The Female Gaze

By Tilda Blixen

From an early age, Erin always had an oral fixation. Giving men pleasure in this way was her greatest pleasure.

But when her husband goes limp in the bedroom, this suburban soccer mom and mother of two finds her eye beginning to wander...

It falls on the coldly sexy Dr. Norah Brooks, the sex-positive orthodontist with some transgressive ideas about relations between men and women. She offers Erin a glimpse into her world, a meticulously curated Shangri-La of sensual pleasure and masculine eye-candy. Whoever said women aren't turned on visuals gets proven wrong when these two lustful cougars join forces.

How Erin reconciles her love for oral with her love for her husband forms a very modern tale of sex and marriage, one many readers may recognize from their own lives.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Tilda Blixen
• Release date: Sep 25, 2021
• ISBN: 9781005133054

Tilda Blixen

Many married men find the idea of an open relationship appealing. They confidently picture all the women they will be bedding outside the confines of monogamy. But in reality women always have more opportunities to find no-strings-attached sex, to the point where the difference is laughably unfair. Couples entering the swinging world quickly realize the average woman has her pick among an exponentially larger throng of willing partners than the average man.It is often an eye-opening experience for the woman, who perhaps for the first time in her life fully comprehends the level of power she wields in the erotic realm. If she can overcome the social conditioning and slut shaming the vast majority of females undergo as children, a whole new world opens up before her. In this world, she finds, high-status, alpha males she’d once considered “out of her league” are more than willing to sleep with her.For the man, the experience is often opposite. Unless he is himself a high-status, alpha male, (and, yes, penis size matters here—sorry, guys), fewer women are available to him. It’s Pareto’s Principle in action, the statistical 80/20 split that occurs in so many open markets: 80% of the world’s internet traffic goes to 20% of websites; 80% of film profits go to 20% of films; and 80% of the females will chase 20% of the high-status males.A lot of men get left on the sidelines. And yet Mother Nature, in her wisdom, offers such men compensatory pleasures. Faced with the incontrovertible truth of his sexual inferiority, a man’s sex drive will often turn back on itself, perhaps as a means of psychological self-defense. While watching his partner scale heretofore unknown heights of erotic bliss, he may find himself—often against his will—becoming sexually aroused. I’ve seen this happen with my own eyes. It’s a fascinating journey.The emotional cocktail known as “cuckold angst,” the disturbing and contradictory mixture of excitement, humiliation, and anger, rates as one of the most intensely erotic emotions a male can ever experience. Once accepted, it can become highly addictive.Indeed, this dynamic can become highly addictive to both partners, male and female. And like all addictions, the more you get, the more you need...This is the theme of my stories.

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The Female Gaze

By Tilda Blixen

Copyright 2021 Tilda Blixen

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This book is dedicated to adult performer, hearbreaking stud, and legend of the married-but-dating lifestyle, DFW Knight.

Table of Contents

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

About Tilda Blixen

Sample chapter from Seamstress for the Man

Chapter 1

I’m one of those depraved women who gets sexual pleasure from giving blowjobs. It’s not common, but we do exist. Giving a man oral, in and of itself, makes me wet. Actually even just thinking about it gets me going. Writing these words is having an effect.

I like big dicks and I cannot lie, to paraphrase a famous song. Some women go for strong jawlines, some broad shoulders, some sculpted abs, some tight butts; Me, I’m a dick girl. And what we crave sexually, we long to put in our mouths. According to Freud, anyway.

According to my husband, my oral fixation is one of the reasons he married me. He’d heard legends of the self-stimulating fellatrix but had never actually met one. Imagine his luck, finding a partner for whom giving sloppy head wasn’t a chore but an aphrodisiac.

Even after marriage and two children, the blowjobs continued—or, at least until we reached our mid-forties. Then they vanished for a while. And no, not because I stopped going downtown; it was because he stopped being able to get it up.

Yes, the ugly specter of erectile dysfunction had visited our marriage. In my opinion, Tom’s super-stressful career as managing director of an investment bank was to blame. While the salary and benefits are outlandishly generous, endless hours and constant pressure took their toll. Always being the Alpha Male at work left little testosterone for the bedroom.

Or maybe I’m just hoping it was that and not the fading charms of my middle-aged body. Despite kids and an almost-equally demanding career as an attorney, I’ve done my best to maintain my looks. My 5’8" figure is only ten pounds heavier than in college, my auburn hair still shines with health, and religious sunscreen use has preserved my creamy Irish skin. Add my two star attractions: 38 double-D breasts that still manage to turn the occasional head, and I’d like to think I’m at least MILF adjacent. (But you didn’t hear that from me.)

In any case, for whatever reason, Tom couldn’t get it up. We tried multiple remedies. Even the little blue pills didn’t help. Then we experimented with pornography, eventually finding success in an area I would’ve never expected. The thing that got him rock hard every time was interracial scenes involving black men and white women.

It’s important to note here that my feelings about porn had always been negative. At its worst, it degrades and exploits women, and even when it doesn’t it’s just plain gross, my love for dick notwithstanding. The male member appealed to me in a strictly in-person, IRL way. Why watch secondhand what you can experience in real life?

But marriage is a compromise, and Tom’s was impotent without watching some bored, fake-chested hooker getting railed by a giant black penis. So I did the wifely thing and viewed along with him.

Naturally I focused on the only elements in these films that appealed to me: the cocks. To claim I was unimpressed would be