Gun Oil and Teddy Bears: Surviving Shame, Fear and Suicide; to a Life of Freedom

By Bobbie J McLaren

This is a story of redemption. Because of an incident that happened to a very young child, she began to look for ways to hide he shame and secret. Knowing in her heart she would be cast aside if people found out, that small child attempts suicide with her father's shotgun to end her pain. Failing the attempt, the story goes forward with plans of murder, torture and plans of prison until she gets blindsided by God.

• Language: English
• Publisher: LifeRich Publishing
• Release date: Aug 16, 2023
• ISBN: 9781489748942

Bobbie J McLaren

She has lived through suicide attempts, depression and feeling total lack of self worth. Wanting to give up on life; she was able to find a lifeline to a better understanding of how precious she really was to so many others and especially to God.

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