The Reveller: Every Lie Has Eighty Percent Truth

By Dean Riley

Anyone who experienced the explosion of the dance and drug culture in the early 90's will be able to relate to the exploits of Robbie Jacobs. Follow his journey as he grows up from a meagre outsider to a big time drug dealer. He develops a relationship and together they experience the highs and lows of the chemical era. His world is then thrown upside down as she goes to university and his life is changed forever. His trip takes him into aworld of hard drug taking and indiscriminate sex that turns him from beinglevel-headed to a paranoid psychopath.

• Language: English
• Publisher: AuthorHouse UK
• Release date: Sep 8, 2006
• ISBN: 9781467014816

Dean Riley

Dean Riley was born in Accrington, Lancashire in 1973.He is happily married and has 2 small children, Bethany and Ashley. He has been on the clubbing scene for 16 years and has developed a wealth of experience, which has inspired him to write his first fictional novel.

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EVERYTIME I SEE THE GIRL 

I was 16 years old and on, as my dad would put it, my last parents holiday. We were in Ibiza and it was 1990. The place was very strange. Full of men dressed as women and queers galore. My dad took great pleasure in abusing these ‘things’ and told me if I ever came home in a dress he’d kill me, not that I ever would. My parents had made friends with a couple from Norwich, ‘The Brooms’. They had a son called Gareth who was younger than me but I was forced to look after so they could all get pissed. My attention was taken by their gorgeous daughter. She was a wankers dream, tall and blonde with magnificent knockers but she was 19 and way out of my league. She also had an equally sexy mate though and I’d spent many a sweaty hour wanking away like a lunatic. She’d spoke to me several times but I got all red faced and my palms clammy. She’d waltz around the pool in her bikinis and every bloke would take notice so each day I would position my sunbed as close as I could to hers without being totally obvious. Today was different though!

She had put a white swimming costume on and it was transparent when in contact with the pools water. Fuck me, I had to react quickly and had moved my bed right above the pools steps. I was already semi and lay on my stomach with my arse slightly raised and waited patiently as she thrashed about with her mate, then, movement towards the steps. Shit, my arse rose higher as she began her ascent as if in slow motion. First her hair, stuck firmly to her beautifully tanned head. Then her shoulders and her firm breasts and erect nipples. Fuck, I could see them as clear as day, then the ‘jackpot’ every young lad’s nemesis, her neat black triangle. This was too much so I put my head down and closed my eyes with enough ammunition for fifty wanks.

‘Saw you looking? Did you like what you saw?’ What the fuck was that nasty voice in my head? I looked up and Suzanne was stood over my bed towelling her hair. I couldn’t speak and had lost control of my senses. ‘Our parents are going out tonight and you are welcome to join us’. I creamed my kex there and then. Was I dreaming? I faintly remember room 305. Surely this wasn’t happening to me? As I lay there I was shitting myself. Who knows, all my lack of female action and minor teasing could be well behind me.

‘ROBBIE, ROBBIE’ was the cry that shook my attention. It was my mother telling me it was 7pm. Fuck, I’d been laid outside for ages and was really nervous.

It was going up for 8pm and I’d been trying to find something to wear between muttering rubbish. My parents had gone out and I took a glug of my dads duty free Scotch and tried to build up my courage.

I walked to room 305 with a cocky swagger. I had to play it cool. Who knows, I could have some real stories to tell the ‘top boys’. I knocked and heard a ‘come in’ cry. I slowly opened the door. There in front of me was an amazing tanned body in just a white thong and push up bra. I froze. ‘You look very flustered Robbie, have you never seen a near naked women before?’ Suzanne asked with a saucy smile. I was unable to speak or move. ‘I bet you’re still a virgin aren’t you?’ I nodded. She laughed and I was a quivering mess. I summoned up the courage to find the bathroom to splash some water on my flustered face. As I splashed my face I could see through the steamy mirror that Joanne was in the bath with strategically placed bubbles covering her vitals. This was getting very scary, me a pathetic young lad who was possibly in a win win situation. A position all the ‘top boys’ claim to have been in or would love to be in. I splashed my face again and walked out. Suzanne was stood naked and oiled. She beckoned me over with a saucy smile. As I motioned towards her it was so unreal. It was like I was floating towards her in a trance. I felt a hand on my shoulder and in slow motion turned round to see Joanne naked behind me. ‘He’s still a virgin you know’ Suzanne said as Joanne started to take down my shorts. ‘That is something we will have to remedy’ was Joanne’s reply as she kissed me hard on the mouth.

Well lets just say the next two hours I took part in the most amazing experience to which I suddenly went from boy to man. I’d been involved in something special and just wished the wankers at school could have seen me. For the rest of my holiday I felt taller and am sure my voice had become even deeper. I couldn’t wait to get back to brag about my exploits.

Back home this so called joker who was never cool enough to be part of the elite, had found a new air of confidence and arrogance and now had the ability to question all the ‘top dogs’ weak tales of sexual bullshit. So I realized I was too big now to hang around with little school boys and began to hang around with some older lads in town who smoked and drank openly on the street, and went out at weekends.

I got a fair bit of stick off these lads but I suppose it meant I at least fitted in. I was drinking pints of mixed because I thought it would make me look older. It tasted like shit but I felt older.

It was on this particular Saturday evening when after seven pints of this thick mud with froth I was well on my way that I scouted round the pub. Over in the corner was a mixed group who were loud and raucous. I approached.

