

I am so happy he is more comfortable talking about being with men. I know he wasn’t ready to let that news slip especially around that school. Kids there were judgmental and just wanted to party and screw. Just thinking about that school, makes thoughts of Aidan come crashing back down. I still remember when he pushed me against the wall at a party, telling me he wants me, all of me. But found out he made that stupid bet, even though he made a mistake, it still hurt. He was a dick but I saw a glimpse of his sweet side. I hated how my body always craved his touch, especially when he was so close.

Stop thinking about him.

I know I will move on, I just can’t wait till it happens. I can’t wait till a new guy comes into my life and Aidan is just a memory.

Come on, let's go. I snap out of my thoughts and pick up the box I dropped when Rebecca came running to me and put it in the back of the car with the rest of our things. I hug Mom tightly, promising I will call her as soon as I arrive. I hate that I have to leave her again. I just hope that new guy treats her right, and keeps her brain distracted.

Rebecca and Ryan drive behind Viv and me and we set off for our lives together. I am over the moon happy. I am more thrilled than what I was this morning. Just knowing I have them, I know I can handle what will be ahead of me. Whatever life throws my way, I know I can handle it. Come on life, give me your best shot.

Chapter 2

Aidan

YOU ARE SUCH A SLOB. Take a step away from my baby and let me sort our things out. Nick groans at me. I roll my eyes. I just want to get in his car and drive off. I am sick of this town. I am sick of the small headed people I had to see every day, the stupid easy fucked up girls who spread their legs for any fucker. I used to love a willing woman, now it’s just pathetic. As soon as Kacey left me. It took ages for me to get out of my funk. I wanted to be on my own, but being a stupid fucking God to people that never happened. Guys bugged me, women threw themselves at me. I wanted to smash my head against a wall over and over.

I am happy that I am leaving this town. I know part of the reason is that I still see Kacey everywhere I go. All the memories I have of her use to replay in my head. I tried to get her out of my head. If she didn’t give a fuck about me, especially not to say goodbye then screw her. I tried to drink it away, even fuck her out of my system but that was pointless. I had trouble getting it up. Trust me if I thought about Kacey’s creamy white skin, her soft, delicate lips, or the sounds she made I am hard as a rock instantly, but if another girl is in front of me, it is like my dick runs and hides.

The worst thing, me not able to fuck is pretty bad but no, the worst thing is that Marc and my own mother knew Kacey was leaving and they never told me. How fucked up is that? They tried to explain that it was Kacey’s decision, that she told them she was going to tell me. Didn’t they fucking realize that when she was getting ready to leave and I wasn’t there? Wasn’t it so obvious that I didn’t know?

Well, fuck them. I moved out right after and moved in with Nick. Nick’s parents were never home so there was no problem there. It was nice living with my best friend. He keeps to himself and he never pushed me to do anything. I know he wanted me to talk about what happened but I didn’t want, to say her name, I didn’t want to think about her but how could I not. She came into my life and changed my whole life around. She made me see things differently. A part of me hates her for it.

I just hate how much I fucked up when it came to her. I messed with her, I teased her, treated her like crap. When I finally got through her walls, I basically shit all over her. She was being a friend to a guy, I saw it as more. I made something out of nothing. What did I do? I fucked women, even one just across the hall from her.

I don’t blame her for leaving. I just wish I could have said goodbye. Let things end on good terms. Now that I don’t live with my mom and stepfather, I have no clue what is happening with Kacey. She was like a dream, she was there one moment and gone the next. I just hope she is happy. I know me leaving this town will help me. I need to forget about her, and soon. I don’t know how long it will be till my dick packs its balls and leaves me too.

I watch Nick put our boxes and bags away neatly. He is a control freak but it’s who he is. He likes things in order, I know he likes to take that control in the bedroom too. We don’t talk about our sex lives but I hear things and the way Nick is I am not surprised. I am surprised how many willing women are into that kind of thing. But I guess after the books and then the film of that fifty shade shit the women wanted to experiment. To each their own.

After standing nearby for ten minutes, Nick is all sorted. We climb in his car and drive off. I watch the houses, markets, and people I grew up with fly by. I grew up here and now I can’t get away quick enough. Too much bad shit had gone down in the last year. One of my old best friends turns out to be a rapist and the most popular girl in school turned into a psycho. Thank fuck I never fucked her. But I think I finally grew up, though. I saw myself as untouchable but I was wrong. I had one good thing in my life and I ruined it. I was happy, it was like I subconsciously had to fuck it over. I did. Big time. I won’t let that happen again. If I have a chance to be happy, I am not letting it go. I learned my lesson.

What are you in deep thought about? Nick asks looking at me then looking back at the road.

Just thinking about the past year. So much happened, I just hope I learned from it. I shrug and watch the scenery through the window.

No one knows what is around the corner. We didn’t know what Ryder was really like. How could we? I like to think that things happen for a reason.

I think Kacey was brought to you to make you see that you are more than what you thought you were. I know you cared for her, you made a mistake. We learn from our mistakes. Don’t beat yourself up. Ryder, God, just thinking about him, I want to punch his lights out over and over. What he almost did. God forbid he is lucky he is locked up behind bars. Nick is right, though. I never felt more toward a girl but a good fuck. I didn’t know how to deal with what I was feeling. Let's just pray I don’t mess up the next girl who draws me in. I just hate that it won’t be Kacey. She is my stepsister, but I never saw her as that. She was a stranger to me. Was. I finally got to see who she was. God, I need to stop thinking about her.

I know. I just hate that she got in my head in just a short amount of time. It’s hard to get her out. It’s been months and yet I still think about her.

She meant a lot to you, it will take time. You will be fine.

We talk more about college and how we are going to bring our A-game to the field. We even talked about some stories of us growing up. It is a long drive

Reviews for Craved

[kendall · Rating: 3 out of 5 stars]

This one was better at not slipping in language that wasn't American. I'll give it that. If you are going to take the leap to set a story in a specific country that isn't your own, make sure you are in sink with their language and so on. I don't understand why being step siblings, completely unrelated by blood is seen as twisted or even incestuous. Incest is obviously blood relation. The writing seemed a bit amateurish. To me, it drug on a bit too long. The drama was so back and forth. Aiden's addiction to sex was over the top in the first book to the point it was ridiculous she even gave him the time of day. It was never brought to light that he left her for a male only party to be bumping and grinding with a cheerleader in the end. How the heck he felt that was alright and that the chick was just a friend made him seem beyond oblivious. He went on about how he felt so deeply for Kacey and couldn't be without her yet he kept letting women rub up on him lol. How can you say a chick jumping up on you, throwing her legs around your waist is a friend thing? It's like the guy was ridiculously stupid. I also didn't like how Kacey was portrayed almost in awe of being the "god" of the school's girlfriend. Every girl wanted or had him at some point and she should somehow feel special that he wants her. I don't know. It was a bit of an exhausting read. I don't know if I have the energy to read Nick and Viv's story even with my curiosity.

[Mary Owens · Rating: 5 out of 5 stars]

I was hooked from the first sentence. Loved it so much.