Becoming Adam: The True Story of a Perfect Love Gone Right Book 3

By Michael Demers

Michael built a dream home in the Mojave Desert near Las Vegas, Nevada, USA, and settled in with Jen, his beautiful wife. The marriage had been sweet except for a growing malaise in the last two years. No longer busy business partners, they were spinning their wheels and not spinning them fast.

Jen left his bed for another room, and he didnt chase her, even when she beckoned from her bedroom door, bathrobe falling open, relaxed and ready, naked body steamy from a hot bath with candles. That was unusual for himhis sexual needs had always been strong, and she had fulfilled them, content with her man. Mornings had always come with a smile as she did her makeup. Sometimes he stood behind her and brushed her hair; he was gentle, and they were in love. But now she was growing distant, his mind was beginning to wander. Perhaps, without knowing it, they were preparing for what was to come.

Get yourself comfortable. Its a true storya long, delicious read. Theres romance and love, as well as bathtubs and candles. And for men, theres the adventure of a real-life quest, a man going somewhere for a womanand sex. Well, thats a guy thing. You ladies wouldnt understand how powerful a drive it is for us. Once we get the scent of a woman, well follow her anywhere to drink from her fountain again. Try us, and youll see. Just beckon, like a whispered phone call in the night perhaps?

Blended into the entertainment, the author teaches principles he has come to believe from personal experience are correct. Inside these pages, you will learn how to harness the law of attraction to obtain everything you want, how to quickly enter a state of chronic happiness, and what to expect when you die. Youll better understand in the final book why the author is so well qualified to write on those subjects. But if thats too meaty for you, simply enjoy the entertainment!

• Language: English
• Publisher: Trafford Publishing
• Release date: Feb 6, 2015
• ISBN: 9781490755205

Michael Demers

The author of the "Becoming Adam" series of books writes under the pen name Michael Demers. In real life, he did travel the USA and Canada in a motor home. Although he takes fiction writer's license and embellishes the facts, everything he writes in the books is based on real-life experiences and real people. Incredible as it may seem, he first lives his books before writing them. Due to privacy considerations, names, places, events, and e-mails are altered; the books are true, but they contain elements of fiction. The final book in the series tells how successful he was in finding the perfect love gone right that book character Michael sets out to discover. Blended into the entertainment, the author teaches principles he has come to believe from personal experience are correct. Inside these pages you will learn how to harness the law of attraction to obtain everything you want, how to quickly enter a state of chronic happiness, and what to expect when you die. You'll better understand in the final book why the author is so well qualified to write on those subjects. But if that's too meaty for you, simply enjoy the entertainment!

Book preview

Chapter 1

Kira: We’re watching the news, and it looks like my son might not be able to get back to Utah from Las Vegas for a few days - the I-15 is truly washed away! They’re saying it might take 3 or 4 days to reopen the freeway. My son and I were supposed to be coming through there right about that time, but he just happened to get home from work a little early or we wouldn’t have made it to Vegas and my flight from there to Victoria, British Columbia.

On another note… I’m pretty sure I’m one of the world’s worst packers! I have this elephant sized suitcase that’s just ridiculous! ‘night.

M: I went to bed after sending my last message last night so it’s 4:30 a.m. as I read and write this. I feel to say to Source thank-you, thank-you, thank-you for yet another miracle done to bring Michael and Kira together again. Everything is unfolding as it should. And when that happens it is a sure indication that all is well, we’re on a happy path. Ours will be delicious, the story of a perfect love gone right, we’ll live and tell that story together.

I am pleased that you are coming with a large suitcase because I’m hoping you will stay long and be contented. I prepared for your coming yesterday, cleaning house and more, even dusted, pink feathers, you’ll see them here and there. In the bedroom is a wooden chest with five drawers. Whereas they weren’t before, the top two are now empty and the third is half there, waiting to share. Clothes hitherto stuffing the bedroom closet are packed away in a spare suitcase in the storage room. There’s room now and hangers for you to spread out, it’s lonely yet waiting your arrival. And one of the formerly male cluttered shelves in the bathroom is almost empty, waiting for your coming. How delicious is the sound of that, your coming home. There are a few items in the nightstand, you’ll find them.