They were a local bunch who went drinking round town every Saturday then after last orders jumped in their cars and went hunting for parties or raves. I listened intently as the parties I was used to usually involved cider fuelled youngsters trying to shag the girl with the biggest tits. But these were different. They listened to acid house music and took drugs. I was dead against drugs but I suppose that was due to not really knowing about them. I was very intrigued and fancied trying one of these raves.

Due to my pissed state I cheekily invited myself to their next week’s adventure. I had observed the outfits the group where wearing and I went shopping to purchase a hooded top with tye-dyed trousers. I was really excited but had a problem. I’d told Jimmy and Tom about my holiday exploits and how I had plenty of women around town, it was total bullshit but Jimmy had told me to fetch a girl along. I’d told him defo. Problem being I hadn’t. This would be tricky as I really wanted to make an impression because this raving lark could be the thing I was missing.

Late that night I began to draw up a list of potential girlfriends. The list was pretty useless really as most of the fittest girls were going out with older lads or had been used and abused by most of the town. Why the fuck had I said I was attached in the first place?

Looks like I wasn’t going out then. Then as if sent by god I remembered my slag of a sister Gemma. She had a bunch of mates who drank too much and wore too much make-up. I really hated them all and being her ‘baby’ brother I took loads of abuse and I probably blame them for my late development with girls.

Gemma’s best mate was Karen, she was naturally fit looking but covered her face in bright orange fake-tan, it looked disgusting and was spread on with a trowel, but there’s a flip side because Karen had a sister who was two years older than me but was always teased for being a swot. I’d seen her about and she was always shy and covered up in baggy clothes. She sounded perfect and I got her number. The next night I sat by the phone for hours, shitting myself about what to say. My mum came over and asked me if I was going to ring her up. That was the prod I needed.

The phone rang and each ring seemed to get louder. A female voice answered. I asked if it was Beth. It was. I began to spout bullshit basically showing off a bit to cover my misgivings. She listened and even laughed at my corny jokes. We must have been chatting for ages and it seemed so natural. After a good two hours she asked me bluntly if I was trying to ask her out on a date. I told her I was. She laughed and we then arranged a trip to the pictures the Thursday before the big Saturday night. I never mentioned about Saturday because I could save that for our date. I put the phone down and clenched my fists and gave out a loud YES!

Thursday came and I was nervously excited. I got to the pictures very early and was very keen. I waited and waited though and was beginning to lose heart. Then I could see her coming up the road and my heart began beating 100mph. ‘Aya Robbie’ came from Beth’s lips. I responded and kissed her on the cheek. She looked stunning, about 5ft 4 with brown bobbed hair. It amazed me how she wasn’t going out with anybody. Hopefully she could be my girlfriend.

We chatted easily and never ran out of things to say to each other. It felt so good to actually be able to speak to a girl comfortably without clamming up. She spoke very honestly and openly and we had both endured similar school experiences. I was falling for her already and we decided to forget the flicks and go to the bowling alley because we could talk more.

The night seemed to last minutes and I didn’t want it to end but it was getting late and she was at college in the morning. I’d mentioned the coming Saturday trip and she sounded keen. I told her it would be a crazy night and she told me it would be good for us both to experience it together. That made my stomach turn and I felt warm inside.

We parted with a long kiss and then hugged as her dad came to pick her up. As she drove off I waved with a massive grin. At last!

I basically floated home in a very happy state. Saturday night would hopefully be the start of a perfect relationship. I finally got home and considered a wank but resisted as wanking could be a thing of the past.

I rang Beth up on Friday to see if we were still on as I just wanted to hear her gorgeous voice. She seemed just as keen as I was and we mulled over what the night had in store. We talked for hours and it was very late, and my bastard dad was pressing me to put the phone down as he paid the bill, so I said goodbye and she blew me a kiss down the phone. The twat!

Saturday night was here and I went round to pick Beth up. She answered the door and looked superb. I felt proud of myself for finding such a beautiful girl, an innocent girl, almost pure.

We got to the pub and Jimmy and his gang were all there and in high spirits. I introduced Beth to whom I could and Jimmy introduced us both to the rest. They were all friendly and we soon got involved in the conversations, even though I was clueless to most of what they said, but played along anyway. Beth seemed to be getting on well with Claire who was Tom’s bird. They had been together since primary school and were rock solid. Jimmy was a very funny guy and I laughed at all his jokes and gags.

After a good six pints I was pretty merry and Beth and I had really settled in so it was time to go party hunting. Tom who seemed to know shitloads about the rave scene and loved to talk about it invited us with Jimmy into his car. My heart was beating again and I squeezed Beth’s hand as we looked at each other and smiled. I gave her a kiss and we got in. Tom stuck a tape on and turned it up really loud. The base ravaged my body and sent tingles down my spine. Jimmy was dabbing his hand into some white powder in a money bag. We watched as he contorted his face after each dab. I enquired what it was and Claire told me it was speed. I wasn’t sure what it was or did but Beth told me it made you talk fast and gave you energy. I was impressed by her knowledge and excitedly kissed her but I wasn’t having anything which looked like it tasted of shit. We were leading the way and had four cars behind us with the rest in. The car was bouncing and Jimmy was really getting into it. I watched him and was mimicking his actions.

