Behind the Mask: A Story of Victory Over Incest and Mental Illness

By Denise A. Dewald

He takes off my clothes and leads me to the only bedroom in our small trailer.

 

He makes me lay on the bed while he undresses, all the while staring at my young nude body. I begin my mental escape. I'm in a vast field of tall grass where the air is fresh and clean and doesn't smell like beer and cigarettes. The sky is a deep blue. I breathe deeply and begin to run. So free!

 

But I can never make it last.

 

Due to the nature of the forms of abuse discussed in this book, and the frank manner in which they are portrayed, eLectio Publishing DOES NOT recommend this book for readers under the age of 18.

• Language: English
• Publisher: eLectio Publishing
• Release date: Jan 10, 2023
• ISBN: 9781632133915

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