We’ll shop soon and get a dresser where you can sit an hour and create yourself anew, becoming even more beautiful each day. Those drawers will all be yours but I may come in sometimes, stand behind you and brush your hair if you’ll allow it, it would bring me joy.

Please when you come make yourself completely at home, it’s not mine now it’s ours. I won’t shop for groceries yet because you mention enjoying good food and I don’t know whether you prefer Cheezies or Cheese Puffs, I think they stock both. And then there’s ice-cream and chocolate, do you take nuts in yours? The grocery store is just across the street, I’m sure you’ll show me what you want. On the fridge top waits a set of Lord Simcoe’s keys to unlatch the gate, exit the swimming pool and sauna next to Lady Simcoe’s suites, and enter ours. Next to them are keys to my car, you’ll become familiar coming and going with or without me, your choice, I’ll always be available for you. And a card to collect points for free travel, tail wind optional we’re in no rush we have forever.

Have a lovely trip my darling, I’ll be waiting at the Victoria Airport tonight watching every pretty face for the familiar one I’ve known before in some past life, the lovely one I hope to awaken to each morning for a long long time at least. Your pick which side of the bed to sleep, the other side will have the cracker crumbs. I can hardly wait your coming, breathless now… Your Michael

M: My Dearest Kira, On this day of our becoming already I know what you will feel like when we meet; you will feel soft and warm and good, altogether familiar. Already with that first hug and a peek into the unfathomable depths of your beautiful eyes I will have fallen in love with you, again. It’s always that way, you’re irresistible. Yes, another unforgettable poignant moment in time awaits today, this one will be our last. And then we’ll go get the elephant waiting on the baggage carousel, smell of peanuts on its breath, a trunk even, you weren’t kidding Kira!

I’ve been searching for Kira for a long time, thought I’d found her a few times as is written in my books. But each time was just my yearning, my desperate longing for her, and a vivid writer’s imagination that had created yet another false start to the story I want to live and write. It’s a story of a perfect love gone right you see. I even gave up, thinking Kira must be just a lovely character in a book I wrote decades ago, that she was only a concept, an amalgam of everything I’ve ever wanted in a woman, wondrous mystic creatures as you are, most beautiful creation ever. I thought in my doubting that such completeness as that concept was would be impossible to personify in any single individual. And then you came, finding and writing me from an inactive Abraham singles site, a course of miracles had begun. I came to know that you are Kira, and that we would live and love and know joy together as we wrote books to show and share that perfect love gone right, the way to immortality, the fountain of eternal youth discovered in our time and written about. Suddenly that which seemed impossible is within reach, probable, done, faith become knowledge.

This early day as the sun rises and I wait your coming, I feel that you are the wind beneath my wings, my inspiration, the great and strong one behind this writer, the one who made him all that he must be, he Adam, you Eve if you will. We’ll talk at times about my dream, my vision of becoming immortal and populating new planets with children made in our own image and likeness, the way it’s always done. The curse is lifted, there is no pain or sorrow to conception and child birth anymore. It only takes a few at first to multiply and replenish a fresh world, growing exponentially as centuries of joy slip by fulfilled, we on our sacred mountain loving, protecting, guiding, molding our dear ones. (As it always is when the gods thrust their children screaming into time so they can learn how it is, grow up, become who they destined are.) My dream is big. It takes a great and ancient soul to love and share it with me. That is who you are, that’s why you are Kira.

But whether you will or not, I want you - it is you who will fill the holes harsh life has punched into my soul. I will fill yours, you are my goddess. We’ll live and write our story, the story of a perfect love. That story will yet be told to yearning ears by tellers on distant planets, the story of the coming together again of Michael and Kira, and how they then lived their dream. Billions of yet unborn souls wait for that living - we’ll serve it up grand my darling! Today my love, together today.

Jen: (my ex – she lives in the same Utah, USA city Kira lives) I paid your telephone bill this morning as you asked me to.

