I Was Healthy Until the Day I Wasn't: The Faces of Cancer
By Jim Parise
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I Was Healthy Until The Day I Wasn’t chronologues the journey of the author through his cancer treatments, from the initial diagnosis of non-Hodgkins lymphoma through multiple chemo regimens and relapses, a stem cell transplant and finally remission. Written at first as blog entries over a period of 4 months, it also focuses on the people — the caretakers, the physicians and health care workers and mostly the patients — whose lives and experiences became inexorably entwined with his own. The stories of other patients’ circumstances motivated the author to turn the blog entries into a full-length book. So inspiring are their stories, each shedding light on the disease itself, the bravery and courage, the strength and the stamina to continue fighting, sometimes against seemingly insurmountable odds.
There are as many books written about cancer and its treatment as there are types of cancer. No two experiences are the same. Each person has to choose his own path. And how he or she proceeds is a very personal choice. Even not choosing is a choice in and of itself. Cancer patients are an elite group, a band of brothers and sisters who share their experiences, who bolster each other in times of need and who lean on each other for support despite those differences. This book highlights their stories and makes clear that while they endure the indignities of this disease, they are not invisible. They exist. They need to be heard.
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I Was Healthy Until the Day I Wasn't - Jim Parise
I Was Healthy Until the Day I Wasn’t
The Faces of Cancer
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DEDICATION
This book is dedicated to all those whose lives became accidentally entwined with mine, whose faces have been indelibly etched in my mind’s eye and whose courage and strength have become part of my every day life.
…to those who are still struggling with this disease and whose determination to survive has never flagged. Jim M., you got this. Jason, you are a fighter. Lee, my fellow warrior. Sue D., for your survival. Ray, enough is enough. Darren, no three putts. Larry N., my fellow survivor, Joan B. for your Reiki healings and Nick W. for your support and survival and Sue K. for ringing that bell.
…to those who have lost the battle, you are with me, and you are in part, the motivation for writing this book. Sue, Matt, Truman, Des, Lew, my cousin Barbara A., Meryl and Terry, forever in my heart.
…to the doctors, nurses and hospital staffs who work tirelessly in the face of adversity, putting aside personal issues to minister to our needs, I am indebted.
…And lastly to the caretakers. You are the unsung heroes of this disease. Often overlooked and eclipsed by the patient’s illness, you exhibit heroism in times when there was nothing you could do to ease the suffering. You stood strong and carried us through when we were too weak to carry ourselves.
TABLE OF CONTENTS
DEDICATION
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
FOREWORD
PART I
CHAPTER 1
CHAPTER 2
CHAPTER 3
CHAPTER 4
CHAPTER 5
PART II
THE BLOG ENTRIES
CHAPTER 6
CHAPTER 7
CHAPTER 8
CHAPTER 9
CHAPTER 10
CHAPTER 11
CHAPTER 12
CHAPTER 13
CHAPTER 14
CHAPTER 15
CHAPTER 16
CHAPTER 17
CHAPTER 18
PART III
CHAPTER 19
CHAPTER 20
CHAPTER 21
CHAPTER 22
CHAPTER 23
CHAPTER 24
CHAPTER 25
CHAPTER 26
CHAPTER 27
CHAPTER 28
CHAPTER 29
CHAPTER 30
CHAPTER 31
CHAPTER 32
CHAPTER 33
CHAPTER 34
CHAPTER 35
CHAPTER 36
CHAPTER 37
CHAPTER 38
CHAPTER 39
CHAPTER 40
CHAPTER 41
CHAPTER 42
CHAPTER 43
CHAPTER 44
CHAPTER 45
CHAPTER 46
EPILOGUE
AFTERWORD
RESOURCES
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
The following people need to be recognized and thanked for helping me through the healing process:
…to all those who drove me to appointments, sat with me through infusions and would not let me fall through the cracks, who took me to dinner or brought me meals: Ray and Sue L, Bob and Lenore D., Tom and Barbara S., Marilyn J., Brian and Lou J., Charlie and Sue D.
