The Words of a Wonderin' Soul

By Matthew McIntosh

This group of poems is a large summary of many life-changing events. In many cases, I would be changing occupations and feeling down searching for work. Sometimes, coming up empty-handed and running close to depleting my savings. But then, I would land a job interview, and things would turnaround.

Also a few times, I would meet a beautiful and wonderful person and fall into a tricky and, often, unstable relationship. But most of the time, I turned to music to ease the pain. And it helped in trying to pick up the broken pieces of my Life. Most of the time, it worked but not all of the situations. In those cases, it only numbed the pain. But this collection of poems is a brief portal into my life.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Newman Springs Publishing, Inc.
• Release date: Mar 24, 2020
• ISBN: 9781645317005

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The Great Escape

09-21-08

After next week I’ll be broke

Might sell everything I own

Buy a goat and a horse

And run for the mountains

Thought this got easier

As we all got older

But I was wrong it just gets meaner

Far away living with the pain

The great pain and what remain of what we lost

And in our struggle to stay afloat at all cost

Grasping at Straws

09-21-08

Running, running on and on

But never really getting anywhere

Stopping and trying to catch my breath

Just happened to be a disaster

Playing catch up, trying to make up

All the money we’ve lost

This a nightmare, wish I could wake up

We’re reaching for straws

Grasping all the lifeline thrown across

Bu not many are working

They’re all coming out to be nothing but walls

A Single Day

09-21-08

Watching the sun come up

Rising above the horizon

I’m thinking of this better day

Wishing it will be better than yesterday

Yesterday, glad it’s gone and far away

Hoping for the best

Wishing something better comes our way

The sun is going down

I think this one is over now

Better than the last one

Won’t be long and the next will be done

Everyday

09-22-08

Waiting for the telephone to ring

Wiping from my mind all the bad things

Anticipating, anxiously waiting

For my newest way to make it pay

This can’t go on for long

I feel like my life and mind are gone

I’m just trying, trying hard to survive

Counting my pennies, counting the dimes

Looking for a way to pay for my life

All hope seems gone

I’ll keep searching on and on

Thinking

09-22-08

Looking down at the grass

Thinking in my mind, about most of the past

I’m wondering about it all

Guessing more or less

Thinking of the time

Way back inside my mind

When what is gone, was yours and mine

Recalling our victories

Not even dwelling on societies

Pains they put over our eyes

Deep

09-22-08

The sun is setting

The days almost done

I’m still wondering what’s to come

If tomorrow will make me numb

The days are like a clock

Counting down the hours

Sinking like a rock

Unable to sleep

Gazing at the moonlight

Thinking of the rise

Sinking in very, very deep

Better Days

09-22-08

Getting through this time

We’re all wondering on tomorrow

What will and should be

We’re scared about everything real

Dancing through the days

Wondering if people will someday say

The worlds gone astray in the too many ways

We’re trying to find

Happiness in everyone’s minds

We’re hoping for better days

I hope we can find in our time

Yesterday and Tomorrow

09-24-08

I’m wondering around this place

Trying to make a change

But everything’s changing me

That’s not the way it’s supposed to be

I’m searching all around

Trying to find our home

Wondering if we’ll ever be there

Staying up, sleepless nights

Wondering ’bought tomorrow

Just trying to find yesterday and what’s gone

Sleepless

09-25-08

It’s late at night, unable to sleep

I clear my throat

I remember the time

Way back inside my mind

Thinking simple thoughts

Their trapped inside my mind

The simple thoughts are often so hard to find

Dreaming of the dawn

Coming upon me soon

Wondering if the day will stay

True to me or will it drift away

Leaving me to pray for a better one on the way

Reclaiming Time

09-26-08

Waking with the sunlight on my face