M: Thank-you so much Jen, it’s very pleasant when we’re best of friends (hopefully some day with privileges.)

M: The money is transferred. Thanks again sweetie, enjoy the day.

M: (to Jen) Thanks for sending the divorce decree. I’m surprised that we’ve been divorced for five months and didn’t even know it, there’s something broken in the system. But I’m glad of it because if we had known earlier we wouldn’t have had those wonderful days together in Victoria. Mmm, I want more of those, you were magnificent! Thank-you so much for coming and for being the beautiful woman you were when you were here. It was so encouraging, you’d already made huge changes. Wish I could see (and experience) you now.)

Jen: I also enjoyed our time together. It is hard for me to think I could even begin being as comfortable with some one else as I am with you. It was good seeing your daughter, her husband, and their daughter while I was there also.

M: (to Kira) I added the following note to my singles site profiles. Please note that I have found someone who I am very interested in. So I will not be available while we explore that budding relationship. If that changes, this note (or profile) will disappear. Wish us well…

I still find it hard to believe that such a beautiful (and well endowed) woman as Kira is will share my apartment this very night. Life is extremely good as I relax and allow Law of Attraction to WORK! Every single thing has fallen in place with Kira, she is precisely what I had hoped for and failed to find in other women. All others failed where she came through - she’s the one!

I still care a lot about Jen though. It is my hope that Kira will accept a relationship that will allow for me visiting with Jen now and then, as I accept that she Kira may be with her ex or others sometimes as well. Is it dangerous ground for me to think that way? I sure don’t want to risk damaging my relationship with Kira, she’s my top priority. Western women are immersed in monogamy, so maybe it is dangerous, I wouldn’t deliberately hurt Kira for anything. And maybe Jen will not want to be with me anyway when she discovers how close Kira and I are, and living together? That would certainly disappear that issue. Maybe eventually Kira and I will travel and spend some time with all of the major characters in my books, including Carrie and hopefully Suzanne if she will allow it. That would be so delicious!

Because of geography, Luchia would be the first one we would visit, she already invited me to come back with my girlfriend. We can visit her the first time we pass through Nanaimo, maybe just days from now. And of course Jen is now a major character, maybe the three of us will get together some day? Life’s exciting, I love the women in mine…

I will allow Kira to read my manuscripts, but not until I’ve completed the first rewrite. I’m about half way there with what will be Book 1. The last parts of Book 2 will not be as difficult, it’s already acceptable writing, I labor on that as I write my journal each day. And this of course is the start of Book 3.

But it might be wise to warn Kira that she may not even like book character Michael much of the time. His intentions are right, but he’s downright hard on women as he focuses on manifesting his strange dream and sometimes thoughtlessly bullies his way towards it, thinking he’s doing well when really he’s not. I see that much more clearly now as I stand back, a man fulfilled by Kira’s sudden coming.

Jen: We had so much rain. Water was flying down the back yard water fall. I took sand bags and helped a couple neighbors down the street fill them to protect their already flooded back yards. Water was high but no damage to the yard or house. My daughter’s house had the creek almost up to the fence. They may have some damage I am going to look at it.

M: I heard that Interstate Highway 15 was washed away near Moapa and won’t reopen for two or three days, never saw it like that before. Hope your basement is ok, need to keep cleaning the drain at the bottom of the stairwell as the rain comes down and washes in leaves etc.

True to form as I took my laundry downstairs this morning, now that Kira’s coming I finally run into my next door neighbor again after meeting her in the elevator weeks ago. She is pretty no doubt about that, my guess is that she’s single too. She lives only inches from me, on the other side of my bedroom wall. Hmm, wonder if Kira comes loud? Hope to find out soon but I plan to leave the timing of the first event to her, it may be never, I’ll respect her. I’ll be content (maybe) if all we do is cuddle all night for a few days. What an exciting thought, even that!!

Oresha: (a friend who lives nearby, returning some borrowed dvd’s) Hi Michael. I’ll be on foot today… gotta take in these Incredible last-days-of-summer! I’ll buzzzz ya when I get there… see you @ 2…..

