Breast Cancer as a Sacred Love Journey
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Breast Cancer as a Sacred Love Journey is a compilation of 74 uplifting stories that serve as an inspirational and informational guide - from diagnosis to surgery to chemo to radiation and what comes after treatment. Although the journey is not fun, it is also not necessarily an experience
Jennifer J Elam
Jennifer Elam is a Friend and a licensed psychologist who has studied Quaker spirituality and the lives of the Christian contemplatives and mystics. A longtime calling to live in community led her to Pendle Hill in 1996 as resident student and then as Cadbury Scholar. In the art studio at Pendle Hill, Sally Palmer became her mentor. The art forms she engaged in are now manifestations of her prayer life. Her paintings make visible her inner landscapes and provide a sanctuary for her soul. Jen's media include writing, dancing, body prayer, drumming, book arts, paste papers, and life. Creativity is her source for connection with her Creator and is at the center of everything she does. She holds master's degrees in sociology and psychology and a PhD in school psychology from the University of North Carolina. She has served as assistant professor in human services and school psychology, psychologist in residential treatment, school psychologist in public schools, and as a school psychologist with three-to-five-year-olds. Jennifer has led over a hundred courses, workshops, and retreats in Arts and Spirituality and is the author of four books. Born in Kentucky, Jennifer is now writing passionately about her heritage. She is a member of Berea Friends Meeting in Berea, Kentucky, and attends Middletown Preparative Meeting in Pennsylvania.
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Breast Cancer as a Sacred Love Journey - Jennifer J Elam
BREAST CANCER
as a
SACRED LOVE
JOURNEY
JENNIFER ELAM
Published by
Way Opens Press
Media, Pennsylvania 2017
Writing and Paintings by Jennifer Elam
Copyright ©2017
Jennifer Elam
All Rights Reserved
ISBN
978-0-9716525-9-0
978-0-9981315-0-4 (e book)
Published by
WAY OPENS PRESS
72 War Trophy Lane, Media, PA 19063
Email: jenelam@aol.com
Printed in the United States of America
1 3 5 7 9 10 8 6 4 2
First Edition
It’s December 3, 2012
and I have just been diagnosed with
triple negative aggressive
breast cancer.
I wonder what that means….
Held in the Uncertainty
Table of Contents
Foreword – In Gratitude to My Love Tsunami in Motion
Introduction
Diagnosis and Surgery: You’re Gonna Cut Me WHERE?
Mom’s Birthday 2012
Nitty Gritty: Fast Dancin’
The Verdict Dire: Blissed
Jennifer, what are you up to NOW?
Reason to Live
You May Not Die!
Healthy Breasts on My Christmas Tree
I Love You a Bushel and a Peck
Clear Margins, Clear Lymph Nodes
Pink
Chemo: But, But I LOVE My Hair
2nd Opinions, 3rd Opinions
Clearness Committee
I Asked for 9 Million Prayers; It Just Went Up to 900 Million
My Body vs. Wise
Chemo
Chemo Earning Its’ Reputation
No, Not My Hair
My Hair
Struggling with My Body’s Knowing
Bald Woman and the Bald Eagle
Keeping Awareness of Life Beyond BC
The 500 Year Map
The God Who Only Knows 4 Words
You’ll Do That for ME? Dust My House and….
Religious Society of Cells
Religious Society of Cells
Amping Up BJ’s (well, everyone’s) Prayer Life
Fear: Dear Cells,
Grief Whacked: In-consolable Wreck Today
A Joke
Hypocritical or Some Kind of Critical
Jesus in the Chemo Chair
Wait, I Gotta Go P..
Wait, I Have to Teach Arts & Spirituality Class: Creativity Saves Me Again
From 5 Rhythms
Joachim’s Heart
Karen Died and Now Laura Has BC too
Wait, I Have to Go to Oregon
Inspired by Moments of Life Lived Fully
Wait, NOW I HAVE to Hoop Dance: hoopin’ and hopin’
Just Like Those De-posed Dictators: Healing Inner and Outer Tyranny
Stuck in the Mud and THEN…
Cranial Prostheses, Hats, Scarves, and Shawls
Susana Gives the 5-year-old Perspective
Sleepless Nights
Reading from Joanna, the Intuitive – PURE AWE!!
