Suffer in Reticence

By Sabera Rasoolbi

Her writing should be an inspiration and a lesson to others who are going through what she suffered and experienced. She was lucky enough to overcome her obstacles by following the advice of both her late loving father and one of the late great Muslim Scholars (May Allah grant them both paradise). Some people will probably learn something about how to get over their hindrances by following the steps she took and hope her practice of her Muslim religion will be of help as it did to her until now and hopefully until she dies. She truly loves, believes and practices what her God and His last prophet, peace be upon him (pbuh), the only perfect man who has ever lived on earth and by putting into practice his teachings and his sayings and also by following her God`s commands in His Holy Qur`an religiously, she succeeded in enjoying her inner peace and happiness. Most of all, by believing and putting all her trust in Her Creator, Allah or God, she gained guidance and was put into the straight path. If anyone follows the same procedures she put into practice, which was to love Allah and His last prophet Mohammad (pbuh) more than herself, and anyone or anything else on earth only then guidance and Allah will put that person into His Right Path, Islam. Islam is way of life from cradle to death. Islam means peace. That is when one enjoys inner peace and happiness as the author of this book. Only by doing so, the reader will understand and experience what she did InshaAllah, God`s Willing. She overcame any hindrances presenting in her life. Simply by supplicating and worshipping only Her Creator, Allah alone without any partnership. Allah is the One who has the solutions of all the problems. To Him we come from and to Him we will return. Therefore, to Him alone she is thankful for the wishes He has granted her and also she is more grateful for those He has denied her because He knows best. For this reason, a Muslim must always say, `Alhamdulliilah`, praised be to Allah whether good or bad. One must be patient as the name appears in her writings, Sabera, meaning patient.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Partridge Publishing Singapore
• Release date: Mar 3, 2016
• ISBN: 9781482864588

Sabera Rasoolbi

Sabera Rasoolbi was born in an island discovered by the Arab who named it Jannat, meaning Paradise. The name has been changing many times from Paradise Island to Mauritius Island. Now it is a tourist island which is very beautiful and with happy and peaceful inhabitants. The author was born in a Muslim house and she is a Muslim by faith and has enjoyed her life from birth to early 20`s in that unique paradise island. She migrated to England where she was educated, worked, married , divorced and has been a long time single mother with four children whom she nurtured on her own only with the help, guidance and support of her Creator, Allah. She is so grateful to such a long and peaceful life which was granted to her by her Creator, who she cannot thank enough until the day she dies. Allah is to whom she comes from and to whom she will return. May He bless her and forgive her for any human and religious mistakes she has committed in this book. She would like to ask for forgiveness to her Creator who has given her the knowledge and power to write this book May God bless her. Sabera Rasoolbi would like to dedicate this book to her late most loving mother and father ( may Allah grant them both peace), who brought her in this world to enjoy this peaceful religion. Without it she would not have been able to cope with her life and her adversaries who caused her so much pain and suffer. She would like to mention that the only people who had never hurt her were late most loving mother and pious father who were to her like a crown on her head. To her late noble mother she simply had to listen to her advice to change her career , and go into further education and study hard and not stay as a nurse all her life and to her late most respectful father she only had to watch and listen to his stories he interpreted from his only Book he had was the Holy Qur`an and the way he healed people with beautiful recitation of the verses of the Qur`an which has been her most read and knowledgeable book and with its deep understanding, and with its wealth of blessed commandments which not become her only book of healing,but her saviour. Only those with the same experiences can understand her meaning of this noble Book of miracle. It is a book that once you read you will discover its infinite meaning by its author, Allah who knows best . the more you read it the more understanding you receive . It is a complete way of life to one who practises its commandments, just like our prophet pbuh was described by his latest wife, he was a walking Qur`an. If all human beings behave and practise what the Qur`an prescribed as our prophet Mohamed (pbuh) , the only perfect man did and all his sayings and actions left for us on earth, there would be peace on earth all the time. Sabera`s book should be an autobiographical book with her own experciences and difficulties which she faced in her life from the time she was aware of the world around her until now. She worked hard and has been continuously asking for help from her Creator, Allah only. To whom she came from and to whom she is going to and is answerable to. She wants others who suffered more than her or suffer similar consequences to share with her or learn the methods she used to face with her every day pains and hurts in her life. Thanks to her Creator, Allah and after she searched and prayed only with her God` Help and Blessings she had managed to grow strong in faith and healed herself. Now she is enjoying a happy and peaceful life. One has to read her writings in order to find out how she overcame any obstacles which came in her ways. It had not been easy to come over such a long and difficult way in her life to be at peace at last.

