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Breaking the Silence: A Black mother's journey with grief after losing a son to suicide

LOS ANGELES -- Amid a super bloom of wildflowers and mustard plants, Deneen Vaughn takes a moment to catch her breath. Regardless of the season, the Baldwin Hills Scenic Overlook Trail has been a lifesaver for the 58-year-old mother of three. She recalled hiking the trail when the rolling hills were brown and devoid of life, but its impact on her well-being remains constant. Vaughn has always ...
With her hands clasped over her heart, Deneen Vaughn takes a moment to reflect on her son Chris, who died by suicide.

LOS ANGELES -- Amid a super bloom of wildflowers and mustard plants, Deneen Vaughn takes a moment to catch her breath.

Regardless of the season, the Baldwin Hills Scenic Overlook Trail has been a lifesaver for the 58-year-old mother of three.

She recalled hiking the trail when the rolling hills were brown and devoid of life, but its impact on her well-being remains constant.

Vaughn has always found exercise to be a helpful coping mechanism for her depression and anxiety.

But focusing on her physical and mental health has a whole new meaning and purpose now.

Vaughn's middle son, Chris, died by suicide in 2021, leaving her, her husband and their remaining two sons to figure out life after.

In the last 19 months, they've seen their family dynamics shift, and with Deneen Vaughn leading the charge, they've found a way to speak out about what, for many Black families, is the unspeakable.

"I was devastated," Vaughn said. "Chris' death has riveted my husband and been a huge loss to our entire family."

Vaughn has grappled with the guilt of knowing that she had her own struggles with depression, recognized

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