Embracing the Lotus: A Long Journey to a Reluctant Enlightenment
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For two decades he was comfortable in that sleep, but during the third, the emptiness of his successful, ego-life and bouts of depression induced him to wake up enough for him to realize there was something fundamentally wrong with it. After many hours of depression and deep thinking about his life, he realized that he had to regain the sense of meaningful wholeness he had felt when in those mystical states and writing poetry.
This allegorical poem is his attempt to describe that struggle to wake up out of his long ego-sleep, regain his mystical wholeness, and through the act of writing this poem, make peace with his betrayed Muse and explicate what he learned during the process.
Gregory
The author, firstly, is a shaman, and only secondarily, a poet. Embracing the Lotus is the culmination of a four decades shamanic journey deep into the Mystery, a journey that Joseph Campbell elucidated in his masterwork, The Hero With A Thousand Faces. The act of writing it represents the stage of the journey Campbell labeled, the Return. Like all shamans, the author lives in two worlds: the mundane world of our material, ego-reality, and the world of the Mystery. The details of his journey in the ego-world are too mundane to record, while its counterparts in the Mystery are too extraordinary for belief. What he learned on his journeythe ideas, insights, revelations, and understandingsare contained in this poetic work and represent what Campbell labeled the Boon, the raison dtre for the whole, life-consuming process. Importantly, the authorin the words of Carlos Castanedas shaman/teacher, Don Juanhas lost his shields, has lost his normal human defenses against psychic and telepathic noise, and like many shamans, chooses to remain anonymous.
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Contents
Dedication
Foreword
Preface
Prologue
Petal One
Petal Two
Petal Three
Petal Four
Petal Five
Petal Six
Petal Seven
Petal Eight
Petal Nine
First Bolgia
Second Bolgia
Third Bolgia
Fourth Bolgia
Fifth Bolgia
Sixth Bolgia
Seventh Bolgia
Eighth Bolgia
Ninth Bolgia
Petal Ten
Petal Eleven
Petal Twelve
Petal Thirteen
Epilogue
Afterword
Call it by any name,
God,
Self,
the Heart,
or the
Seat of Consciousness,
it is all the same.
The point
to be grasped
is this,
that Heart
means the very core
of one’s being,
the Center,
without which
there is nothing whatever.
Ramana Maharshi
Dedication
For—
Geoffrey Aaron and Michael Brendan,
whose bright
Heartshine
lit my way during
the first years of my long journey
to a bigger understanding
of Spirit.
For—
Jade Alyssa and Taylor Paige,
whose bright
Heartshine
lit my way during
the latter years of my long journey
to a bigger understanding
of Spirit.
For—
Charlotte Frances,
whose bright
Heartshine
induced her to most generously
alleviate some of the poet-poverty
endemic to my long journey
to a bigger understanding
of Spirit.
Foreword
"All the proofe of a pudding,
is in the eating."
William Camden, 1605
Preface
Forthwith this frame of mine was wrenched
With a woeful agony,
Which forced me to begin my tale;
And then it left me free… .
Samuel Taylor Coleridge,
The Rime of the Ancient Mariner
Coming into this particular body, and being born of these particular parents, and in such a place, and in general what we call external circumstance. That all happenings form a unity and are spun together is signified by the Fates [Moirai].
Plotinus
When all the souls had chosen their lives, they went before Lachesis. And she sent with each, as the guardian of his life and the fulfiller of his choice, the daimon that he had chosen, and this divinity led the soul first to Clotho, under her hand and her turning of the spindle to ratify the destiny of his lot and choice, and after contact with her, the daimon again led the soul to the spinning of Atropos to make the web of its destiny irreversible, and then without a backward look it passed beneath the throne of Necessity.
Plato,
Republic
There is only one journey. Going inside yourself.
Rainer Maria Rilke
Pro captu lectoris habent sua fata libelli.
According to the capabilities of the reader, books have their destiny.
Terentianus Maurus
Prologue
The Flower Sermon
One morning the Buddha led his disciples to a pond for a teaching session. They sat on the ground, awaiting his wise words. Instead of speaking he walked into the pond and after pressing the palms of his hands together in front of his heart and bowing to a lotus flower in the ritual of Namaste, he gently pulled it out. Its roots dripping water and mud, he held it up. They all silently gazed at the beautiful blossom while awaiting their master’s profound words about it. However, none were forthcoming, and they all stared at him expectantly—except Mahakashyapa, who smiled. After nodding to Mahakashyapa, the Buddha carefully replanted the lotus, bowed to it in Namaste, stepped out of the pond, bowed in Namaste to his disciples, and walked away.
