Tears of a Despaired Heart

By Stanley Joseph

Delve into an emotionally heady stream of poetic storytelling as Stanley Joseph fans out his extensive life experience in a vivid collection that melts together love, longing and desire for an egalitarian society into one heart-piercing blend.

Like fine chocolate dissolving in the mouth, Stanley Josephs lyrical expressions of love and inspiration leave behind a tingling sensation with poems rendering the heart a house brimming with inspiration in It Is True, yet contradicting himself when he protests that love is often full of unnecessary pain in Survivor of Love.

Notwithstanding, he shows his strong capacity for affection in Will You Love Me Once Again?, defying rejection with the heart-fluttering declaration:

If I change all seasons into fall/If I make you my only golden flower/The one which embellishes my spring/If I make you the only dream of my nights/The fantasy of my days, the journey of my life/Will you love me once again?

Coming from an immigrant background, Joseph displays a heightened sensitivity to the happenings around him, enabling him to comment commandingly on discrimination and poverty while still maintaining poetic cadence, as he remarks, In Heaven,/Are there people starving? Stepping on each other?/I would like to know better, to inevitably conclude, Oh, what a life? Its only beautiful for some.

Meanwhile, he unhappily comments that racism is a self decision of a modern day caveman and that he walks in a cutthroat world, a furious jungle full of lions.

Oozing with feeling fused into weeping lines of lament or ripe words of inspiration, Stanley Josephs poetic musings of a despaired heart debuts dramatically into the genre with his unique poetic brand.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Mar 17, 2009
• ISBN: 9781477164440

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Copyright © 2009 by Stanley Joseph.

Library of Congress Control Number:       2008912137

ISBN:         Hardcover                               978-1-4363-9876-3

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CONTENTS

Chapter 1

Last Hope before Death Tears Me Apart

Loneliness

Love: An Enemy of Mine

Long Gone My Inspiration

And Tomorrow Is Another Day

The Depth of My Feelings

Survivor of Love

Love from Ten Thousand Miles

It Is True…

Will You Love Me Once Again?

Last Hope before Death Tears Me Apart

Chapter 2

If Home Was Not Far

A Request for a New Commandment

Oh, What a Life? It’s Only Beautiful for Some

The Cure for Calamity

If Home Was Not Far

Justice Advocate

My Ancestor’s Freedom Land

Discovering a New World

Gratitude

Love is the only Answer

Journey of a Gypsy

Chapter 3

Lost in My Deep Thoughts

My Heart Misses You Too

A Man without Tomorrow

Tears of a Lonely Heart

Walk Away

I Once Met an Angel

The Dream of a Man

Lost in My Deep Thoughts

Rescue My Heart from This Solitude

Unforgettable Memories

Somewhere Around This Universe

A Period in a Lifetime

Chapter 4

Freedom Words on Ancient Scroll

Freedom Words on Ancient Scroll

Roots of a Revolution

Missing in the State of Criticism

Can You Dress Your Heart?

On Our Way to Freedom

Death

The Greatest Virtues

1803: Haiti Dug Freedom

The Spirit of Brotherhood

A Reason to Live

Table Rejects

Chapter 5

Inside a Smile of a Distant Angel

Inside a Smile of a Distant Angel

Love: A Poetic Scripture

Catching You No Farther Than a Mile

Three Words

Recorded by the Moon

And If I’m Guilty

My Dear Ebony Queen

What a Woman’s Dream Is Made Of

Beautiful

A Keen Sense of Love

We’ve Come a Long Way

Love: A Lifetime Prophecy

In the Night

I Once Smiled in My Dream

Chapter 6

Tears of a Despaired Heart

The Prisoner

Tears of a Despaired Heart

I, The Man inside This Mirror

Outsiders

A Deaf Mockingbird

I Remember…

And Life, There Is None

Education

A Shining Star in the Darkness

Letter to My Dream Killers

Never Give Up!

Roots of a Dream

I Wonder…

Chapter 7

Pour Justice More

Pour Justice More

Division among Brothers

The Traces That Separate the Human Races

Paedocypris

The Deliverance and the Elimination of Genocide

Stop!

Eye See Fascism

A Point in Life

Under the Dark Clouds

The Definition of Love, (The happiness,

the heart broken and the loneliness)

Author Biography

Acknowledgment

Chapter 1

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Last Hope before Death Tears Me Apart

Loneliness

I once tried to destroy love

It was the biggest attempted crime against humanity…

And the sentence was loneliness.

Love: An Enemy of Mine

Perhaps I need some rest,

Heart tearing, no more sun in June

Soul stuck, flatted under my feet

Searching a sweet caress, a surrogate,

A fallen angel, or a goddess from a distant moon

Too deep to dig, love at first sight

The light is so bright from a distance

Getting too close with a major resistance

Trace of a lonely smile, thought I was in Venus

Pursuing her shadow for a long while

Heart’s irreplaceable key falls under a broken stone

Mislaying, hiding behind a mountain

No more joy for a short time

Whatever I say, no matter how hard I try,

Love is still an enemy of mine

Always ending with my soul under my shoulder

So I once decided to bury this love inside

As deep sentiments won’t let it go any farther than the sky

Long Gone My Inspiration

How late could it be for me to receive your forgiveness?

Just look, look how long these feelings last inside, my dearest princess

Ever since you’ve been gone, I’ve been holding on

A love, that we both helped build, had become too strong

But with so many tears, it’s hard to smile

Making others wonder

If my heart is still fragile

Something is killing me inside

But my heart refuses to tell me what it is

I look up; I look down

I look across; I look around

Goddesses from distant the moon aren’t easy to be found

How can I talk to you in my sleep?

When I try to touch you

You fade in my dream

How could it be this way?

There are no other words for me to say

How you used to be the key to my heart

Now you are no longer the light of my dark

Sometimes I do wonder

If I still have a tortured soul,

A blue destiny, a despaired heart,

A gypsy mind, an unlucky kind

How love got me so blind?

You went back to Venus, why?

Without saying goodbye, I cry among the sky

Long gone, my inspiration

I hope you will be back to complete this mission

Before the final signal of the dawn,

Before the last words in my expressions

Sometimes I do wonder

Should I move on?

Or should I keep holding on?

I’m waiting in vain for your return once again

It has been so long since I’ve vent

So long since a bird sang to me

The beautiful song that you’ve sent

Long gone, my inspiration

I hope you know the world

Is hell for me when you are not around me?

My tears has formed a river that flows along with nature

So come back before the night is over

I now know how to treat you as a precious lover

Like an emperor learns how to serve his empress

Like a chevalier finally learns how to treat his princess

I earn more than your forgiveness

Just look, look how deep these feelings last inside

My face