It Didn't Break Me: It Changed Me
By S. S. Custis
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S. S. Custis
The author spent years living with the shame of assault even as it effected every area of her life. Decades after the assault she learned how the assault effected her relationships. After years of hiding in the shadows, she began rebuilding herself, her mental health, and stopped hiding on the outskirts of life. She is now completing her doctoral studies in Strategic Leadership to help develop herself and better equip herself to reach and aid others who struggle to find themselves after dealing with trauma.
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It Didn't Break Me - S. S. Custis
© 2019 S. S. Custis. All rights reserved.
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Published by AuthorHouse 10/09/2019
ISBN: 978-1-7283-3027-3 (sc)
ISBN: 978-1-7283-3025-9 (hc)
ISBN: 978-1-7283-3026-6 (e)
Library of Congress Control Number: 2019915725
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CONTENTS
Chapter 1 Childhood Memories
Chapter 2 My Grandmother
Chapter 3 That Night
Chapter 4 Alive but Not Living
Chapter 5 I Wasn’t Dumb; I Was Desperate
Chapter 6 Tired of Pretending
Chapter 7 Not Even on Vacation!
Chapter 8 When God Showed Me Myself
Chapter 9 Fighting Fear
About The Author
37098.pngCHAPTER 1
37106.pngCHILDHOOD MEMORIES
I grew up in a happy family where I knew without a doubt that I was loved. I had the normal experiences that come with childhood, both good and bad. I don’t know whether my parents struggled raising my sister, two brothers, and me. It wasn’t something our parents revealed. I just know I was mostly happy. I remember coming home from school and smelling the dinner my father was cooking for the family. My mom lucked out because he enjoyed cooking, and she did not. Don’t misunderstand—my mom could throw down in the kitchen, and there are some dishes, like her mac ’n’ cheese, that only she can cook for me. She was just happy having someone else cook. My brothers and my sister were athletic, but I was not. Marching band was as athletic as I got in those days, so I signed up to be the statistician for the football and basketball teams.
Our neighborhood was largely composed of immediate and extended family members. My aunt and cousins lived next door. My maternal grandmother lived directly across the street, with one of her sisters living on each side and her third sister on our side of the street, one house over. Just down the street were my mother’s in-laws, so I was surrounded by cousins my entire life. This also meant relatives were everywhere, so it was difficult to get away with anything. I didn’t necessarily try to get away with anything, but my brothers and sister got caught doing all sorts of things, like climbing out of the windows at night.
My grandmother lived nearby with my uncle. He could outrun any child in our neighborhood and often challenged the boys in the neighborhood. He always won. His temperament swung from one extreme to the other; some days, he was relatively docile, but other days, something seemingly random would enrage him. Some of those occasions, however, later became hilarious stories my cousins and I told at family