A Buddhist Legend,
paraphrased by Gregory
Satori
"…. looking into one’s nature … .This acquiring of a new point of view in our dealings with life and the world is popularly called …’satori’. It is really another name for Enlightenment.
D.T. Suzuki
Petal One
Young, so young
had I been, all those so many years ago,
in that season of my life,
when—
all yet lay before me, like an exciting
mystery novel awaiting to unfold and enthrall
my ego as I lived the writing of it;
when—
my youthful delusions of omnipotence enwrapped
me in their thick cloak of invincibility;
when—
my delusions of pope-like infallibility allowed me
to believe I could make no mistakes;
when—
no obstacles were too tall or too broad to hinder
or thwart my cherished dreams of success,
status and wealth, nor all my best laid plans
for the achieving of them;
that early
one soft, high summer eve, during the
the twenty seventh year of my carefully planned
and predictably unfolding life,
during that
pivotal year for all of us, when we believe
we are rounding the bases after hitting
a walk-off home run, but in truth are fleeing
the Cerberus of our true selves while treading
a crumbling ledge on the precipice of
ego-delusion that towers over the black and grasping
Abyss of Fate,
that is our true adult life;
that pivotal year, when, as too-often happens
to those of us, who with even the most careful of
soft-treading feet on that crumbling precipice, weighed
down as we are by our back-straining packs
filled with—
the massive tomes of all our personal, familial,
and cultural demands and limitations;
filled with—
the lead ingots of all our tendencies to
thoughtless and youthful excesses;
filled with—
the fool’s gold of all our youthful delusions
of omnipotence and immortality,
all of which can but pull us off balance, can but
cause our feet to slip and slide on that trickster-cliff
of ego-folly, while the Cerberus of our true self
drives us on along that ledge, and the
Abyss of Fate
is constantly reaching up with its black, brawny arms
and scrabbling at our slip-sliding feet
with its long, sharp claws;
that crucial year
when just as I was so youthfully and delusionally
certain
that the Saturn V rocket of my perfectly planned
and carefully constructed life was ready to blast off
towards the moon of all my cherished dreams
of material success and social status,
I was overwhelmed
with a strange and potent inner need to go
for an out-of-character walk along
a quiet rural road outside of the small mining town
where over the last six years I had been
diligently working at building the foundation
of what I hoped would be the towering edifice
of my cherished and hard-studied-for career,
first,
as a mining engineer,
then,
as the eventual superintendant of one of the larger
mines of the many owned by the
huge mining company that employed me,
while at
the same time fulfilling my vows to
love and to cherish
my beautiful wife, Joy, as well as love and perform
my paternal duties to our two young children,
though of late,
and most unexpectedly,
all of that which I’d cherished so dearly, and for which
I’d planned so well and worked so hard,
had most strangely been
filling me—
with a soft-gnawing sense of dissatisfaction;
filling me—
with an ever-burgeoning feeling of emptiness;
filling me—
with undeniable and disturbing intimations
that my precious job was no longer
a protective cocoon for the emerging butterfly
of my dreamed-for life,
but a tough and thickening eggshell containing the
late-hatching chick of a fierce bird of prey
that had been incubating in an unknown nest
in some hidden recess of my being.
And as my feet seemed to move,
all on their own, down that rural road,
I unexpectedly found myself enjoying that quiet and
bucolic stroll, becoming instantly enthralled with the
striking sight of the huge, red-westering sun slowly sinking
into the soft horizon-haze and casting long,
diffused shadows across the road;
but no less
striking and magical was the intoxicating scent
of the ditch-growing sweet clover blooms wavering in the
wandering breezes, of the soft flutterings and chirpings
of small birds foraging amongst them,
of the swaths and clumps of the many kinds of grasses
of varying heights, their heavy heads tugging
their slender stalks into graceful arcs;
and of
the myriads of other varied and colorful wildflowers
that decorate all ditches at this fecund time of year,
till finally,
I came to a large farm with a bright blue
mailbox at the entrance to the drive, the words
I. MESTESSA
carefully and fancily painted on it in bright yellow letters,
informing all who looked at it just who the important
person was who owned the big, many-gabled
farmhouse, its new white paint glowing a soft rose
in the reddening light of that slow-settling sun,
a magical light
that was also setting aglow the two,
huge weeping willows in the yard of flawless,
close-cropped grass, their ground-trailing branches
arching gracefully and swaying seductively
in a soft breeze,
while to the right of that large and impressive house,
loomed a huge barn, newly painted the traditional burnt-red,
with its fascias and window trims painted a bright white,
a colorful array of blooming hollyhocks growing
along its sturdy foundation of mortared rocks, and with
its new, shining-metal roof glowing a soft red
in the enchanting light of that
slow-settling sun.
