Now I See: A Walk Through Life’S Journey but Never Alone
By Lynnie Lang
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My utmost desire is to encourage others to learn Gods ways and experience him in a very personal way. God can and wants to be a real part of everyones life.
As I share my journey through life, you may experience a spiritual journey yourself. I trust the lessons of my life are worth passing on to others. I seek answers to questions many of us ask ourselves. Does God want us to know him in a real personal way? How do we find him amidst a life of ups and downs? Is there someone who cares enough to intervene in our everyday stuff?
(Will he when we ask? Does God really want to be an intricate part of our lives? How do we let him?)
Now I See gives an eyewitness account of devastating experience that it seemed only God would bring me through. I try to make it clear that to know God is the greatest privilege and need in life.
As you read this book, the intent is that you will also be able to say, Now I see . . . God has a purpose for everything I encounter in life.
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Now I See - Lynnie Lang
Copyright © 2018 by Lynnie Lang.
Library of Congress Control Number: 2018902447
ISBN: Hardcover 978-1-9845-1141-6
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CONTENTS
Chapters
DEDICATED
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
I. Divine Revelations of Early Youth
II. Family Relationships-Gains and Losses
III. Salvation-Inner Healing
IV. Spiritual Growth through Life’s Trials
V. God’s Commission Back in Our Home State
VI. Family Life’s Joys and Heartaches
VII. Difficult Adjustments Bring Spiritual Growth
VIII. Our Past Preparation for the Future
IX. ‘Thanks Mom for Letting Me Live’
X. Choices Can Bring Bondage or Freedom
XI. New Beginnings, New Challenges
XII. Commitments Require Right Choices
XIII. Right Choices Bring Blessings
XIV. Never Know What Will Happen Next
XV. All Things Become New and Then
XVI. Life Is An Adventure in Learning
XVII. You Too Can Say: Now I See
ABOUT THE AUTHOR—WHAT HER FRIENDS Say
53199.pngDEDICATED TO
My children, Debbi and David, who are always there
for me with much love, support and prayer.
My Grandchildren, Jenni, Jeff, Jesse, Michael,
Bianca and Sage, who I love dearly and I pray will
carry the love of God to their generation.
My Great Grandchildren, Naomi, Oliver and Silas
and Ryan, who I love dearly and am so grateful God
has kept me here long enough to enjoy them.
My family and friends who have loved me
through all my human weaknesses, and supported
me through the writing of my books.
I am blessed, and I thank God for all of you.
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
I extend my gratitude for the support and encouragement expressed to me by the following special people:
Granddaughter Jenni Lynne—Took family pictures for me.
Nothing I do is complete without the touch and love of my Children, Grandchildren and Great Grandchildren.
Andrea—Loyal FL friend for years and supporter of this venture and others God has led me through.
Prudy—Long time close friend who consistently pushed me to keep writing, for some day it was going to be a book. You were right, my friend, here it is!
Jaime—for the excitement we shared working together getting the book ready for publishing. I call her my angel daughter, because I know God brought her into my life.
Ruth from RI—A long time friend who years ago told me I should write a book some day.
Bertie, another encourager who taught me much . . . Counselor and director of a statewide Christian support group, helping those bound in addictions and emotional dependencies of all kinds.
Chaplains Karl and Robbie and friends at Orange County Corrections—appreciation for all the love and support regarding this writing and life itself.
Michele—Who helped me with some of the promotion details and encouraged me as an author.
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CHAPTER I
Divine Revelations of Early Youth
I was born in Providence, Rhode Island on September 2, 1942. I only had the one picture of me as a baby. I spent the first six months with my biological mom and later told I was given to my adoptive parents. On December 31, 1943 this wonderful couple legally adopted me. They were great parents. At times I’d get insecure as adopted children often do. Fearing someone would come and take me away. I would ask, Do I really belong to you, Mom?
Mom would never tell me or show me adoption papers. She’d say, You’ll see the stuff when I’m dead and gone.
I never knew why she wouldn’t show me, until later in my life. Further in my journey I chose to search for a stranger, the need for those adoption papers and more would confront me. I grew up being proud and thankful I was adopted. Dad and Mom could not have a baby of their own, but they always wanted one. Dad told me that when they heard about me needing a home, they knew they wanted me. He said, We loved you immediately.
They didn’t change my first name given at birth, and I took on their last name.
My childhood was as normal as any other child’s would be. I was popular and had many friends in school and in my neighborhood. Mom and Dad were faithful in bringing me to Sunday school and worship services. I remember my Godmother, Ruth, calling every Sunday afternoon, if they didn’t come to visit. She’d always ask if I’d been to church. It was impressed on me at an early age that it was important to please God and worship Him regularly. This was a foundation that was set, but was only the beginning of God’s plan and purpose that is revealed throughout these pages.
High moral standards were also instilled in me. As a teen I had the normal conflicts. Being boy crazy did cause a few. Dad must have been concerned. Quite a few times he warned me not to be permissive with the boys. He’d say, I don’t want you to turn out like your mother.
I had come to the conclusion that he was referring to my biological mother." Guess I must have been born to an unwed mother. I often wondered what reason she had to give me up for adoption. No matter how great your adoptive parents are, some of us still wonder about our biological background.
I also remember Dad telling me that he wished they had adopted another child. He felt bad that I didn’t have a brother or sister to grow up with. It seemed to me like there was something missing in my life! I wondered if somewhere in this world I might have a brother or sister. Though I would suppress all this wondering off and on throughout the years ahead, it never stopped the yearning-to-know from returning from time to time. I even fantasized about how my real family might be.
You don’t realize till later in life that God’s hand is on you as you’re growing up. My desire to please God carried me through many difficult decisions that confronted me. Even as a youngster I was a people-pleaser. I’d do anything for anybody thinking it would make them like me better. That can certainly get a teenager in some uncomfortable situations, and did. Boyfriends would try to take advantage of my difficulty in saying no. There is even a friend of the family who took me to his basement to play games
with him.
I am thankful today that my God-consciousness gave me the strength to run from letting things go too far. I would get so uncomfortable and scared. I would finally yell, God doesn’t want us to do this!
Then he would let me go. Often when we’re young, we carelessly confuse love with lust. Even at an early age my choices were to please God over pleasing my sinful fleshly desires. Life can be rough. As time went on I learned that difficulties can be for your good and that choices continually affect our lives. I also think it was the fear instilled in me by my Dad. He always warned me not to have a baby like my mother did. All this birth control stuff and the fear of disease weren’t making widespread news as it is today.
Those were not the things that kept me from being permissive. Don’t get me wrong I was tempted and even desiring to give in many times; yet didn’t. I felt the hand of God and His convicting power on me. Thanks to the godly foundation that was laid down for me to live by.
My folks and I had a lot of good times together. Our vacations were great. I loved when we rented a cottage at Jerusalem Beach in Wakefield, RI every summer. It was right on the