We were just driving around and had a load more cars behind us and even more in front. Jimmy told us this convoy was the party. I was very excited and couldn’t wait to find where the convoy would lead us. Claire got another money bag out with squares of paper in. These were acid tabs and really put you in another place. Beth told me about them and how some of her student pals had taken them and had amazing experiences and how she wanted to try one. This sounded cool and we decided to half one. Jimmy threw one down and gave Beth ours to split. It was a ‘Purple Ohm’ and apparently very strong. As we jointly stuck them on our tongues Jimmy shouted loudly and began clapping. ‘Tonight Robbie is going to be a night you will never forget, just open your mind’ he said as he shook my hand. I looked at Beth and we hugged. What the fuck were we doing? It was too late to worry now though and we shared a can of lager as we searched on for the party.

We stopped and it was way up in the hills. It was dark but noisy. People were getting out of their cars and bouncing around. As I got out of the car my legs felt like jelly and I staggered. Beth laughed and then got the same feeling. Was this the acid kicking in? Up ahead I could see flashing lights shooting into the sky and faint drum beats. We were here. I grabbed Beth’s hand as we followed the crowds. Jimmy was off like a shot darting round people and Tom seemed to know everybody. As we got closer the music sounded superb and there were people dancing everywhere. The field was really muddy but people didn’t seem to care.

Beth’s grip was getting tighter and tighter and my jaw was becoming very floppy. I told Beth who felt the same and we both laughed. Why? I don’t know but we couldn’t stop laughing, if this was acid I liked it. As I looked at Beth her face was moving. It looked weird and I couldn’t stop watching her as she also stared at me. I tried to touch her and had mad trailers following my hand. This felt amazing and I couldn’t stop doing it. The music was oblivious to me but I kept hearing ‘baby let me love you for the night’ in a spooky haunting voice. It ripped through my body and sent shivers down my spine. ‘I’ve got to have your love’, there it was again. This heavenly voice was so enchanting and kept ringing through my ears and it made me sway. Beth had her eyes closed and was dancing. ‘I really need it now’. This really set me off as I copied people dancing and grabbed Beth. She jumped up and looked strangely at me. I tried to speak to her but even though my lips moved I was incapable of speech. This was mental but felt unbelievable. Beth seemed to be sinking so I grabbed her arm and it felt like my hand had completely covered her whole body. I grabbed her and sat us down on a couple of beer crates. I closed my eyes sat across from Beth and just drifted into another world of lights and fabulous colours. I was completely locked inside myself and in pure heaven.

I began to feel tremendous rushes of power and strength and jumped up from my coma. Beth was really fucked and I decided to pick her up. I threw her over my shoulder and began to dart around the revellers. I ran faster and faster with the speed of a thousand gazelles. There was no stopping me and it roused Beth into slapping my arse for me to go faster but I couldn’t go any quicker as I was already at warp 10.

I finally stopped and had no shortness of breath. I could have easily lifted Beth up into the air and managed 10 reps but decided against it. Fuck, I was Samson. This was too good for words and I think I’d found my place and to top it off I also had Beth.

I leant forward to hug Beth and fell over as I under-reached. She just caught me from getting covered in mud. I composed myself and tried again but it felt like I couldn’t reach, it was as if every time I grabbed she slipped farther away. I was basically trying to chase her and it was really fucking my head up. Beth’s face didn’t seem to change expression, just a wry smile. It spooked me and it must have been the acid. I then felt alone and lost. There was no music or flashing lights or people dancing, not even Beth anymore. Just me stood in a muddy field like a scarecrow. What the fuck was going on? I was unable of speech and beginning to get scared.

It was a vigorous shake from Ged that snapped me out of my trip. He laughed at me and started dancing freakily in my face. I began to laugh myself and closed my eyes. I was hit by amazing flashes of pure colour again and it startled me to open them. This was good and bad at the same time. I shook my head to try and clear it and looked around in utter astonishment as everybody seemed to be wearing transparent swimming costumes. I was laughing violently inside but no noise came out. Beth grabbed me and looked stunning in her costume and I made a grab for her breasts. What the fuck was I doing? I shook my head again and luckily people were back to normal and the music got louder and louder. This was getting very hairy so I asked an oblivious Beth if we should go for a walk. She nodded and as we staggered around I apologised for making a grab for her boobs. She looked at me strangely and asked me when? Was I that fucked? She giggled and as we walked we linked fingers. My hand melted into hers and it felt warm.

I thought we’d walked miles but had only just reached the cars. Tom and Claire were sat in the car smoking a joint. They passed it to me but the acid was enough for me thanks. They asked if we had had a good trip and I told them about my mad costume sighting. They both laughed as Beth looked at me and asked if she had one on to which I told her yes and it was completely see-through. She made us all laugh when she said she thought she felt cold and couldn’t remember putting it on. Jesus, she was as fucked as me. We climbed in the back and snuggled into each other. I was still getting mad light flashes but seemed to be recovering slightly. Beth had her head on my shoulder and was obviously getting the same sensations. We’d survived and I smiled to myself and hoped it really wasn’t the last.

Jimmy and the rest finally came back as the morning sunshine was trying to break through the dark clouds. They were all going back to Ged’s but I was very tired and asked if they could drop Beth and I at my house. We hardly spoke on our journey back and said our goodbyes as they left us at my front door. Beth needed to lie down and as I struggled to find my key she hung on my back. I was being so careful not to wake my parents as I didn’t want them to see me like this. I was pretending to be a mouse and it seemed to re-ignite my trip. I began to rush and Beth was giggling at my state. Finally after a very frustrating fumbling session the door opened and we practically crawled in stealth mode along the floor as not to wake anyone. This was fun and it seemed so easy to crawl up the stairs but we didn’t seem to be moving. Beth burst out laughing and it sounded really loud. ‘Robbie, is that you?’ came a cry from my parents room. I froze and didn’t reply, just ran to my room.

