I Will Not Be DefinedTM

By Alan Kelso

“I WILL NOT BE DEFINEDTM” is a story of Transformation, Inspiration, Suspense and Hope. Details the story of a young man in the prime of His life, who is at the pinnacle of his success. He develops a successful enterprise of ministries including a Christian Television Station and the the first premier digital video company in the Midwest only to watch it come crashing down. He’s forced to vanish from all he has accomplished as a CRIME SYNDICATE pursues him.

How do you overcome when you are on Top of the World and suddenly your World is on Top of You? Living life everyday watching, listening, preparing for that moment when you will be discovered because of what you have hidden away, forced to reinvent who he was to protect his family.

I WILL NOT BE DEFINEDTM...is a true story!

No-one just happens! We were not an accident nor an incident, we weren’t born by mistake and we are not the result of an act of nature nor a one night stand. Whether you had a mother or father to raise you, even if you never knew who they were, you were not an accident.

Whether you realize it or not, God’s Word declares that He “purposed you, created you, made you and knew you when you were still in your mother’s womb.” The word of God also says, that he has ordained you and has been guiding you throughout your entire life, every step of the way.

Gods word declares in Psalms 37:23, “The steps of a righteous man are established by the Lord, and He delights in his way.”

Throughout our lives, we are being guided by God and no matter what events have transpired, whether good or bad, God has never been caught off guard.

"I WILL NOT BE DEFINEDTM by my past, by another person, by an event that haunts me, by sickness or even disease. But only by the Unlimited Possibilities of God in our lives.” ~ Alan Kelso

• Language: English
• Publisher: Alan Kelso
• Release date: Oct 10, 2016
• ISBN: 9781370635931

Alan Kelso

Alan Kelso serves as President of KMI, Inc. and KMI Publishing. He has spent more than 25+ years as a Pastor, Evangelist, Conference Speaker and International Guest Lecturer and Author. As well as spending 17 years as an Entrepreneur and Life Coach. Kelso has shared the stage with such notables as Ambassador Alan Keyes and former Texas State Legislature Rick Green founder of the “The Torch of Freedom Foundation. He was a leader in the ProFamily Coalition of NE Florida. Worked on an Advisory Council for President George Bush which led to his appointment to the Business Commission headed by the US House Majority Whip Tom Delay of Texas. His new released Book, “I WILL NOT BE DEFINEDTM”, is a true story of Transformation, Inspiration, Suspense, and Hope. “We do not have to define our lives according to pressures being placed upon us or the tragedies of life. But by the Unlimited Possibilities of God in our lives.” ~ Alan Kelso. TO GOD BE THE GLORY!

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I Will Not Be Defined™

By Alan Kelso

KMI PUBLISHING

PO BOX 26118

Jacksonville, Florida

32226

I Will Not Be Defined™

Copyright © January - 2016 by Alan Kelso

All rights reserved. This book, or parts thereof, may not be reproduced in any form except in the context of reviews, without written permission from Kelso Ministries International Books Jacksonville, Florida 32226.

The persons, events and circumstances in this memoir are factual and accurate. As best that memory, research and personal correspondence serve me. However, in some instances I have used pseudonyms, modified locations and abbreviated the narrative to protect sources and methods used by FBI operators in the service of the United States government. The content of this book has not been submitted to the FBI for endorsement, collaboration or in request of their permission to share the facts as I lived them.

I WILL NOT BE DEFINED™ a story of transformation, suspense and hope. A man whose life is at the pinnacle of success. Who develops a successful enterprise of ministries. A Christian Television Station.....and the First Premier Digital Video Company in the Midwest, only to watch it come CRASHING DOWN.....Forced to VANISH from all he has accomplished....as the CRIME SYNDICATE pursues him....How do you overcome when you are on Top of the World and suddenly your World is on Top of You? Living life everyday watching, listening, preparing for that moment when you will be discovered because of what you have hidden away.

I WILL NOT BE DEFINED™ ....a true story

All statements of facts, opinion, or analysis expressed are those of the author and do not reflect the official positions or views of any U.S. Government agency. Nothing in the contents should be construed as asserting or implying U.S. Government authentication of information or Agency endorsement of the author's views or claims.

Dedication

This book is dedicated to my lovely wife Terina, who, without her patience, encouragement, countless hours of enduring me as I relived my past, the tears shed and the kind words pressing me to continue, this book would not exist.

Acknowledgments

This book has taken over 60 years to prepare for, thirteen months to write and many people encouraged me during the process. Most of these people have no idea they were encouraging me to compile these pages. But I am thankful to the unnamed friends and acquaintances that were helpful through the process.