A wooden, white-painted windmill
towered above a collection of red-painted, white-trimmed
outbuildings nestled between the house and the barn,
the evening breezes too soft and desultory
to set its grey metal blades moving.
A huge-crowned elm
that looked like monstrous green fountain, its dark
leaves erupting skyward before cascading
in ground-touching cataracts that gentle swayed to the
soft breezes, towered almost to the height of the peak
of that barn, its living existence surprising me, for most of its kin
in the area had already succumbed to the ravages
of the Dutch elm epidemic, which had turned
them into stark, leafless skeletons.
And stretching from that
huge barn now glowing an even deeper crimson
in the horizontal light of that red-glowing sun, and down
to the road where I was standing and breathing in
that pungent, organic odor endemic to every barnyard,
—and not minding it a bit!—
was a large, green-grassed, and delightfully
buttercup-sprinkled paddock in which half a dozen horses
of various colors, heads down, ears flicking, and tails
swishing, munched their evening meal,
while three others,
—one a stunning, white-maned, white-tailed Palomino,
his muscles rippling under his sleek, golden coat—
stood at the new, white-painted wooden fence running
along the road, their broad white blazes glowing in the
ever-reddening light of that slow-settling solstice-sun,
as they intelligently, inquisitively, ears flicking,
and tails swishing, watched me.
And just as I was turning away
from this very soothing and entrancing scene,
intent on continuing my walk down the road before me,
I heard, just off to my left, and above me,
the familiar and mournful
cooowhaah, coooo, cooo, cooooo …
cooowhaah, coooo, cooo, cooooo …
of mourning doves,
and looking towards that sorrowful sound, I saw a pair
of them perched close together on a sagging telephone wire,
and after gazing at them for several minutes while
listening to their soft, sad cooing,
I noticed,
almost directly beneath the long sag in that wire, a
mostly-overgrown road branching off from the main,
while beside it was a small and weathered sign on a leaning,
weathered post enwrapped in flowering vines, stating
that it was the older version of the road
I’d been walking down.
And no great powers of deduction
did it take to figure out that it had been abandoned
on the building of the new road
that I was walking along, which, as it stretched out
before me, ran down a gentle slope before shooting arrow-straight
to a tree-lined river, which it crossed
over a massive cement bridge.
And no less
than had some strange and potent
inner urging
sent me out walking along that main road,
a now stronger
inner urging
induced me to turn my strolling steps down that old road
that had been abandoned on the building of the new,
with my initial steps taking me underneath that sagging wire,
sending those two doves flying off,
their wings making that familiar whistling noise,
which sounded loud and startling in the
red-glowing, evening stillness.
And instantly glad I was
that those two doves had drawn my attention
to that old road, and that I’d given-in to that
inner urging,
for with my first step along its over-grown way,
and with the cessation of the wing-whistling
of those two doves, a most
strange, profound, and timeless
S I L E N C E,
the likes of which I’d had no memory
of ever experiencing before, swaddled me like
a newborn in a blanket of cotton batting,
and so startlingly loud
was that
strange, profound, and timeless
S I L E N C E,
that I could but stop, and in utter amazement,
listen to it,
though as I listened, I heard a soft,
soothing, and indefinable
buzzing
filling, not only my head, but my whole psyche,
followed by the sense
of …
of …
of …
what Alice must have felt on following the
White Rabbit down his hole, for when that strange
buzzing
stopped, there again was that
strange, profound, and timeless
S I L E N C E,
though it lasted but a swaddling short span of seconds
before a delightful panoply
of natural sounds supplanted it, and as
my footsteps, quite of their own entranced volition,
carried me forward, I noticed, with utter amazement, the
wonderfully delicious absence of all
the mechanical noises I’d theretofore unconsciously
accepted as an integral aspect of my daily reality,
and as well,
just as keenly noticed a profound and uncanny
alteration to my perception of time—
no longer
were the seconds of my existence hitched together,
nose-to-tail, like railway coaches full of the passengers
of the experiences of each of those seconds,
but had become like shadows that landed,
one-atop-the-other,
never accumulating in a pile,
never connecting the experiences of the former to the latter,
never weighing down the latter with the
memory-baggage of the former,
but always
being a single, weightless, and utterly timeless
N O W,
that much as it could be sliced into the seconds of remembered
experiences, when not being thus sliced, remained that
delicious, comforting, soothing, and utterly timeless
N O W.