M: I’ll be here, cu.

She brought the dvd’s back and gave me a six pack of beer. How could I refuse except to have a beer with her and chat a while. I hadn’t done my walk yet today so I walked with her to Mile Zero. A Walt Disney cruise ship was just pulling out, the first one I have seen in Victoria. The ship’s horn sounded and it was a strain from It’s a Small World after All. Clever, there’s no mistaking a Disney cruise ship.

Oresha: Nice to see you and spend a bit of time together, as always. Would You please send me the contact info for Lynne the clairvoyant ASAP… Thanks…. and the webcam info….. Have a Wonderful time with Kira! Wishing You The Best! Ciao….

M: (to Lynne cc Oresha) A friend of mine is interested in booking an appointment with you for a clairvoyant reading. Her name is Oresha, I’ll copy her into this message so she has your phone number. I hope you are well, I haven’t seen you on the beach for quite some time. You asked me about a woman whose name starts with a K. Well, Kira is flying in tonight to stay with me for a while and I now remember I was swapping a lot of messages with Kris, you were right about everything you told me. My book is coming along very well. Enjoy the day.

Oresha: Thanx Michael! I called and left Lynne a message… told her to expect an email from you referring me. Ttyl…..hugssss…

Kira: I’m just about to board the plane in Las Vegas - it leaves at 1:15… Crazy morning again! Whew! I love the way you seem to know what I’m thinking, and answer my most concerning questions before I ever have to ask about them or worry about them. Thank you! It still seems so incredible and unbelievable! I didn’t sleep much at all last night or the night before, so I’m looking forward to sleeping on this plane. I want to be myself when I meet you for the first time, and right now I feel not myself… absolutely sleep-deprived. I’m looking so forward to this evening! Can’t wait to see you for the first time! I’m wearing white slacks, a bright pink blouse, and if it’s chilly I’ll be wearing a light grey hoodie on top of it all. I think I’ll be easy to find. And I think you’ll be easy to find too. Can’t wait! BigHugs!

M: I suppose you might be able to read this while you’re sleepless in Seattle. The nice thing about being sleep deprived is that you have a ready excuse for not being normal. I’m actually hoping that you’re not, but however you are I’m going to like you just the way that is, no worries. We probably won’t get home until about 9:30ish, almost time to get some sleep anyway. I can make us a cuppa white tea if you like, or maybe get some hot chocolate if you’re into that. Please don’t be concerned about tonight, although I am hoping we can cuddle all night I’m not expecting more until you’re comfy with me. Take your time getting to know me sweetheart, I want everything to be real good for us long-term, beginnings are an important part of that. And if you prefer I can sleep on the sofa tonight so you can catch up on your sleep without interruption. Your choice, just tell me, you won’t offend me.

I thought tomorrow we’d make it a priority to shop for a dresser for you. Also to walk to the end of the breakwater. Then maybe a tour on an amphibious bus, 45 minutes on land, 45 on sea, good intro to Victoria. By then you’ll have had a glance at Inner Harbor (that’s where we catch the tour) and you’ll be able to appreciate how well located we are. Next priority, maybe Thursday is a ten minute walk to Beacon Hill Park, you’re going to love it. We’ll make it up from there, I have brochures at my place for you to pick and choose from. Oh, world famous Butchart Gardens for sure, late afternoon and stay until after dark, like two different worlds. Or, we could shack up for a week or two, live on love if you’re into that. See you soon dear one.

Kira: Oh I love that song! I hope you keep including it in your emails often! Each time I listen to it I experience tons of goosebumps. Can’t remember if I had told you this before, but I interpret goosebumps as messages from Source that I’m connected and in alignment. My friend… one of the first nights I had ever known of you… was over at my house.. That was the first time I had ever read your profile on the Spiritual Singles website, and by then, I think you had sent me a couple of other email messages just to me. She and I were reading them out loud to each other, and she kept saying, That’s exactly what you would say!… These are things I’ve always heard from you!… That’s something you would write!… I can’t tell if it’s coming from him or from you! Then she said, I keep getting goosebumps, and I never get goosebumps! When I’m emotional, I get tears - never goosebumps!