We lay on my bed and kissed each other passionately but it felt really weird and I had to pull away. Beth didn’t seem to flinch and lay on her back and told me to do the same.

I sank into my bed and it enveloped my body. It felt so comfy and as my eyes closed the room was spinning. The light show reappeared and patterns of bright colours swirled and turned in perfect co-ordination while the songs we’d heard all night played loudly. Surely Beth and my parents could hear them and I kept telling them to be quiet. I peeped out of one eye and Beth was still there next to me and from her twitching face enjoying the same as me.

It must have been about 2pm when we awoke and somehow I’d slept. I couldn’t remember when the light show finished and Beth and I talked about the acid. We agreed that we would definitely be doing that again and we cuddled as I asked her if she was now my girlfriend. She hugged me again and told me yes.

I walked her home and we held hands and it felt so natural. We both felt fragile and as we arrived at hers we hugged and arranged to go out Tuesday night. I floated home very happy with myself and when I got home I went to bed but this time it was to sleep.

Tuesday arrived and I was excited to see Beth again. I went round to her house and she opened the door and looked very sexy in a pair of shorts and tight vest it showed of her figure perfectly and she was well fit. As I followed her into the front room I studied her arse and I got a rush of nervous tension. My heart fluttered and I clenched my fist and felt proud of myself.

Her parents were out and we had the house to ourselves. She fixed me a drink then sat beside me. I was about to talk when she kissed me passionately and I responded. Within seconds we were naked and writhing around the floor. I wasn’t the most experienced but I remembered the fun I had in Ibiza and mimicked my moves.

After a frantic 30 minutes we lay there exhausted and sweaty. Beth told me it was her first time and she had been dying to finally have sex with somebody she could trust. It shocked me a bit as she was such a saucy minx with a cracking body and it amazed me she was a virgin, plus she trusted me and didn’t know me that well. I quizzed her on the trust statement and she told me she could tell that I wasn’t a wanker with the way I spoke to her, with respect. This made me smile and then I pounced on her again.

The weeks passed and our relationship got stronger and stronger. We were hardly apart and had been out every weekend and were really getting into the rave scene. We had integrated with the group and the trips got more enjoyable as we knew how to handle them more. The one thing that bugged me though was my lack of dancing. The music was excellent and it pained me as I really wanted to boogie. I spoke to Jimmy about this and that’s when he told us to try some billy.

The gang always went to a club after the outdoor rave but Beth nor me ever wanted to as we always preferred walking home tripping and enjoying the cloud formations. Jimmy was always pestering us to go to the club as it would change our prospective on the music. It never really appealed to us though but the police had been getting on top of the convoys lately and parties were harder to find. With the speed adventure looming we decided that we’d go straight to the club at the weekend and told Jimmy it had better be good. He assured me I would definitely be dancing and I nodded my head in anticipation.

During the week Beth was at college and due to me just starting the same college we met up every dinnertime and always went home together. All we ever talked about was the weekend and even though Beth only had 3 months to go until she completed her course, we never discussed what she would do after. I was worried that she would want to go to university meaning she would be leaving me. I felt selfish I suppose because she was my best friend as well as my girl and I was pretty pathetic before her. But seeing as it was never mentioned I stopped worrying.

Saturday arrived and we met the gang in the local. Everyone was in high spirits as a certain DJ was playing at the club. After a few sherbets Jimmy offered us the speed. I remembered Jimmy’s reactions and how disgusted his face looked so like a true male, let Beth go first. She licked her finger and then had a dab. From the look on her face she didn’t enjoy the taste. It made me cringe just looking at her and it sent a shiver down my spine. Ged was pissing himself and egging me on to dab it. Beth went again and as she wretched I dabbed myself. Fuck me, it tasted like shit, then again that’s doing shit an injustice, it was worse. I wretched, to everybody’s amusement, then held my nose and dabbed three more times. I shouted as Jimmy told me that was enough. Claire passed me some chewing gum and as I put it into my mouth I wretched again. Luckily the choddy did the trick and gave me some taste back. Jimmy told us to be prepared to talk bollocks and to dance all night. We hugged excitedly and sang along to the tape. This was going to be a good night.

We arrived and I felt quite weird, all jumpy and as I talked my voice seemed to shiver. Beth had been talking profusely to Claire and my body was all twitchy. The songs from the tape were running through my head and I guess I was dancing. Jimmy told me to relax a bit and calm down but fuck him I wanted to dance, I needed to dance. I couldn’t wait to get in and grabbed Beth’s hand and dragged her to the awaiting queue. Tom and the rest walked passed us and went to the front were they shook hands with the mean looking bouncers. Claire shouted us over and we were introduced to Big Frank who was very big. He told me not to cause any trouble then laughed and slapped my head. I was stunned but just wanted to get in to dance. The beats were filtering outside and this made me more edgy.