And besides that
uncanny sense of timelessness,
everything about that old and abandoned road
felt
different and strange,
felt
more alive, more serene, more meaningful,
while the colors of every object my startled eyes settled upon,
appeared
clearer, deeper, richer,
than anything I’d ever seen before, while each object
subtly glowed with a strange and entrancing light, a
Living Light
that melded with a subtle but omnipresent background
Living Light
that I somehow knew to be nothing less than the
Matrix of Meaning
that all sentient beings are capable of tapping into
and gaining sustenance from, which I was
so delightfully feeling, and which, in some strange way,
I knew I was seeing,
not with the mundane vision of my
outer eyes,
but with a magical form of seeing of a pair
inner eyes
that I was not aware I possessed until
that strange and enchanted moment.
But most startling of all,
was that all those objects felt like they were
alive,
felt like they were intensely
conscious,
and were looking back at me with the same
interest and wonder
with which I was looking at them,
while flitting and dancing amongst all those living
and conscious objects, appeared to be
a host of very incredibly conscious
Beings,
that I could, for but the most fleeting of moments,
just barely see with that magical seeing
of my inner eyes,
Beings
who seemed to be telling me that this enchanted
world I’d stepped into was their
Garden,
and that it was their job to tend it during the months
of warmth and growing, and that I was always welcome
to visit both It, and Them, but only if I did so
with respect and in a state of
openness and humble reverence.
But however alive
those Beings felt to me, they were so strange
and ephemeral that I could not long dwell
on their existence, nor totally believe they could
be as real as I sensed them to be,
so though I mentally acknowledged their existence and
their right to their dominion over that magical realm,
which I so powerfully sensed I had entered,
I focused my wonder-expanded attention on all
the very alive and inner-glowing
trees and bushes and ferns and wildflowers
growing in the small and gloaming-gloomy wood
that I was strolling through.
Though not just
the organic and living things of that stunningly alive
wood were filled with that startling sense of aliveness,
with that
Living Light,
that emanated from absolutely everything,
even the dead—though once alive—things, like the
giant, rotting stumps of the red pines that had erstwhile been
the towering masters of it,
to the inorganic things,
like the rusting hulk of an ancient truck sadly sinking
into the rising duff of that forest floor, which though it had
once swiftly and noisily roamed the roads of the area,
it long ago had been reduced to little more than
a silent planter,
for along with a the bushes, wildflowers, and grasses
growing around its rusting and tire-bereft rims,
a white-barked birch
grew out through a hole in its roof,
that old truck, and other supposedly inorganic things
appearing to my wonder-struck inner eyes, to be
scintillatingly alive with a sense
of …
of …
of …
what I could not then have even begun to articulate
with my literal and limited engineer’s mind,
but only much later learned, in my readings on the subject,
to be what that great, pantheistic poet,
William Wordsworth, called
Celestial Light;
[If you take the time to read his masterpiece, "Intimations of Immortality
from Recollections of Early Childhood," you can save yourself the trouble
of reading this poem—he’s an infinitely better poet who says what I am
trying to say in a lot less words!]
what the venerable and famous mystic,
Meister Eckhart,
called
Istigkeit,
which translates as
Is-ness,
and which he most dangerously, for his medieval,
Church-tyrannized, heretic-torturing-times,
tried to characterize with his brave and heretical words,
"Where there is Isness, there God is.
Creation is the giving of Isness from
God. And that is why God becomes
Where any creature expresses God."
and which,
in later readings on the subject, I discovered that the Buddha
had millennia-ago taught about,
Such-ness, or Tathata, or Buddha-nature,
or
Ultimate Reality,
but which back in those youthful days of my blissful
ignorance and unfounded arrogance,
immersed as I was,
both in my busy and practical engineers life, and in
that unexpected experience of
Celestial Light, of Istigkeit, of Is-ness
I had no words for it at all, not that my inarticulateness
on the subject concerned me,
for I was more than satisfied just to revel in the
powerful feelings of
wonder, peace, plenitude, and meaning,
that it filled me with, though accompanying those
rich and enthralling feelings,
was a faint and distracting disquietude, for it all hinted at
the existence of a vast, hidden, looming, and ego-annihilating
reality,
that was as far beyond the pale of anything my
rational, engineer’s mind could conceive,
as were the two tiny moons of Mars beyond the scope
of what my two, normal eyes could see.
