I Only Have Marmalade
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I Only Have Marmalade - M. G. Hughes
I ONLY HAVE
MARMALADE
M. G. HUGHES
Copyright © 2021 M. G. Hughes.
All rights reserved.
Published by Thought Catalog Books, an imprint of the digital magazine Thought Catalog, which is owned and operated by The Thought & Expression Company LLC, an independent media organization based in Brooklyn, New York and Los Angeles, California.
This book was produced by Chris Lavergne and Noelle Beams with art direction and design by KJ Parish. Cover illustrated by Maggie Stephenson (www.maggiestephenson.com). Special thanks to Brianna Wiest for creative editorial direction and Isidoros Karamitopoulos for circulation management.
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ISBN 978-1-949759-36-5
If you had the choice, would you pick today up from the ground?
If the hour was an apricot rotting from the inside out, the flesh browning through and through, would you leave it to rot?
Or would you make marmalade?
Silent night,
Loud day—
You test
Me so.
And still I walk with
Medallion in my footprints.
Errands
Skip
Hop
Blue tank top
Was going down
To the Wig Shop
With Granny
Skip
Hop
Across the sidewalk
Was running errands
Under a wilting sun ray
Skip
Hop
Throw a penny in the fountain
Throw a penny and watch it grow
Skip
Hop
Think of a wish quick little Brown girl
Think of a wish quick little Brown girl
Make a wish for yourself grown Brown girl
On Being a Happy Woman
Little girl
Looks to
Cracked up sky
Looks to
Ancestors
Looks to
God
Looks to
Ancestors again
Looks to
Passing storm cloud
Looks to
Reflection in the water
Looks to
Cracked up sky
Looks to
That little girl once more
The Woman with Clear Colored Ink
I could make
Entire mountains cry violet
All the canyons lose their guts
All the valleys and rivers speak
Their native leaf language just for us
But that would be too easy
On some days i just cry
over the way a lyric wrapped
its silk self around my shoulders
On some days
i just
let myself cry
Suds
I bathed in nectarine
After taking the trash out
The feeling made me sleepy
And I almost drowned myself
On accident for having tilted my head
I slipped further and further into the tub
And after thinking on it I’ve realized there was
A metaphor waiting for me in the suds all along
But that’s for me to keep and for you to figure out
in this land of
tangerine i stuck
my shovel in the
ground and planted a grey tree.
i needed something to aid my direction.
it was blinding, this land and its colors,
and in a strange way i viewed it as company.
i wasn’t born with summer irises.
when i was born i proved brown.
Ancestors¹
I stand before
A looking window
Looking out at six generations
I see a little girl jumping rope
I see her looking Brown looking Black like me
And while on one end there’s a woman
Deep brown and four times
as wise as the girl and smiling
Dark curly hair no makeup no concealer
just natural beauty
On the left there’s a polite shadow
that is black and see through
This figure does not look like a man or a woman
or anyone in particular
It’s just a frame of a frame
(a frame of what could have been had I known)
But there’s no doubt in my mind those are
constellations along the arms and legs
You see
In the blackness of this void between
This person and me I do not see emptiness
I see the white crackling stars that flicker
to an unknown banjo song
I see the entire stretch of the Universe
I see today and yesterday
I see you and me
You see
I see Heaven looking over Pangea looking over every grey lit street and village
Magical Ghost Girl
Where do I place
If I don’t
Have that glow
You’re talking about
If I don’t
Have that gifted gaze
If I don’t
Have that emerald thumb
If I don’t
Have her motherland flame
Would you call it
Black girl or Brown girl magic
Would you call me
A magical mutt or a magical ghost girl
Not uncommon
Yet
Not impressive
Would you call me
A magical no-good or a magical nobody
Not invisible
Yet
Not doable
Arrhythmia
Sometimes I touch
The area where my heart is
Because I can’t take a full breath
It feels as if someone’s pricking me
When I was younger my doctor said
The bump was a bone still growing but
It’s still there still reminding me to love it
Like a baby bird left alone too long in its cage
Camellia in the Moment
I was fourteen
When Camellia asked me
What’s that is that blood
What’s that scar on your hand
She was referring to my left
And what I told her was
Oh I got that from cooking
I accidently burnt myself
She didn’t say anything
She had this strange look
On her deep brown face
You know the way we sometimes
Look at each other when we’re
Absolutely sure we’re not sure
That was Camellia in the moment
And when she finally said something
It went a little something like this