As we entered the music and heat hit me hard and I took a deep breath. It was a similar feeling as when you walk off a plane in a hot foreign country. I began to sweat and Beth’s hand became all clammy. The place was packed and we began jigging to the piano. I went to the bar to get us a beer but the place didn’t serve any ale. It puzzled me so I just got us a bottle of water. It was warm and tasted like piss. I threw it to the ground and we squeezed onto the dancefloor. I hadn’t really danced much before and I observed some of the fellow revellers who were flicking their wrists violently only stopping to throw their hands into the air when the beats stopped and the booming piano kicked in. I mimicked them and it gave me a rush of tingles right up my spine. It felt amazing and as we got into the groove more the rushes got more intense. This was fucking superb and we hugged each other violently and I got even more rushes. I shouted and screamed and whistled. The rest of the gang was now dancing with us and they all seemed to be dancing in perfect unison. It made me laugh as it reminded me of the formation dancing from the Come Dancing programme. I told Beth but she was oblivious and really enjoying herself. This was what I’d been missing.

It seemed like I could dance forever and I was sopping wet with sweat. It was so hot that water dripped from the roof. I found this out because every time I looked up the bastards got me, and always in the eye. I was addicted to looking up though just to prove my theory wrong. I eventually gave up.

The lights came on and everybody screamed for one more. As the DJ blasted one more out Jimmy told us it would be the best song of the night. As it kicked in I felt what he meant ‘closer to all your dreaming’ it made the rushes kick in once more, I had this song in my head since the car journey and it was one of my favourites. I ROARED with all my might and Beth joined me. Others joined in and I nearly fell over from the rushes extremity. I never wanted this to end.

Beth, Jimmy and I were basically the last out and as I shook the DJ’s hand I thanked him. He laughed and told us that he was playing a set in Blackpool the following week. We were definitely going. We had to as the DJ had basically invited us.

Jimmy dragged us out and I was star struck. I told Ged and he said we would go next week. I clenched my fist and hugged Beth. Her teeth were chattering and steam came from her whole body. It was freezing but I felt no cold. It was as if I was immune. I was still dancing as we got into the car to go back to Tom and Claire’s. Beth was still bobbing about and we began singing. Jimmy turned the tape up but it just didn’t seem quick enough. So we all sang loudly.

The car was bouncing and we led a convoy of three cars back to the flat.

As I got out of the car I was very unstable and I grabbed Beth to steady myself. I kissed her and we talked quickly about next week. It felt good because Beth was just as enthusiastic towards our new life as me. Like two lost souls in search of happiness and togetherness.

We entered and there where some people already in. We were introduced to Dave, Gary and Gary’s girlfriend Gina. She was beat up looking and scruffy and Dave seemed very full of himself. I dragged Beth into the kitchen where Ged and Jimmy were doing a silly dance. I watched them both and it was funny because they were really shit but kept trying and trying. Dave came into the kitchen and started to make a joint. He chatted to Beth and I felt a bit jealous. My happy mood was fading and I felt low. This guy Dave obviously oozed confidence and as Beth kept laughing at his wank gags it angered me more. Jimmy noticed this and grabbed Beth to dance. What the fuck was that about?

I began to feel tired and had lost a bit of my sparkle. I asked Beth if she was ready and even though she wasn’t she sensed I had a problem. We said our goodbyes and arranged the following week’s plans. Dave’s ears pricked up and his lot was up for it. This really annoyed me and Jimmy could tell. He whispered in my ear that he would ring me during the week to sort stuff out. I accepted his offer. He was a good bloke.

Dave said goodbye to Beth and she waved as we left. The fucking bitch!

The walk home seemed awkward and I found it hard to talk. Beth kept quiet and that made me worse. We got back to mine and sneaked into my bedroom. We stripped off and got into bed. Beth was giggling and pointing to my penis. This made me very uncomfortable and shy. When I actually looked down I could have died. It was a very shrivelled maggot. Like a baby boys. What had happened? Beth then got to work on ‘little Robbie’ and ‘praise the Lord’ it began to grow. It was harder than ever and we shagged like rabbits. I had to keep my hand over her mouth as not to wake my parents but was helpless to stop the bed creaking. This made us giggle and try to be really careful but it was impossible. After a marathon session and several leg cramps we were done. Absolutely shagged out!

It had topped off a brilliant evening and as we lay naked in our juices it felt right. Beth then commented on my actions earlier and I felt close enough to tell her that I was basically jealous of her talking to other men, especially Dave. She snuggled in and told me I was sweet and that nobody had ever protected her before and she felt contentment. I asked her if she wasn’t feeling as if I was smothering her and she told me to stop being silly. I held her tight as ‘little Robbie’ began to wake again.

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II

I’VE GOT THE MUSIC IN ME 

Saturday came and all week I was really excited. Beth and I had met up every night and just had more and more sex. Jimmy had rung me and it was nice to chat. He told me not to worry about Dave as he was an arsehole. I would still be keeping an eye on him though.

We met up with the gang and everybody was really looking forward to the night ahead. It made it better for us two as nobody had been to this club before. Dave arrived and I scowled as he shook everybody’s hands. The bastard even pecked Beth on the cheek and patted me on my back. Jimmy started to talk to me and told me to remember what he’d said in our phone conversation. I relaxed a bit and drank my pint down in one.

