43 Days of Reflections and Ruminations
By Tom Fahey
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When you find out you are going to be forced to have extensive down time with radiation treatments, you can react in many ways. I choose to use the time to put down my reflections on my life and my thoughts about topics I wanted to share with my children, family, and close friends.
While facing 43 treatments I sure had time for 43 topics. My brother said I needed to share this outside family and friends. I hope you find some humor and commonality in spirit. Being a survivor of now two different cancers I think I am starting to understand just how precious life really is.
Tom Fahey
Tom Fahey is a husband, father, and a proud grandfather first and foremost. He is the ultimate sports nut, but not to watch, to participate. After a successful sales management career which took him all over the world, keeping him on planes and in hotels, he has averaged reading 90 books a year for over 40 years, and now, in retirement, is finally working on a promise to write.
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43 Days of Reflections and Ruminations - Tom Fahey
About the Author
Tom Fahey is a husband, father, and a proud grandfather first and foremost. He is the ultimate sports nut, but not to watch, to participate. After a successful sales management career which took him all over the world, keeping him on planes and in hotels, he has averaged reading 90 books a year for over 40 years, and now, in retirement, is finally working on a promise to write.
Dedication
To my family, the only reason we are really here.
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43 Days of Reflections and Ruminations
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Prologue
There must always be a beginning to get to the end. Or maybe it is more correct to say you must start if you ever want to get to the finish. From my marathon running days, you must take the first of 55,374 steps to complete the race. I bet I can find at least another dozen clichés, but they are only delaying the real start to my story.
My mother was a teacher and instilled in me a love of literature. She also corrected my spelling so often I must have used that as my one open rebellion against her because I really rely extensively on spell-check. They say to be a great writer, you must be a voracious reader, and in that, I think I qualify.
Years ago, I started keeping a log of books, authors, and comments on all books I read. Since starting my log, my average is ninety books a year. I took several literature courses in college, wrote poetry, and envisioned myself as the next Hemmingway, sadly though I was better in science. For about twenty-five years, I have nominally worked on about four different books, one made it to the eighth chapter, and the others not much past research and my mental machinations. So, let us see if this start ever approaches an end.
I consider myself a very simple, common, red-blooded American male. So, if you are interested in a woman’s—like my wife’s—perspective, I have no idea how that would work. To understand how I come up with the average American, you may have to throw out all the super-rich and maybe those rare people who have no ambition at all and want to live off others. After those exclusions, I think we have a lot more in common than different. With those limited exclusions that still leave about three hundred and thirty million Americans in my calculations of what is average. We may still have a lot of differences but who wants us all to be the same.
I think I will have to give you a little background and do some qualifications before I proceed. I am a white male of European descent; my ancestors came to the United States of America in the middle of the 1800s. We do not have roots with the pilgrims, and we did not immigrate recently. That makes me somewhere in the middle of our country’s history, hence average. I was born in a small town with a small dying manufacturing base. We moved to Chicago when I was just twelve. From a small town to a megacity such as Chicago was a real shock to the psychic. I am pretty much average height and weight and good at a lot of things but surely not great at anything. If you put all three hundred and thirty million Americans in an enormous blender and made a homogenous mixture, I think I would be one of the ‘averages’. Luckily, America is made up of totally unique individuals. Isn’t the wonder of DNA amazing? Coming from a meager background and a baby boomer, I have worked hard and done a little better than my parents, which was their ambition for us. The American dream of each generation standing on the shoulders of the last and doing better is still our legacy.
If you are looking for a politically correct read or if you are easily bruised or offended, you might want to stop here. I was born and raised in a time when we used the phrase such as ‘sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never harm me’. We were raised up to have a lot thicker skin; we were not offended by everything; and yet we were taught to love and respect our fellow man. I know I never went to a grocery store and was offended by the branded character on a syrup bottle or a box of rice. God and religion were not attacked daily, and we said the pledge of allegiance in the schoolroom every morning. What I want to share with you is a look into life and hope you can laugh and cry and relate to some of my reflections as a pretty common American.
Thirteen years ago when I was trying to write and made it to eight chapters in a book about my summer vacations with ‘crazy Uncle John’, my youngest daughter, Lisa was just entering law school and functioned as my editor and critic. Lisa along with my older daughter Anna and my wife Nancy had heard me talk about my intent to write enough that I am sure it bored them to no end. My family was kind of in the ‘yeah sure mode’ anytime I talked about my many books thought of but not yet in writing.
I think Lisa saw something in those short chapters I had written and my love of reading so she sent me one of the most motivational emails a dad could ever dream of. I saved that email that talked about how John Grisham took three years while working as a full-time attorney to write his first book A Time to Kill. Sometimes, he was able to write only a few paragraphs a day, but it eventually led to one of the most popular novelists of my time.
This morning, I went through a minor medical procedure and must take it easy for the next twenty-four to forty-eight hours. I also am retired so work can no longer be used as an excuse. So, Lisa, I am going to start again hoping I find the finish line, and you can again be my editor and critic.
Chapter 1
Childhood
When you start with your childhood story, you really cannot start at childbirth. You may have let out a good scream when slapped on the ass, but no way you can remember that. At best, you will remember stories told of your early years. I have two favorites; early stories that my mom repeated many times. When I was born, she told my spinster Great-Aunt Annie, while still in the hospital, that she really did not want a boy and she could have me. Aunt Annie took that to heart, and I was always her special little boy. The other was that my mom had wrapped me in a blanket, and I was sleeping on the couch when my Uncle Bob came in and was about to plop himself right down on top of me. Mom screamed, and somehow, Uncle Bob stopped in midair avoiding a quick end to my very short existence. Of course, I only remember these stories because I heard them at every family gathering for twenty years.