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Contents

Chapter 1 Understanding life

Chapter 2 Life in the Countryside of Mauritius

Chapter 3 Dramas and Traumas

Chapter 4 Experiences of my exotic and confused life

Chapter 5 Successes and Failures

Chapter 6 Appreciate life and be thankful to my Creator

Bi-smi llāhi r-raḥmāni r-raḥīm

In the Name of Allah, the All-beneficent, the All-merciful.

As I was born a Muslim, I’d like to use these words to praise my Creator - Allah, and thank Him before doing anything in life, because He who has chosen me and granted me His religion, His Mercy and Knowledge to remember and write this personal work of mine. I will endeavour to tell the truth, nothing but the truth in my autobiography. If I err it is solely my mistakes and I ask my God or Allah for forgiveness, to bless me and guide me from the beginning till the end of this writing.

Chapter 1

Understanding life

I must explain why I have started with my religious greeting. I was born in a Muslim family. It is said the house that everyone is born a Muslim but the house you are born into makes your religion. My father had taught me a few things at a very young age which made me strong in my faith late in my thirties and have been able to cope with the most difficult times and the peak of my crisis in my life. Since birth until my late 30’s I never practised this true religion of Islam, meaning peace.

Islam came to me after the birth of my third child, K by Dawood. I never understood this religion fully until I underwent the peak of my crisis in the island of Grenada, in the Caribbean. That was in early1990’s when I left my house, car and my job in the UK to accompany Dawood, who claimed to have embraced Islam and requested all of us including his first daughter, K aged one year old and my two children from my first marriage to accompany him to read his medical degree in Grenada.

I sacrificed everything to help Dawood because he converted into the Muslim religion by pronouncing the Shahadah – a testimony, bearing witness or the declaration of faith of Islam which is the first pillar of Islam, by raising his right forefinger with a witness and a Muslim imam, who leads the prayers in the mosque, by pronouncing Ashhadu an la ilaha illa ‘llah; ashhadu anna Muhammadan rasulu ‘llah - I bear witness that there is no god but Allah, and Muhammad (pbuh) is the last messenger of Allah, made him a Muslim. Dawood made sure that he obtained a certificate from the Imam to prove to the Muslim community that he was one of them.

There are four other pillars which are obligatory to make one become a true practising believer. The 2nd pillar is Salah (prayer) - an obligatory religious duty for every Muslim. It is a physical, mental and spiritual act of prayer that is observed five times every day at prescribed times. In this ritual, one starts standing, bowing, prostrating, and concludes while sitting on the ground. During each posture, the worshipper recites or reads certain verses, phrases from the Qur’an, 3rd is Zakah (charity), alms-giving and religious tax based on income and the value of all of one’s possessions, 4th is Ramadan (fasting) meaning to abstain from eating and drinking during daylight hours for one month yearly that is when the holy Qur’an was first revealed to our beloved Prophet Mohammed (pbuh) and the final pillar is Hajj (pilgrimage) - must be carried out at least once in their lifetime by all adult Muslims who are physically and financially capable of undertaking the journey for performing pilgrimage to Mecca in Saudi Arabia.

Dawood did not practise any of the four pillars except pronouncing the first article of Islam, the Shahadah. For example, a man who converts into Islam can marry any non-Muslim woman from the monotheist religion i.e. Christianity and Jewish but it is strictly forbidden for a Muslim woman to do so. This is stated clearly in the holy Qur’an chapter 2 verse 221. It is strictly forbidden by Allah whose command is better for a man to marry a Muslim slave than a rich idol worshipper.

I supposed for a man who is a Muslim will find it easier to guide both his wife and children into his religion. Especially, if the man treats his wife like our beloved Prophet (pbuh) who used to help with the house chores and loved his wives and provided for them equally and made them felt safe, secured and happy.

The Muslim man is the main bread winner and has to build a home for his family. If his wife works, she can do whatever she likes with her own money. She does not have to spend it on the house if her husband is providing and taking care of his family. Therefore any woman would love and respect her husband’s Muslim religion and have the children to practise this religion.

Unfortunately, I was trying to get nearer to Allah’s peaceful religion while Dawood was running after his friends who were atheists and magicians, instead of working and providing for his family. This is why his 2 daughters are so confused and cannot cope with their daily lives.

They are struggling to make ends meet. His daughter K is seeking help on how to beat depression while he is enjoying life in Indonesia living off investments’ interests without any stress. He stole the funds given to his daughters’ education by his intimate Jewish magician friend. How can a father enjoy life while destroying his daughters’ education and by distancing himself away from them not to support them financially and not to pay the UK government’s inheritance tax on a huge fund he never worked for.

Despite all the academic certificates he obtained while living in my house with my support and the sacrifices of my children for him to gain all his achievements, he never worked one day to repay back his father who also invested so much on his unfinished medical degree.

Before his father died