It was time to set off and Dave had to squeeze in our car with Jimmy, Tom and Claire as his sorry bunch of losers didn’t have any transport. I sat in the middle so Dave was squashed by the window. Four in the back was very cramped and a good 40 minute drive beckoned. Dave had already necked a gram of billy and was really talking bullshit. Everything about him pissed me off. He reminded me of all the twats at school and that’s probably why I didn’t like him. Beth had a few dabs and I followed and tried my hardest not to wretch, but it was impossible which really amused Dave. He asked Beth what she was doing with a small-time pussy like me when she could be with a drug lord like himself. I looked up and Tom turned round and told Dave he was out of order. He laughed and held his hand up and said he was only joking. Beth then angrily told him it was because I had a big dick and not a ‘walnut whip’. Everybody roared with laughter as Jimmy put him into a head lock and began rubbing his head. I kissed Beth and was impressed with her dick claim. His time would come though and I stored it away.

We finally parked up and got ready to queue. You could hear faint drum beats and the waiting mass seemed to rock to and fro. I held Beth’s hand tightly and we were both shaking with nervous excitement. All Dave’s earlier bravado had been forgotten as the whizz slowly kicked in.

We were eventually in and we ran up flights of stairs. We entered the main room and it was already rocking. Claire and Beth hit the dancefloor and as me and Tom got some drinks I got a quick rush. This was my catalyst and I left Tom at the bar and got rapidly consumed into the atmosphere. The club was a lot different to last week’s venue. It was more spacious and the music seemed louder. The strobe lights filled the roofline and mingled with the thick throat clogging smoke and it looked magical. As the piano kicked in arms were thrown into the air mixed with screams and whistles. Everybody seemed to be shaking their hands while in the air and as I joined in it felt amazing. The togetherness of the whole room overwhelmed me and I felt like I could cry. My wrists flicked violently and with the MC doing rhymes over the beats, it sent wave after wave of pins and needles through my body. Beth’s’ smile was huge and we hugged in a state of euphoria.

People were so friendly even the lads without shirts and rippling muscles. They shook hands and passed water around. During the day you wouldn’t approach these mean bastards but they blended in with everyone else in appreciation of the music. This made me dance harder. I was caked in sweat and had no qualms about taking off my shirt as my nipples were raw. One of the big guys shouted loudly as I removed my sopping top and he began to rub something onto my naked back. Fuck knows what it was but it burned like mad and made me rush harder and dance harder. It was Vick’s vapour rub and the smell hung in the air. All the big lads had it on and really gave it hard and fast. It felt amazing and Beth wanted to try. I got it off Colin and rubbed some on Beth. She yelped then danced like a maniac.

We danced and danced like never before and had amassed a real crew on the dancefloor as if like a finely tuned army. Everyone was welcome and we were all best mates. Colin was a top guy and amazingly lived locally where he ran a gym. He told me to drop in sometime and he would put me on a program. I ended up talking to him like we had known each other for years, not really noticing my lack of attention to Beth. She was dancing with Gina anyway and they seemed to be getting on well. Jimmy came over and I introduced him to Colin. They seemed to hit it off straight away also and I got a bit jealous. I turned and gave my attention back to a smiling Beth. This was a superb night. I hadn’t left the dancefloor all night and felt drawn to it. Jimmy mentioned that Colin knew of a club that stayed open till 9am in Morecambe and was asking us all if we were on it. Gary didn’t seem too keen so Dave and Gina felt the same. I was glad but if we went they had to come as they had no transport. This club now shut at 2am and it was getting close. I told Tom to just fuck them off. He mentioned that unless we all went we weren’t going. Beth looked angry and Jimmy wasn’t happy either. Colin came over and asked if we were coming. Tom told him no, to which I declared that Beth and myself would go if he could sort us a lift home. Colin said that there was no problem and Jimmy then asked. This pissed off Tom and he had an argument with Jimmy. Ged stepped in and told Tom to relax. Fuck all this politics I thought and dragged Beth back to the music. The lights came on we all screamed for one more. The DJ kept raising his hands for us to all shout and scream louder. My eardrums nearly exploded as the beats kicked in. This was absolutely tremendous.

Colin put his shirt over his shoulder then stood in between Beth and myself and walked us outside. Jimmy waited by the doors and looked mad. I threw my arm around him and told him to relax. He was pissed off with Tom’s reaction. He began to tell me how Tom thought he was the leader and he felt undermined by us going off with Colin. Apparently he knew Colin and wasn’t a fan. I mentioned that Dave’s car actions had really angered me but the music had got rid of all my thoughts. I told him I’d look after him and he laughed and said I was alright.

The drive took a good 30minutes and it was very cramped in Colin’s estate. There was some really fucked looking people sat in with us and the following car was worse. I held Beth’s hand and she was shaking. I was really buzzing and the Hardcore music really flooded my veins.

We arrived on the seafront and there was a sizeable queue. People looked wasted and unfriendly and as we got out of the car a fight broke out in the queue. Colin and co were enjoying the chaos while I kept Beth well away behind me. My heart raced and it shook me up a bit. The trouble had made the queue diminish though and I grabbed Beth and we slyly sneaked closer.

I was glad when we got in and even though the search was extreme in the least, I could hear drumbeats and couldn’t wait. Even Beth got a thorough check and she looked a bit flustered.

There was a water fountain in the hallway and as we went past a very wasted girl stuck her head in and threw her head out again splashing everybody within 5 yards. Thanks for that.

It was becoming a very strange evening, something didn’t feel right.

