Honey Dews for Soul Nourishment

By R.S. Pillai

We face lot of problems in life and when depression sets in, few people resort to commit suicide. This author who escaped from death at the last minute, began to look life differently from that moment, and there was an appreciable change in his attitude, personality and outlook of life. When all such true stories, which happened in his life were critically re-examined, it provided an opportunity to realize that this birth is the greatest gift to everyone and we can bring happiness to self and everyone and lead a memorable life.There is indeed no way to happiness, happiness is the way. It is our willingness to take responsibility to shape the direction of our life determines, the path to happiness.

• Language: English
• Publisher: R.S. Pillai
• Release date: Aug 6, 2013
• ISBN: 9781301457342

R.S. Pillai

I was an Executive of a Public Sector Bank and was deputed to Central Bureau of Investigation on secondment basis as Advisor (Banking) with protocol rank Superintendent of Police and retired on superannuation after serving 5 years and 4 months and involved in more than 176 cases in all stages of investigation to prosecution. One of the few bank executives with wide experience in Bank Fraud Internal Investigation (12 cases), Police Fraud Investigation (170 cases), Trainer (6 years), Author (7 books 5 ebooks and 2 printed versions), Researcher (11 Ex-Post valuation Studies)and now conducting one to 1 1/2 days Preventive Vigilance Workshops on Major Fraud Prone Areas for Bank Officials and Auditors.

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SEPTEMBER 2014

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When setbacks in LIFE choke my breath every time, with all its mighty force, I resolve to Listen to my Inner resilience to Fight back with all my Energy, however little it might be. God has shown me time and again that there is always fresh breeze at the end of the tunnel.

ABOUT THE AUTHOR:

The author is a Post graduate in Agriculture and took up the Banking profession with great interest and dedication after working 3 years in an International Organization. I had handled various training sessions on Inter personal relationships, Decision making, Personal effectiveness, Stress management etc., These life experiences which provided various in sight and helped me for Self Realization is shared with the readers. Your comments and feedback are most welcome to my personal e-mail mailto: [e-mail].

Thanks and with best wishes!

The other books of the author published in smashwords.com and distributed through their retailers’ world wide are:

1. Cicada on the Firing Line – Life as a Banker – True Stories

https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/338527

2. Major Bank Frauds – A Critical review – Based on 50 Case Studies.

https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/451788

3. என்தோட்டத்து மலர்கள் Flowers of My Garden – 65 Tamil Poem

https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/463948

4. Stress and Tension – The Spices of life

https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/471194

HONEY COMBS

When the sun rises in the East, the small world around us blossoms into aBeautiful Flower of Life, and the nectar from such Flower of Life is stored in unknown honey combs inside us, even without our knowledge, by our Bee, the super conscious intelligence. Few such Honey Crystals, from different Honey Combs, collected meticulously are presented for Soul Nourishments:

HONEY COMB: 1: UNIVERSAL TRUTH

Who am I?

Inside Every One of us there is a Golden Buddha

Past Karma

Leopard the Demon

Attitude

Belief System

There is No Way to Happiness

Reward comes at appropriate times

Goddess Mahalaxmi

HONEY COMB: 2: LITTLE ANGELS:

Control yourself

Why can’t I write my father’s name?

My father will come back as my son

The Heart has reasons

Appreciation

Punctuality

Death the end or beginning

My skin turned black

Little Things Count a Lot

Why me?

There is always a second chance in Life

I Missed the Promotion

Ugly Duckling

Please be your own

Save for the future - The mistake I did for 48 years

Reality Show and future of youngsters

HONEY COMB: 3: QUEEN BEE, THE MOTHER BEE

Beautiful and Understanding Wife

Ideal Wife

Is it Possible to run away from me?

Late Moon in Life

Anything may happen in 10 days

Sarcastic Remarks

To err is Human

Illusion of the Deer

Are you not educated?

Toughest Job In the world

Valentine’s Day

Life Partner and God

The Principles we live in

HONEY COMB: 4: VALUES, TRADITIONS AND DIVINITY

Should we cut cakes to celebrate Birthday?

Secret behind why some Gifts remain memorable

The power of offerings to God.

There is no free lunch.

Organ Donor

Auspicious timings

Do Good and Be Good.

Soul Connection

Divine Power

Every Wish is heard

Strange but True

Divine Experience

Miracles do happen

HONEY COMB: 5 ENVIRONMENTS

Mother’s suicide and Child’s murder

I have killed my son

Expert Advice

Cotton and fire

Wait for a minute before we react

Greatness in people

Predictions

Corruptions

Direct Marketing

Magic 50

Decision making

I shall add life to my remaining days

HONEY COMB: 1 UNIVERSAL TRUTH

If there is a definite purpose in creating this world, then there is also a definite purpose in creating us as Human Being. Scholars often said that we are not Human Being with Spiritual Experience but Spiritual Being with Human Experience. The following chapters provide an insight I have gained through little incidences in my life as Universal Truth.

