Juice from the Orange: A Compilation of Poems

By Xlibris US

This book is the first 72 of over seven hundred poems about my life and random experiences. The poems are about the way I feel, what has happened to me in my past and the things I have learned over the years. Its also about my experience of my third hospitalization for mental health. This book is an emotional roller coaster, going up and down as my moods went up and down when I first started to write. There are a lot of people that suffer the way that I did, and I want them to know that I understand.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Jun 9, 2014
• ISBN: 9781499024999

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Copyright © 2014 by Shantaa Watkins.

ISBN:                  Softcover                           978-1-4990-2500-2

                            eBook                                978-1-4990-2499-9

All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, including photocopying, recording, or by any information storage and retrieval system, without permission in writing from the copyright owner.

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Rev. date: 05/21/2014

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Table of Contents

Acknowledgements

1.   Prayer for People with PTSD

2.   Termites

3.   Shattered

4.   I Don’t Need You

5.   The Puzzle

6.   Did You Know?

7.   To My Sistar

8.   Parts?!

9.   Dark

10.   Fruit Basket

11.   Daddy

12.   My New Friends

13.   I Don’t Want to Remember

14.   Why?

15.   Someday

16.   Where Were You?

17.   Five Little Words

18.   Waiting

19.   Who Am I?

20.   Pray

21.   Remember

22.   When Will I Learn?

23.   Pandora’s Box

24.   Doubts

25.   Hear Me

26.   Food

27.   Pizza

28.   Fly

29.   Pain

30.   Anger

31.   Beautiful

32.   Suicide

33.   The Blues

34.   Music

35.   Friends

36.   Therapists

37.   For My Little Ones

38.   Afraid

39.   I Want My Life

40.   Childhood

41.   Butterflies

42.   Believe

43.   I Have Never Seen

44.   You Couldn’t

45.   Reach Out

46.   Proud

47.   Forgiven

48.   Hate

49.   Wishing

50.   Dream

51.   To My Future Child

52.   Trust

53.   I’m a survivor

54.   The Light

55.   Today

56.   Abandoned

57.   Nightmare

58.   Mommy

59.   To The Staff at Del Amo

60.   My Rights

61.   Del Amo Staff

62.   Oranges

63.   Unconditional Love

64.   Hopeless

65.   Sleep

66.   The Razor

67.   Please Don’t

68.   Fairytales

69.   Confused

70.   Sing Me a Song

71.   I’m Worried

72.   Warmth

Book Description

Acknowledgements

First of all, I would like to thank God without whom I would not have had the strength to write. Next I would like to thank my family for being there through all good and bad times. Thank you to my therapists who believed in me when I didn’t even believe in myself. And thank you to the many doctors and nurses that contributed to the fight of getting me on the right medications and getting me to stay on them. Finally, I would like to thank the staff at Del Amo hospital who first encouraged me to write.

Prayer for People with PTSD

By: Patience Mason

I know that it is not within the Harmony of the universe that I be healed from the trauma of my abuse without pain. Help me through the pain. Surround me with the golden light of healing; fill me with the white light of peace and love. Help me to bear the pain as I go through the memories. Help me to cry. Help me to remember. Help me to love myself no matter what happened to me or, what I did to survive. Help me to release and let go of my survival skills, the things such as anger and numbness that helped keep me alive, as