As we got to the main room it looked dark and the stench of sweat hung in the air. The music sounded excellent though so we hit the dancefloor. The atmosphere felt tense and as I observed the fellow dancers, it seemed like each different group wanted to stay a group, like separate army regiments. There was no interaction and people were oblivious to each other. It began to get to me and I found it hard to get going. Beth didn’t have a care in the world and danced merrily. She only stopped to kiss me and see if I was alright. I wasn’t though and I felt incredibly uncomfortable, I also began to worry as Jimmy nor Colin seemed to be in, how would we get home? I was really beginning to regret coming now and wished we had gone with Tom. Then, when I was at total paranoia, I saw Colin and some of his lot. Thank fuck!

They all came over and began to dance. I felt safer as we had a good sized group and I wasn’t as intimidated. Jimmy was dancing like a maniac and I began to buzz off him. It made me feel much better. Beth was still grooving away and I left her with Jimmy while I went to the bar. The walk took me past some real sights. It’s amazing to think the face has so many muscles and can contort into some peculiar poses. Just looking at these people made me promise to myself never to get in such a state. How could they be enjoying themselves?

Once at the bar I shook my head in disbelief. I ordered some drinks and set off back trying my hardest not to stare at the freaks. As I approached Beth there was an almighty smash and then fists flying. I dropped the drinks and grabbed Beth and scurried away from the aggro. Jimmy and Colin were watching intently and I really had seen enough. I quizzed Colin if we were going and he told me he had just paid a tenner to get in and only heard two songs. Jimmy saw my anguish and gave me some acid. It was the last thing I needed but anything is better than nothing, so I split it with Beth and we found a corner.

The fight seemed to be over and bouncers dragged out the culprits. I watched as people struggled and hurled insults as they were forcefully ejected. Beth did not like the goings on and told me that she didn’t fancy coming here again. I assured her we wouldn’t be.

As the acid began to work its’ magic it seemed very different to my last adventure. It had evil undertones and the atmosphere and music seemed to be fuelling its’ anger. Beth was laid back and looking up to the roof so I joined her. The whole roof spewed colour and we lay there watching this tremendous show as if in unison. Each new pattern got brighter and more elaborate and we both seemed to be on the same trip. I could’ve laid there for hours. It gave me peace and tranquillity.

I woke from my trip and we were in Colin’s estate driving down the motorway. I should have been startled because I couldn’t for the life of me understand where the night had gone but I was still mildly in a trance and just shrugged it off, plus Beth was beside me snuggled in so nothing bad happened. The journey was quiet and I could just make out faint music. I starred out the window and watched the amazing trailers flowing behind the street lights. It brought back memories of my childhood and driving home in the dark from a family outing.

The journey was excellent and I was quite disappointed when we stopped. We were at Colin’s flat and as weary, fucked up bodies dispersed inside I decided we would be going home. Colin thanked us for a mental night and I responded with a hug. Jimmy was staying so Beth and I walked back to mine.

We never spoke on the journey but it felt comfortable plus I was getting really weird feelings as my trainers hit the floor. I kept stopping because I was sure there were footsteps following us. I got nervous tingles and it began to annoy me. Beth was in a trance and as I looked at her she began to pull faces. It was very strange but intriguing also.

We arrived finally at mine and I was glad to hopefully find some sanctuary. My paranoia seemed to be left outside as I shut the front door quickly. Then silence, complete silence, it made my ears hurt and they began to buzz. This was very strong acid and I really wanted it to slow down a bit as I was becoming very confused. Beth was mumbling as we got undressed and slipped into my bed. I pulled up the covers for protection and lay there silent trying not to make a noise while breathing. The problem arose every time Beth moved or spoke and this made me grip the duvet harder.

It had been a rough night and as daylight arrived, so did my senses. Beth was fast asleep and as I looked at her I tried to reflect on the evening. I was still here and had no brain damage so I’d say it was a good, but mad night. Roll on next week.

The weeks passed and we had been to a number of clubs in different towns, such as Burnley, Wigan, Manchester, Doncaster and even Bradford. All these places had basically the same set-up and equally tremendous music. We had quite a crew and always had a good time, that was, when Dave and his cronies weren’t there though. When he was around I always felt wary and uncomfortable. Beth had become quite a beautiful girl. Gone was the shy boring conservative girl I first met and replaced by a very sexy, confident and happy woman who knew what she wanted. She developed weekly and a lot of the guys fancied her. I felt slightly uneasy as she always got glances and sometimes chatted up but she always reassured me by kissing me to mark her territory. She had passed her driving test and her parents had got her a car. We went for drives during the weeks and christened the car at every available opportunity. I had deep feelings for her. Was it love? Well I wasn’t sure, because after all I was only 17years old and too young to know.

We had a big problem though as Beth had been accepted to Nottingham University and was keen to go. She always tried to make me feel better by telling me I could go down every weekend. I didn’t want her to go though and it hurt me talking about it. I think mainly because she was so fucking gorgeous and without me with her 24/7 she could easily be lead astray. She was so friendly with everybody and always saw the good in even the nastiest of people. She could easily be taken advantage of. I trusted her but it’s the other bastard lads I didn’t trust.

I always changed the subject whenever she mentioned it and it made me sort of block it out. It did make our time left more precious though so I made a real effort never to argue. I suppose I was on tender-hooks, as not to lose her as my girlfriend. It also angered me because I had no control of the situation.

It was after a tough week for me trying to imagine life without Beth that we had been to Burnley to one of my favourite clubs. I danced hard all night and it blocked out all my negativity. I had ignored most of the gang and even Beth in a way. I just wanted to dance. I was overly friendly with my fellow dancers and trying a bit too much. I guess it was to make Beth jealous and hopefully change her decision. Jimmy sensed there was something wrong with me and tried to dance with me but he was shunned also. This night was about me and pure music.