And while still pondering that
strange, disturbing, and enthralling sense of
Is-ness,
that profound, bewildering, and entrancing sense of
Such-ness
that filled those things,
a force that hardly felt connected to my volition,
compelled my steps to carry me out of the deepening shadows
of that wood, and into the bright, open farmland beyond it,
where I had no choice but focus
my entranced attention on the swaths and clumps
of the many varied and very alive,
Istigkeit-glowing grasses,
ranging from calf-brushing short ones,
to crown-arching high,
with some still in their fecund efflorescence,
which not only filled the air around them with a
variety of sweet and subtle scents
that I could smell with an intensity and clarity
that I’d never before experienced, but also created
the effect of lovely green, or tan, or russet mists as they
stood tall in the soft, pollinating breezes;
while others,
having fulfilled their procreative imperatives,
arched gracefully and delightfully under the weight
of a startling variety of burgeoning seed-heads,
some like green or tan bottle-brushes,
some like flags, or feathers,
some like delicate pine trees, and
some like bushy foxtails,
the sheer variety of them startling and enthralling me
almost as much as the incredible sense of the
vitality, of the Is-ness,
they possessed.
Though mixed with these
entrancing clumps and swaths of breeze-swaying grasses,
were the countless varieties, colors, shapes and sizes
of the bright and inner-glowing wildflowers
that were too numerous to describe,
save for the startling Easter array
created by
a swatch of deep purple vetch twining through a clump
of bright yellow buttercups,
though even more entrancing than the sight of those
lovely flowers, was the sense that I got from them,
that they were all
jumping up and down
with excitement over my willingness to pay attention
to them, each seeming to want to tell me
about themselves and their properties and powers,
quite unlike
those grasses, which, as they silently swayed in gentle,
living breezes, gave off the sense of possessing
an ancient wisdom too profound
for me to understand, and driving home to me why
the poet Whitman named his magnum opus,
Leaves of Grass,
and suddenly!—
as if to drive home that point, a playful Zephyr swirled
out of nowhere, shaking and swaying
all the grasses growing in tall clumps, while creating,
in the ones growing in thick, supple swaths,
the sense of waves undulating across an expanse of
green, or tan, or russet,
but always very alive, water.
And as fast as that playful Zephyr
arrived, it moved on, giving me the distinct sense that
I’d just been visited by the powerful spirit
of the great Poet himself,
who still being the inveterate wanderer he’d been
in his incarnate life, had places yet to go, things yet to do,
and didn’t have the time to linger,
leaving me even more convinced that there was
a level of
aliveness and consciousness,
a level of
intent and meaning,
inherent to this old and abandoned road than ever
I could have imagined prior to my walk along it.
And no less!
there came to me the sense that all of those things
we tend to thoughtlessly accept as nothing but
dead and inert matter,
things like—
rocks, rusting tin cans, toppled road signs;
things like—
the sagging, tangled lengths of rusting, vine-wrapped
wire stretching between rotting, weather-roughened
posts half-hidden by thick, arching geysers
of heavy-headed grasses;
things like—
an iron-wheeled and horse-drawn hay rake, long ago
abandoned and now slowly rusting to its inevitable oblivion
not far from that rusting, oblivion-destined fence with
its rotting, weathered, and oblivion-destined posts;
things that—
my rational mind kept telling me, as my ever-strolling
feet carried me along that old and abandoned road,
were dead and inert;
things like—
the row of skeletons of the anciently-planted Theves poplars,
several of which had been struck by lightning,
or just broken in half over the decades, but most of which,
barren of leaves as they now were, still towered in a
straight line behind a collapsing and grey-weathered
stretch of cedar-rail fence,
and behind that phalanx of erstwhile arboreal soldiers,
clustered the remnants of the ancient homestead that long ago
had been so laboriously constructed by the farsighted pioneer
who had planted those poplars to guard it
from blasting winds and drifting snow,
nothing now remaining of it but the pile of rotting logs
that had once been a homey cabin for that
intrepid soul and his family,
while to the right of it rested the rugged stone base
of what must have been the barn, its timbers and planks
long ago having rotted away, or been scavenged,
while leaning against that old stone base, half hidden
in a clump of sparse-blooming hollyhocks and
arching grasses, were several weathered, spoke-sparse
wagon wheels, the wagon, like its owners, long before having
gone to earth,
all of these either dead or never alive
things,
continuing to give off the very distracting sense,
to my inner eyes,
of being absolutely
alive,
continuing to give off the very distracting sense,
to my inner-eyes,