…to Dr. Christopher Pennell whose knowledge, experience and guidance contributed to my understanding of this disease and who metaphorically held my hand in the initial stages of questioning and decision-making.
…to those who came to visit me in Hope Lodge, kept me company and had a meal with me so I would not have to eat alone: George and Kathy L, John H, Jen G, Joe R, (who dazzled Hope Lodge residents with his piano playing in the lounge), and Flo and Joe L.
…to all those who sent cards and notes to cheer me. Ginny M. you are the best.
… to Dr. Ken Fishberger and his office staff, in particular, Anna, who saw my helplessness and immobility and steered the direction my life was to take in the foreseeable future. You thought for me when I could not think for myself. Your kindness will never be forgotten.
… to Dr. Miguel Perales and the whole bone marrow transplant team for enabling me to walk my daughter down the aisle and witness the birth of my third grandchild. These gifts are the true blessings of my life.
…to Karen Cameron for proofing the text for the second printing.
…to Dr. Charles Davenport who guided and coaxed me to this point without judgment and always with kindness and understanding. You helped me process all of this, something I was unable to do on my own. Your encouragement brought me back to this project after a long absence.
FOREWORD
There have been many books written about cancer by patients or their caregivers. I have never read any of them. I knew what they said by reading about them or listening to interviews with the authors.
I did not know how to approach this. I wanted to find a new take on writing about cancer and not fall into a mundane treatment of the subject. I wanted to write a book about my journey (an already overused word in the life of a cancer patient and one I tend to use more than I should) and not have it fall into the realm of been there, read that
.
I kept thinking about it and nothing came to me. Being in isolation for nearly 70 days in a 20x20 room, with a miniature TV and not much else to distract me or help me pass the time, I resorted to setting up a blog, not only to chronicle my adventures
and keep a timeline for future reference, but also to field questions that were becoming overwhelming for my family and somewhat lighten the burden of their having to answer the same questions multiple times. I hoped that in doing this I could be honest and faithful to my experiences, throw in a little humor (ok, sarcasm too) and introduce the reader to the people I have met along the way.
Are my experiences any different or more valid than anyone else who has been stricken with this insidious disease? Maybe different but certainly not more valid. In your hands you are holding the story of those people and places and circumstances that have changed my life and now you are reading this. I hope that its straightforwardness might bring some understanding to those of you who have mercifully never been touched by cancer; a different insight to those who have a loved one who has; a commonality and a little humor to those of you who have faced this monster and have beaten it down for three months or three years or forever… is there such a word as forever
in the world of cancer treatment? Do I dare use it? I do.
For Nancy, my fiancée at the time, who endured so much of this with me, but who took the time to nurture herself so she could be there for me, I am eternally grateful.
Nancy
For my sisters Susan and Laurie and their husbands, Don and Arthur, who stepped up to the plate and relieved Nancy of so much of her burden; who comforted me with laughter and homemade meals and crossword puzzles, and smuggled contraband wine into my room; and who facilitated the business and mechanics of my care, thank you all.
Susan and Don
Laurie and Arthur
For my children, Kristen and Jamie, who remained on the periphery for so long (I suppose out of fear) but who were always there with good intentions and private prayers. Good news, girls, you can take down the post-a-notes you put on my possessions to mark your territory
— Daddy ain’t gone quite yet.
Kristen
Jamie
And lastly for my grandchildren, Sophia and Mykayla. My thoughts of you, your youth and optimism, carried me through many of my darkest moments and strengthened my resolve to live long enough to see both of you into adulthood. And my newest granddaughter, Stella, who was not yet born, today you make Poppa laugh and keep his mind from wandering into dangerous places.
Sophia
Mykayla
Stella
PART I
CHAPTER 1
LET’S START AT THE VERY BEGINNING — DECEMBER 6, 2006
The dull, muted sounds of the intercom paging Dr. So-and-So made it near-on impossible to get any sleep, even with the morphine trying its damnedest to offset the pain. Shadows moved about quickly, in stealth, past the emergency room bay, creating a strobe-like effect as they passed by the door, blocking the light from the hallway momentarily. And then gone, only to be