The Dark Issue 83: The Dark, #83

By Aliya Whiteley, Steve Rasnic Tem, Ai Jiang and Jack Klausner

Each month The Dark brings you the best in dark fantasy and horror! Selected by award-winning editor Sean Wallace and published by Prime Books, this issue includes four all-new stories:

 

"Knotlings" by Aliya Whiteley
"Black Wings" by Steve Rasnic Tem
"Xiǎo Èmó—Little Demon" by Ai Jiang
"In Farrow" by Jack Klausner

• Language: English
• Publisher: Prime Books
• Release date: Mar 30, 2022
• ISBN: 9798201281205

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THE DARK

Issue 83 • April 2022

Knotlings by Aliya Whiteley

Black Wings by Steve Rasnic Tem

Xiǎo Èmó—Little Demon by Ai Jiang

In Farrow by Jack Klausner

Cover Art: Wolf Cry by Jonathan Wesslund

ISSN 2332-4392.

Edited by Sean Wallace.

Cover design by Garry Nurrish.

Copyright © 2022 by Prime Books.

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Knotlings

by Aliya Whiteley

There came a day, six years into my marriage, when my husband was hit by a van. It skidded on black ice in a car park, and crushed him against a post.

He did not suffer, they told me later, in the hospital.

Sure, I said. He wasn’t really the type. My son Aaron and I went on without him.

Aaron made an expression of surprise, of discomfort. It bent his beautiful mouth out of shape. He leaned forward, his hands clamped over his stomach. It was early morning; he was on his way out the door, to school. I froze, on the bottom stair in the hallway. I went to him, took him back inside the house, and hugged him tight. I knew what was causing it: a feeling I had lived with since my own first release, thirty years ago.

I had dreaded the moment, hoping he had escaped my condition, but when it came I felt relief. He was not like his father after all. He was suffering, and to suffer well, one must live a long time.

I let him feel the pain for a few days before I attempted to explain what it was. I knew he would need to go through the sensations to get to the point where he was willing to listen. He came to me late in the evening of the third day and described the symptoms so well, choosing his words with a precision that made me proud.

—squeezing, inside, like a beat, like a light winking on and off, but also burning. A strong, hot light. And a tearing feeling too, as if my guts are twisting. I thought it might go away—

It won’t, I told him. He was beside me on the sofa. I took care not to make direct eye contact for more than a few seconds. He hated intensity. I was the same, at fifteen.

You know what it is, then?

I explained it, as best as I could.

Seriously? he said, but he did not laugh at me, or push the idea away. And you’ve got the same thing?

Had it since I was your age.

Why? he said. I couldn’t answer. Who knows why? I told him what I hold true to this day: we are alone in illness, whether we share its existence with others or not. If there are textbooks and societies, answers and alleviations, I don’t want to know of them. I went through a phase of thinking otherwise. The doctor did not believe me and I could not demonstrate my symptoms on cue. I came to my own solutions through exploration, and through luck.

Sometimes things that look as if they came into this world whole, planned and executed all at once, are in fact made over years of trial and error. So it was with my shed. I never set out to have a site purely for releasing. I was only looking, at first, for a large garden, overgrown, to which I could go and crouch, give way to the pain. Aaron’s father saw no reason for me to stay out there without protection in all weathers, so he bought a small shed and left it empty for me. As the frequency intensified, into my late twenties, I started to collect egg boxes and glue them to the walls, to keep the sounds I made from escaping. Then paint, all colours, splashed wherever I felt while waiting for the release to come. The painting seemed to help, a little.

The box I used—with the snap-shut lid—I’ve had since the beginning. It was left over from Christmas, had once housed fancy iced biscuits. I grabbed it