Affidity Barrelfuls
Met-a-mor-pho-sis
Left Right Left Right Left Right Again
You Have Friends
Wellness Day
Chemo Brain: Chalk Dust in My Executive Functioning
Easter
Artichokes and Flowers
Radiation: You’re Gonna Zap Me There TOO
5:30 am: Get Up and Drive to Lankenau Hospital
THEN Go To Work…Relentless
Small Potlucks with Friends: The Bestest of the Guestests
Deep Water Dreams
The Path of Unknowing
Jesus Joins Me on the Path of Unknowing
Jesus Joins Me in Radiation Treatment
Jesus in Radiation…Still Walking Down the Road of Unknowing
Wait, I Gotta P…
Will You Just Sing Me a Lullaby?
More Healthy Breasts
Power Surges…Unstoppable
Will to Live and Other Mysteries: The Grass that Grows Through the Cement (my heroes)
The Weeds Are Rising
The Bell Finally Rang
And BJ Checks In
Post-Treatment: If the Cancer Is Gone,
Then Why Is It Not Over?
Women’s Voices: Living Out Loud
But, It’s Not Mine: Carrying the Pathology of the Culture
Breast Cancer Survivor, NO Thriver: That Cancer Language Just Doesn’t Suit Me
Deliriously and Obnoxiously Joyful
Finding Meaning; Acknowledging Miracles;
Overwhelming Gratitude
Nothing Lasts Forever
Pearl-Making: The Gifts in Suffering
Art with International Students
Well, the Hair IS Coming Back
Launched
Exercise Class
Celebrating Life and Aliveness
The Last Piece of the Art Show Finally Came: Cosmic Images as Possibilities
Learnings with Kathy
Arts and Spirituality Retreat Days
I Track the Path of Miracles
Epilogue I
Epilogue II
Appendix A: Pearl Making
Appendix B: Pearls of Wisdom
Acknowledgements
Resource Notes
Other Books by this Author
About the Author
Foreword
Large Gratitude for my Love Tsunami in Motion
As news of my diagnosis of breast cancer spread, people started calling and emailing me with love notes and questions. Very quickly, I got overwhelmed. I had doctors to visit and lots to do. Not having a clue how one 'does' breast cancer, I sent out a mass email to everyone who wanted to know more and those I thought would want to know…Dear Community of Family and Friends… What came back was knowledge that I am loved beyond anything I could have foreseen. People were kind, compassionate, loving, and practical. They offered to bring me food, go to the doctor with me, go to surgery with me, stay the night with me if I was lonely, play me music, sing to me, send me flowers, clean my house, and so much more. It felt sacred and I felt like I was on a journey of love, of a new kind. A friend from work, Jean, said it sounded like a love tsunami. And the love tsunami stayed in motion for the next eight months, from diagnosis until the last treatment ended and my doctors declared me launched beyond breast cancer. I had no idea this tsunami was out there for me. I encourage you to take a risk and ask people around you to be there for you in your time of need.
As has been said, if you share your concerns and sorrows they divide, and if you share your joys and happiness, they multiply. My journey is truly an example of this.
A THOUGHT FOR TODAY:
It is not so much our friends' help that helps us as the confident knowledge that they will help us.
– Epicurus, philosopher
(c. 341-270 BCE)
Held in the Light
Introduction
Ever since I was diagnosed with breast cancer, I have felt it as very much a spiritual journey. I have felt accompanied by God and the people in my life; there is a powerful spiritual presence in it. And from the beginning, miracles have occurred. The breast cancer just cuts through the layers of the onion of life to what is important…the sacred love journey.
I am very clear that all of our journeys through breast cancer are different. I just want to share mine with those of you who might have heard those dreaded words as a diagnosis or may be accompanying a loved one who has heard the words 'breast cancer' in relationship to themselves. My hopes are that we can feel connected, and maybe there is something that happened for me that might serve as a street lamp in the dark for you. I have felt from the beginning that there is purpose in this seeming senselessness. My friend Jan, who had breast cancer then had bladder cancer, now tracks miracles. I want to be open to miracles.
Recently, my friend Sally said, I can’t wail with you anymore. You handled breast cancer so well that I can’t just be a needy mess with you.
My heart broke. I am so clear that I did not handle
breast cancer in good ways or bad ways. Breast cancer came. I was present with it. I went on an adventure with God and a lot of supporters. I was graced beyond measure. This book is written in gratitude for all of that support.
During treatment, my emotions went wild and were interesting to