I was drenched in sweat and my clothes clung to my body like I was wrapped in clingfilm. My nipples were raw and hurt but the music had really connected with me and I just wanted to dance more.

The night was over and as I bellowed for one more song it finally dawned on me that everyone had fucked off. I scouted around the room to see any familiar faces, but it was to no avail. I began to panic. Fuck, if I wanted to give Beth an excuse to dump me, I had given her a whole bunch of reasons. What a twat I had been.

I ran outside and got cramp in my leg. I fell to the ground and even though it hurt like fuck the rushes were intense. As I got up I began to get cramp in my back, then neck, then shoulders and then my hands. Fuck my whole body seemed to have its’ turn at cramping up. It was pleasure and pain rolled into one and as for the feeling of relief afterwards, god, words cannot describe it. It got to the point that I actually tensed a muscle in my body just to regain this wonderful feeling.

As I lay on the floor in a crumpled, cramped up mess, Ged suddenly appeared. He was pissing himself at me and as I laughed with him my jaw cramped up. Now it isn’t funny anymore, it really hurt. I was also relieved as I wasn’t left behind. Jimmy and Gary were also with him and they took great pleasure in taking my sodden jeans off. I couldn’t manage it as I got fresh cramps and after my jaw breaker I suddenly developed a dislike to the feeling. I was useless but they all enjoyed laughing at me so I played along. Once dressed into dry clothes I enquired about Beth’s whereabouts. Gary told me she had gone with Dave and Gina back to Dave’s place. Tom and Claire and a few others had gone back also. Jimmy told me she was mad at me for ignoring her and I suddenly felt sick. I was spitting with anger at fucking Dave the saint. My mind filled with thoughts of killing the bastard but I kept them to myself as Gary was his best mate. Ged teased me saying Beth was nibbling Dave’s ear off all night and it didn’t help. I was angrier than I had ever felt before and he was going to get his. That was if I would stop getting bloody cramps.

We got to Dave’s and I was ready to explode. I jumped out of the car and stomped in. Claire greeted me by telling me I had been a real arsehole. I just gave her a scornful glance. Who the fuck is she? I entered the front room and Dave was on the decks and Beth sat snuggled into that slut Gina. My heart sank and I stood there not knowing what to do or say. Beth got up and walked to the kitchen. I followed and all my anger turned to anguish. I shouldn’t have felt guilty because I had done nothing wrong but she turned and told me I had really upset her tonight. She began to cry and tell me it was hard for her to be leaving me also. I suddenly felt like a piece of dogshit. I had been really selfish and only been thinking about myself. I apologised and we hugged tight. I squeezed hard and didn’t want to let her go. I felt quite upset and hugged harder. It was a nice hug and it released some of my tensions, that was until Dave popped his head round the door to see if she was alright. How fucking brazen is that? I turned around and told him to fuckoff. His concerned smile suddenly changed to a frosty stare. I let Beth go and turned ready to twat this wanker until Beth told him to piss off. He looked shocked and I felt proud of her. So I gave her another hug. This was far more of a rude hug and we both got aroused. I bent her over the unit and we shagged right there and then. It was fast and furious but fulfilling. I even wiped my wet cock on Dave’s kitchen cloth for good measure. Beth giggled like a naughty schoolgirl and just looking at her set me off. So we did it again. If she was going to Nottingham I was going to leave her with an unforgettable memory.

The inevitable arrived and Beth was going on Monday to Nottingham. I felt sick and useless at the same time. It was a feeling I had deep down inside myself ever since she first mentioned it and it had got stronger week by week, the deeper I fell for her. I had never really brought up my full qualms in our conversations as she was so keen to go. So I kept it deep down. I know it sounds pretty pathetic but I actually cried on my Tuesday comedowns and it made me feel slightly better. Anyhow, we still had one last Saturday night and I was going to make it extra special. All the gang were out, even Colin and co. We were going to Beth’s favourite club in Colne.

She looked absolutely stunning and every body else made an effort. I did feel proud. I was not going to leave her side all night.

As we entered the club we headed straight for a booth. The place was already quite full and I knew a lot of the people in there. I shook hands with various mean bastards and I felt good not being intimidated by them. They were even very respectful towards Beth. She was probably liked by these guys because even though she was very fit she never stuck her nose up at them. Fuck, I was really going to miss her. We necked some speed and began to dance around our area.

As the night got really going Colin kept introducing me to his drug dealer friends. I wasn’t really interested because I wanted to concentrate on Beth but didn’t want to let Colin down so played along. I was happy to get drugs of Jimmy and getting involved in buying them myself didn’t appeal to me but each new mate told me I could go around to their houses whenever I wanted anything. I don’t think getting a gram of speed and one acid tab was worth the effort but kept it in mind plus I didn’t want to embarrass Colin.

The music was excellent and nothing was going to spoil it, that was until Dave, Gary and Gina arrived. Dave wasn’t as keen on Beth as he used to be but I still didn’t trust the bastard. Beth had been out with Gina also during the week sometimes and it angered me as she lived with Gary so whenever she ever went around Dave would have obviously been there. I hated them all basically. The night was Beth’s though so it was bite my lip time, for her.

Tom got the MC to shout a request out to Beth and