I want to thank my wife, Terina. Her love and devotion to me is beyond words. She never for once complained of the hours alone but allowed me to give whatever time was necessary to complete this work. She endured me reading over and over again every section of the book until I was able to express my thoughts in such a manner that flowed together. Every accomplishment I receive Terina, you share in equally.

I want to thank my children for always listening to the Lord in the midst of what was going on. I know you had no idea concerning the whys and when you could have responded and become rebellious, even in those teenage years you were faithful. I constantly give the Lord Praise and thanksgiving for that.

Finally, I want to thank the Lord Jesus Christ for saving me, forgiving me of my failures along the way and protecting me each day.

Table of Contents

Introduction

Chapter 1: Small Beginnings

Chapter 2: Angelic Encounter

Chapter 3: A New Direction

Chapter 4: College Days – Defining Years

Chapter 5: This Is Your Life

Chapter 6: Vision And Purpose

Chapter 7: Miraculous Days

Chapter 8: A Phone Call That Changed Everything

Chapter 9: A Knock At The Door

Chapter 10: You've Changed

Chapter 11: Re-Entry - How?

Chapter 12: Who Are You

Introduction

You did not just happen, you were not an accident or an incident, you weren't born by mistake and you're not the result of an act of nature. Whether you had a mother to raise you, or a father, even if you never knew who your father or mother was, you did not just happen.

Whether you were passed from foster home to foster home, or from house to house, it may feel like your life was aimless and without purpose, but God says I know the plans I have for you...Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11)

Whether you realize it or not, God declares that He purposed you, created you, made you and knew you when you were still in your mother’s womb. And He goes on to say that he has ordained you and has been guiding you throughout your entire life, every step of the way.

The Word of God declares, that the steps of a righteous man are established by the Lord, and He delights in his way.

Throughout our lives, we are being guided by God and no matter what events have transpired, whether good or bad, God has never been caught off guard.

Listen: When we are on top of the world, God is leading us, and it is the same God who is leading us even when we are walking through the valley.

Every step we take God is aware and I believe He is leading us even if the good man is going through a bad place, even if you are down in the deepest pit, in the lowliest of darkness and the hopeless agony of despair. When we are consumed by the feelings of abandonment, overwhelmed by the feelings of being alone, God is walking with us and leading us.

No matter where we may find ourselves, God is still God and He has ordained our steps.

Job, who lived thousands of years ago, said that God knew what was going on in his life. He knew where he was.

You see, Job had lost his home, his children, his lands, his wife, all his wealth but in the midst of it all Job declares, ‘God knows where I am, even in the bad times!’

I want you to know that God knows where we are! He knows when our job is gone, when we don't have money to put groceries on the table. He knows what people are saying about us, cursing us, setting all types of traps for us.

Even when the path heads straight into the deepest valley, in those dry, dusty, choking places, where we feel as though our spirit is becoming overcome by the desert place that we have fallen into, God sees us.

God does not discriminate between individuals, he will raise us up from the dust, lift us up from the ashes and set us beside princes and kings and bring us into a place of honor no matter where we find ourselves. (1 Samuel 2:8)

It is a wise man who knows how to live his life when he is on top of the world, living his dream. Who, in a moment of time, can come crashing down from the top and be able to live with the same confidence of purpose, even when all Hell is let lose.

I will share a couple of lessons I learnt over the years with you in the proceeding chapters of this book. I call them the truth.

I am not defined by what I am, where I am or what is going on around me. I am walking in the plans and purposes of God. Even when others meant evil for me, God had a plan for me. Even if I felt like I wasn't at the place where he was leading, when I felt like I was out of His will, God was still leading me.

God is leading us when we are on top and is still leading us when we are at the bottom.

Over the past 30 years, I've shared different aspects of my life. Each time I was told the same thing, You need to tell your life story in a book so others can know there is hope. Share with them the mind-blowing story of how a young Minister with a dream of reaching a community, a state and a nation with no money could build a 24 hour a day television station, become CEO and President of the first fully digital video/film production facility in the Midwest. And how that same Minister, in just a few months, found obligatory, in the middle of the night, to break into an office building, find and take specific files that revealed how a crime syndicate was mishandling hundreds of thousands of dollars from the Federal Government. And because of what he knew became a target.

I will share how I had to create for myself a new identity, a new life. Alone with the real reason that in the prime of my life, I had to disappear and change my entire world. Why I needed to abandon my career as a Pastor, Evangelist, Television Host, Producer and Singer. A career I had prepared for my entire life. Why I left a ministry where thousands had been born into the Kingdom of God, people healed from all kinds of diseases, even used by God to see the dead come back to life, to become a man, always watching, studying every individual, wherever my family and I went. Whether it