I can’t wait for you to meet her! She’s truly one of those wonderful people who have learned how to live their lives on that high-flying disk - almost all of the time! She’s so adorable! I love her with my whole heart! She’s been with me every step of the way since I met you. (And before that for many years… It definitely didn’t start out that way - it’s actually a very funny story about how we first met. She’s not a gullible person - at all! She can almost always tell when things aren’t quite what they appear to be - when there’s a scam in the air. I, however am one of the more trusting and gullible souls on this planet - believing in everyone and everything. Always looking for the best in people and situations. I think we make perfect partners in that way! Well anyway, she feels very strongly that you are amazing, and that everything you say is coming from an authentic and genuine place. Each time I get a little nervous or scared, (not that often) she calms my fears by telling me that she just has a knowing inside of her that everything is going to be ok with you. She really, really likes you, and that means so much to me! Not that I need her to like you for me to like you, but I have been known to be duped before. Not that I’m complaining… we learn great lessons from those situations.. but I hope I’m beyond that for a while now.

I believe this is the most amazing adventure upon which I have ever in my life embarked, and a huge part of me tells me I have no idea yet how huge it is!!! Today on the plane to Seattle I sat next to the cutest couple from Seattle - They had just spent their 3rd year anniversary in Las Vegas and were returning home, happy and content. I didn’t even know they were there until the last 45 minutes or so of our flight… I immediately fell asleep even before the plane took off, and didn’t wake up until it was almost time to land. The beautiful girl sitting next to me noticed that I was awake, and said, you were asleep when the drink orders came by… I always order two just in case… would you like this extra orange juice? I even ordered a mini of vodka for it if you would like it. (I don’t think I’ve ever ordered vodka before) What a gift! I had been lost in dreams of hopes and fears, and I awoke to find this sweet angel sitting next to me. I accepted the gift with gratitude and we started up a wonderful conversation. They have a beautiful 18 month-old daughter, and this was their first get-away since her birth. They were so in love - it was obvious. I told her about my background and we made an immediate and warm connection. Such love between them - such love they have to share with anyone that enters their world!

Last night, around 1 am or so my son and I and my friend were sitting up - wide awake - none of us could sleep. I was commiserating with them about how my luggage and extra stuff seemed to take up this entire hotel suite that we were staying in… how awful I felt about going to the apartment of a man I had never met and feeling that I didn’t fit… (MY HUGE amount of STUFF wouldn’t fit) Was I crazy? Was I crazy to do this so out of the ordinary thing?… This thing that I had never even come close to doing in the past??? We all laughed until around 1:30 or 2 and finally gave up and went to bed. (There’s more to this story, but I’d love to tell you in person…) Then, first thing this morning you sent me that email saying that you had made room for me. Again, It’s like you know ahead of time what my fears are about and answer them before I even know how to ask. My friend even looked up hotels in your area so that I wouldn’t feel embarrassed by bringing my monster suitcases with me. I’m rambling… I blame it on sleep deprivation and a very nice orange juice and vodka that was a gift from a beautiful couple on the plane.

M: I really want to meet your sweet friend, she seems such a precious soul. Say thank-you to her from me for calming your fears and making it easier for us to get together. I totally agree with her opinion of me by the way.

Jen: Had to go to Cedar to pick up fan and wet vac for the flooding. I am very tired been running around all day. Sent an envelope to you today.

M: Thanks Jen, recover quick.

Kira: I’m on this tiny little plane… Almost there. Just about to take off… I’ll be there soon.

It’s 5 a.m. September 10, 2014. Kira’s here and she’s lovely. 5'9", in effect the same height as I am, grew an inch in the last year she said. (Getting ready for me?) Slim, blonde, soft spoken, feels good. I spotted her through the glass doors coming out from Customs and waved. She spotted me instantly and smiled as we rushed into each other’s arms. We hugged, it was good, couldn’t take my hands off her from that first contact. Then at my car, two large suitcases in the trunk we hugged long and an armed officer came up to us calling out. A law against hugging in public? No, she’d left her computer on the seat of the airplane, we went back and retrieved it. She asked for a glass of red wine and we talked until 1 a.m., she obviously sleepy on the sofa. She touches and responds to touch, saying she likes it, I love it. Later she told me that I was the first man in her entire life who gave her HOPE. It was a tender moment.

