Standing in His Shadow

By Erica Parker

This book is about a young woman whos in love with a married man. The man is also in several other committed relationships. She has two friends who does not like her man. Its a love-hate kind of relationship. She has to deal with the baby-mama drama, dealing with the other women in his life. She is also dealing with trust issues and the lies as well as dealing with the physical and verbal abuse. She is also dealing with the fact that she lets this man manipulate her into letting all her dreams die. She found herself standing in his shadow, not knowing where he ends and where she begins. She is feeling foolish in front of her family and her two best friends, and she is having babies and a few miscarriages for this man. She has very low self-esteem, but after so many years with this man, they got married. She found herself, and the physical abuse ended. She still deals with some verbal abuse, but she is still deeply in love with this man.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Nov 30, 2017
• ISBN: 9781543462838

Erica Parker

MRS. ERICA PARKER WAS BORN AND RAISED IN NEW ORLEANS, LA. SHE IS THE OLDEST OF SIX CHILDREN AND ALL FOUR OF HER BROTHERS WAS MURDER BY GUN VIOLENCE. SHE HAS 1 SISTER AND HER MOTHER SHE IS ALSO MARRIED TO MR. MALCOLM M. PARKER SR. SHE HAS 4 CHILDREN AND 13 GRANDCHILDREN. SHE LOVE SPOILING HER GRANDCHILDREN, AND SPOILING OTHER PEOPLE CHILDREN, SHE LOVES COOKING, WRITING BOOKS, TAKING CARE OF PEOPLE, AND LOVES TALKING ABOUT HER 4 BROTHERS WHO SHE DEEPLY MISSES THEY TRULY WERE HER JOY.

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Copyright © 2017 by Erica Parker.

Library of Congress Control Number:             2017916889

ISBN:                       Hardcover                               978-1-5434-6285-2

                                Softcover                                 978-1-5434-6284-5

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Rev. date: 11/08/2017

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Contents

Chapter 1 Beginning New Love

Chapter 2 Love-Hate Triangle

Chapter 3 Not in a Public Place

Chapter 4 Shower You with Gifts

Chapter 5 Controlling You

Chapter 6 Roller-Coaster Ride

Chapter 7 Verbal Abuse

Chapter 8 Physical Abuse

Chapter 9 Leaving

Chapter 10 No Courage

Chapter 11 The Fiery Flames Are Dim

Chapter 12 Who Am I?

Chapter 13 Love versus Hate

Chapter 14 Praying for Inner Peace

Chapter 15 Rebuilding Your Self-Esteem

Chapter 16 Eva’s Unfulfilled Dreams

Chapter 17 The Real Relationship Questions You Should Ask and Know

Chapter 18 Faking Happiness

Chapter 19 You’re a Liar

Chapter 20 Stop Holding on and Let Go

Chapter 21 What’s Behind Those Eyes?

Chapter 22 No Time for Me

Chapter 23 Lonely Nights

Chapter 24 Uncontrollable Shit

Chapter 25 I Don’t Trust You

Chapter 26 Rebuilding the Trust

Chapter 27 We Are on the Right Track

Chapter 28 We Made It; Life’s Good

Chapter 1

BEGINNING NEW LOVE

The first day Eva laid her eyes on Thomas, she said to herself, I just got to have that man. He’s beautiful. He’s going to be mine. Eva never stopped thinking that Thomas may be married or in a committed relationship. She didn’t let her mind stop her, for she was selfish; she wanted what she wanted, and it was Thomas, until all hell broke loose.

In the beginning, Eva and Thomas went out late at night to dinner, movies, and mostly motels. But she didn’t care just as long as she had Thomas. She never asked him any questions about his family life. Eva was still trying to get Thomas to know her. She didn’t ask him if he was married or in a committed relationship, and Thomas didn’t tell her. Eva didn’t ask him if he had kids, and because they were still in the beginning of trying to get to know each other, he didn’t tell her. By the time she found out that Thomas was married and in a committed relationship, Eva was deeply in love with the man.

Eva said to herself, I am damn well for sure not going to give Thomas up without a fight. Thomas has won my heart. She knew it was wrong to say that, but she was being honest; she really loved him and still does after