I define my childhood as all the first twelve plus years we spent in my hometown of Rushville, Indiana. Rushville was founded in the 1820s, and with the arrival of the railroad in 1850, it quickly grew to a dynamic small town with banks, factories, mills, and grain elevators. The Rush County had excellent crop ground and a mix of hardwood forests for furniture manufacturing, both of which were critical for its early development. With three large furniture manufacturing plants and a foundry, it had jobs for young men like my father looking for good employment after WWII. The Durbin Hotel in Rushville was the campaign headquarters for Wendell Willkie’s failed presidential campaign against Franklin D. Roosevelt.
I was born in 1953, which was pretty much the economic peak in Rushville’s history. Shortly after that, they witnessed the slow steady decline that was occurring in many small rural American towns. I think two keys especially contributed to the decline of Rushville. First, the interstate system missed us, and manufacturing started its slow and steady move overseas. Our census was over seven thousand in 1960, but the following three decades were all steady declines. I did not know it then, but I grew up in one of the best possible times for small-town America.
When I try to focus on my childhood, there are general impressions like I had loving parents and great relatives as well as a fun and well-rounded life. I think that type of childhood is more the norm in America than the TV or press understands. But when I really try to dig into my memories, it is like looking at a steamed-over mirror after a very hot shower. The mirror is fogged, and if I take the tip of my finger and touch it dozens of times, there are tiny clear areas. These small spots are like specific memories. But really, most of my childhood is a condensation of recollections such as playing baseball, going to the county fair, or weekends out at my great-aunt’s farms. I want to share some of the general recollections as well as clear snapshots that are burned into my early memories.
We lived on 1116 N. Arthur Street; funny how I just remembered that address without even thinking. Our back fence was adjacent to the county fairgrounds and less than two blocks to a city park. What a fertile playground for a boy with a bike and a BB gun. To this day, I believe I snuck into the fairground’s old buildings more than any other Rushville resident in history. I tried to shoot a lot of pigeons with that little BB gun, but they were very safe up in the rafters of the closed livestock buildings.
Our great-aunts owned three small farms that were really the accumulated work of their parents and brothers. There was an eighty, a one-hundred-and-twenty, and a one-hundred-and-fifty-acre farm all now owned by the four remaining unmarried sisters. Family members lived on two farms and a hired hand on the third smaller farm. My aunts and the farms were a throwback to the diversified subsistence farming of earlier generations. They worked in a large garden, a small orchard, grapevines, as well as almost all types of livestock including dairy cows. That guaranteed you would eat well even in a bad crop year. Extended family gatherings for holidays were enormous often numbering over twenty-five adults and children running everywhere and assuring we had leftovers for a week.
I spent as many weekends and as much of my summer vacations as possible exploring every foot of every barn and shop on those farms. I did chores such as feeding chickens and pigs, and when I was tall enough, I graduated into shoveling cow manure out the windows in the dairy barn. Those piles out the window would later be scooped up and spread on the fields. That might not have really been my favorite chore. For some strange reason, I have always liked tart and sour foods so I would eat green apples before they were ready and chew on rhubarb even though my aunts would warn me I would get stomach aches and possibly even the runs. By the way, my aunts were right most of the time. I still love to suck on lemons and limes and luckily rhubarb and sour green apples are harder to come by for me these days.
I want to share with you a couple of my most specific memories from the farm. My uncle had bought a pony that really did not like being ridden. On an early spring day, when the pony had not been ridden all winter, my uncle saddled the pony, and when I got on, he gave it a smack on the butt. Big mistake, that pony ran straight at a woodpile and threw me right on top of the pile. I came out with several puncture wounds from nails and ended up going to the doctor for a fresh tetanus shot and some stitches. My Aunt Annie was so furious at my uncle; that pony was gone off the farm the next day. By twelve, I was big enough to help put up hay, but we had to move the old hay in the loft over to one side of the barn before putting up any new hay. I flipped over an old bale and exposed a hornet’s nest. They attacked so fast; all I could do was run out the door of the loft hitting the hay wagon on the way down; and I took off running and swatting hornets all the way to the house howling like a banshee. I ended up with over a dozen stings and was once again run into town to see the doctor. Funny how many of the strongest and clearest memories often have a traumatic component.
Picking just a couple memories from grade school is a challenge. I went to the small Catholic school in town, and it was when nuns were still teaching in most of the grades. My personal problem was that my mother also taught at my school. Mom and Dad made it clear that we had to be exemplary students so as to not embarrass the family. In trouble at school, guaranteed in trouble at home. In second grade, my cousin was roughhousing on the playground and ran by and caught me in the mouth with an elbow and ripped the corner of my mouth open. A trip to the doctor for stitches closed my mouth up but left me with a bigger mouth according to my dad.
I have a vivid memory of the day President Kennedy was assassinated. All the nuns were crying, and we were sent home early. With my family being Catholic and back then Democrats, we were devastated; I was too young to really understand the implications of the assassination but sensed how deep the anguish was at school and home.
In the fifth grade, I had two dramatic issues with my teacher, which unfortunately was my mother. I got into a ‘boy fights over girl’ spat with one of my best friends, Gene, after school. We were teasing each other about having a crush on a girl, at twelve years old; we were just being silly. We both