Who am I?

The question who am I? Looks very simple! But when I repeatedly asked this to my super consciousness, I began to realize that it was the ultimate realization in life that, millions and millions of creatures were borne in this world, but there was a definite purpose in creating us as Human being. But it needed a spark, to ignite this wisdom and to me such a spark came when I was pulverized, by the events of life and I ultimately decided to commit suicide. I was sitting in front of the Air Conditioner Switch board, and waiting for the final moment to put my hand inside the Ac switch plug and I had to only switch on for the instant death. Tears were rolling down the cheeks and I offered the final prayers and for the final time I thought of my failed family life at one side and troubled office life at the other side (all because of an untimely, unsolicited advice to Boss, more about it later) and my untimely transfer to Mumbai. I decided enough was enough on that day. That was Friday 29th March 2002, the day the final nail was hit, when there was a heated argument in the house. I decided to end my life around half past seven in the evening, when the children would be away for tuition and my wife was expected afterwards. I became restless and panicked right from the morning. I secretly wrote the long awaited WILL (legal document bequeathing the properties after death) leaving the properties proportionately to our three children and wife. The final letter, blaming ‘Me’ responsible for the death and no one else, was also ready.

I was about to lock the front gate, when two of our relatives came and started talking endlessly, on so many trivial matters. I was tensed and sat through the dialogues, without opening my mouth and the relatives at last found something strange and left promising to come another day, when my wife was there. I bid good bye to them mechanically as time was moving fast now. When they left and I was about to come inside, another friend came and by the time he left it was seven and I got just 30 minutes to commit suicide. I just closed the door without locking (no need to break open the door, when they come to see my dead body) and went upstairs and the final preparation was on. I kept the WILL and my last letter in front of the Deity, and lighted the lamp, offered final prayers and with tears rolling down and with whole body vibrating with emotions, with unknown fear and desperation and without thinking anything, I closed my eyes for a second and I could clearly hear the urge from my mind Go Ahead Go Ahead hitting me like a lightening and thunder, and I cried loudly for the last time for the helplessness, my desperate attempt to end life. There was absolute silence, such silence I never experienced in my life, chilling to the core and still I could hear the faint murmur between the illogical consciousness and logical sub consciousness. I could hear the pounding blood rushing to my head and I could feel the absolute chillness in my body and the faint murmur becoming louder, from the sub conscious mind advising me to turn back, but the consciousness was forcing me with a still louder sound Go ahead, Go ahead The consciousness was pushing me to the edge of death and the sub consciousness was holding me by a thin thread and asking me what I was doing was correct?

I could not understand at that stage, that behind the illogical conscious mind and logical sub conscious mind, there is a super conscious mind which could have thrown lights on correct path. The war between the positive forces and negative forces within the chambers of my tiny heart was mind blogging and finally my illogical consciousness took the upper hand and I surrendered to it meekly and for the final time prayed to the Divine Almighty, to take care of my family and little children, and I was sweating profusely, whether the new world I am visualizing will be better than this or worse than this and without a blank mind I removed the AC plug for the final step, to open the door to the unknown world, against all odds.

Then I was struck by the most powerful shock of my life, not by the electricity , but from the reality of life, when I saw that the holes in the AC switch box were so small, none of my fingers what fingers even a portion of nail would go inside. That was the moment, the Spark when I realized What a fool I was? After this there was a brief brightness inside my mind, and the question unfolded, Who am I? and at the same time the veil between the sub conscious and the super conscious mind opened and the presiding Almighty in my super consciousness gave the answer too.

I am the leader of my family and then 

What I should do? Lead by example as a True leader,

What ever happens to me personally in future, I should have faith in myself and lead by example, I should show my people, my children, and my family, the way to fight adversity.

I sat motionless for a minute and then got up and with the dress, I went inside the bathroom, opened the shower and drenched completely in the cool water for 15 minutes, came out and sat in front of the Deity with the wet clothes on, the uncertainty gone completely, there was peace and serenity in the mind and I offered my prayers and thanked the Almighty for showing the Path of Realization that Life is like a wheel with happiness and unhappiness hitting at different times and there was no permanent happiness and no permanent unhappiness, and there was glow in my face and commenced my new life from thereon with a vow that I would never think of committing suicide ever in life.

Just then our children came back from tuition and pushed the door and came running upstairs and my daughter said,

Daddy I have learnt a new song today. With a weak smile I asked, "What’s it?

She started, Twinkle, Twinkle. She was quickly interrupted by her twin brother, Hello it’s not a new song, we learnt long back in nursery

She continued, First listen completely and then comment. She sang in her sweet voice

Twinkle, Twinkle dear Daddy

How I wonder what you