It ends with me

By Stephanie saavedra

From the vault of suffering nights, from the property of the mind of Stephanie saavedra 

 

From the long nights of suffering at the end of a cliffhanger 

 

The tears wipe down the whole city 

 

What it feels to be in the future of your life and being dying inside? 

 

From the mind reader of a 13 year old girl to a depressive episode of a 19 year old girl 

 

Welcome to my mind 

• Language: English
• Publisher: Stephanie saavedra
• Release date: May 1, 2024
• ISBN: 9798224062027

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Stephanie saavedra

It ends with me

Poetry English-Spanish edition

First published by Stephanie saavedra 2024

Copyright © 2024 by Stephanie saavedra

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For my mother rage and

my father sinners

for my sister tears

and my brother ilness

for me that carried all of them in my mind

You can justify anything if you do it poetically enough

If we were villains

M.L Rio

Contents

I. CANDY STORE

1. It ends with me

2. Perdón

3. Lovers

4. La fiesta

5. Sueños

6. Summers

7. Princesa del castillo en ruinas

8. ¿Debería?

9. La Niña

10. Come home

11. Alguna vez

12. Imagina

13. Y si todo va bien

14. 13

15. La otra

16. Confuso

17. Perdiendo

18. llavero

19. Máquina de cuerda

20. Peligro

21. Prisoner

22. Karma

23. Mirror

24. Shimmer

25. Algún día

26. ¿Quieres saber?

27. funny

28. Príncipe

29. Rosas

30. Golden

31. 17

32. New

33. 11

II. TE INVITO

34. Dolor

35. Febrero 25

36. Octubre 4

37. Mayo 26

38. Octubre 5

39. Sangre

40. Otoño

41. Castillo de arena

42. 18 de junio

43. September 11

44. Mi bebe

45. Jodete

46. Bala

47. D

48. Girlhood

III. FEELINGS

49. Humanidad

50. Hombres

51. Fue

52. 1 de agosto

53. Red

54. 24 horas

IV. EMPTY

55. Cascara vacía

56. Latidos

57. Babylon

58. Stay

59. Estrella

60. Rumor

V. BET

61. Envoltura de caramelo

62. bee

63. Tears

64. nadie

65. Goodbye

66. The one

67. Guys

68. Queen of hearts

69. For me

70. semilla

71. She

72. Personal hell

73. Parents

74. Miss

75. Starving

76. The end is coming

77. Hope

78. promesa

79. podrias

80. We could be

81. Lost puppy

82. cansada

83. you and me

84. Puzzle

85. you lost me

86. boda

VI. DREAMS

87. Gris

88. El conejo, la rana y la tortuga

89. Toda la vida

90. Dream house

91. Fingiendo

92. ugly

93. Star

94. Middle sit

95. Hate

96. Vampire

97. Torre

98. Island

99. Cálido invierno

100. Puppet

VII. ROTTEN

101. Corpse

102. Long gone

103. Red nails

104. Bedsheets

105. Nothing

106. side of the bed

107. Crucigram

108. Red dress

109. Raw

110. Girl

111. Men

112. Casa

113. Leave

114. Moth

115. Prize

116. Pigeon

117. Seed

118. Oat

119. Hermit

120. Mythology

121. Ended

122. New years

123. Beauty

124. Not Christmas

125. Fairy dust

126. door

127. Yours truly

128. Poem

129. Sun

130. Birth

131. Banal

132. Gossamer

133. Doll

134. My

135. Scheme

136. Created

137. Delicate

138. Villain arc

139. Cinnamon

140. Glory

141. Pleonasm

142. Cathexis

143. Love

144. Body

145. rain

146. Fin

Sobre la autora

I

Candy store

Supongo que solo soy la envoltura de un dulce de moda que todos amaban y ahora no soportan ver.

supongo que todos acabamos asi

primer arco

13/15

1

It ends with me

It ends with you

it ends with me

It ends with us

No more crying throwing up in my bathroom

No more answers to your incompetence

I’m done loving you

I’m done with the obsession of what could will be

We would be nothing because we are not meant to be anything.

And it’s hard to me to accept that

But it’s not making me any good

I’m moving on

For real this time

Not more happy for likes

No more happy for the bare minimum.

No more I’m done

And this is a goodbye forever

I don’t want you anymore

I don’t need you

I don’t need your false promise of change

I’m moving on forever.

2

Perdón

Perdón por no amarte

por no apreciarte

por intentar matarte.

Perdón por todo lo que dije

perdón por todo lo que hice

perdón por aceptar que te trataran así

perdón por perderme en el camino

perdón por no apoyarte

perdón porque no sabes el rumbo

perdón por destrozar tu autoestima

perdón por negarte comidas

perdón por destrozarte el cabello

perdón por tratarte mal

perdón por matarte de hambre

perdón por darte comidas que te dañan

perdón por convencerte que te mataras

perdóname por todo

por hacer que te afecten comentarios

por hacerte sentir mal siempre

por no amarte como sos

perdóname por favor

por romperte una y otra vez

ahora te abrazo y te pido que no me odies por todo lo que te he hecho

te he dañado tanto y