She doesn’t do casual sex she said. I respect this lady highly so I’m going to leave sleeping arrangements to your own imagination. Of course she took my bed and bedroom but there’s also a sofa and a comfy queen air mattress at my home. I’m gentle and loving, always have been, and I do like to spoon and cuddle naked, take it from there.

She’s sad, it’s written on her face. I spotted it immediately at the airport and marveled that one so long exposed to Abraham would not show the light of joy. I think she’s still in love with her ex but he won’t stay faithful, she wants monogamy. She attended the week long Abraham seminar in Cancun that I was wanting to go to. I didn’t go because I couldn’t find a companion to share a room with me, I tried. She went single by herself, her second time at an Abraham seminar, the other time was in Phoenix, Arizona where I had tickets but cancelled when I settled in San Antonio. We could have met there.

I let her sleep, this will probably become a habit, me up early writing. She wants to have fun today, I do too. It’s ever so nice to have a lovely woman in my bed, I invited her to stay as long as she wants. She’s troubled but I can help her with that. I hope there’s more, I don’t want to be just an angel to this one as I’ve been to others. A perfect love gone right? Not yet, but I like her a lot, it would be easy enough to do. Even as I write this my body demands that I go to her bed and cuddle. But she needs the sleep, I’ll let her be.

I tried to buy daffodils yesterday to put on the table instead of the pink and white carnations I settled for. They laughed at the flower shop, it’s not Spring, but they had bulbs to sell. To me it’s Spring, I hope winter never comes, only time will tell. I need to bring joy to that one’s face, I will, I’m so eager, just touchy, don’t want to be just her angel.

Jen: Are you doing any dating or meeting women? I’m so busy at the moment I don’t have time. Maybe at end of week I won’t be so busy.

M: Law of Attraction doesn’t leave a gap anywhere in the Universe, all desires are instantly created spiritually, ready for us to allow them to manifest. You closed a door (at least I thought you did) and I withdrew. I still love you but there’s another now as well, come to me as if by magic on an airplane last night: tall, slim, blonde, lovely, professional, soft spoken, my dream manifest. She came to the Abraham singles site when I was prominently there during your recent several days of silence, she by inspiration for the first time, me feeling a need to be there again, it was our first contact. Maybe you sensed that I needed to be alone just then and didn’t write for several days so I would withdraw enough to let life through. We’d held each other too tight you and I, it was stifling both of us, life force was unable to flow, we needed to move on.

She’s ex Mormon, we speak the same language, she into Abraham for ten years. She’s the one I’ve been attracting but never before allowed myself to meet. We’ve been circling each other in the same orbit without knowing, dreaming, believing someone was there, waiting for the perfect moment to come together, that moment has arrived. She’s here in my bed as I write this, was sleepless in Seattle last night waiting four hours for her flight, hadn’t slept for two nights getting ready. The flight was her offer, her expense, one way ticket, she couldn’t wait to rush to me from Utah where she’d moved three weeks ago, we both knew it was right.

Her son got off work early on Monday, that was unusual. On the way to a hotel in Vegas so she’d be ready for her flight next day they beat the interstate washout by half an hour, it was meant to be. Only in the last few days did she become available for me and I for her by miracle. We opened to each other, blossomed together, the moment was perfect for our meeting. It may turn out to be a perfect love gone right, or maybe just me an angel to help her from her sadness, maybe back into her ex’s arms who knows. The Universe always works magic for those who expect it, relax into it, and let life flow.

She’s sad, I’m happy, she’ll change. I’ll make Kira my present priority but want to remain your friend. We’ll see how that works out, wish us well dear one. A door closes, another opens. Take care sweetie, enjoy the day, life’s good, really really good, relax into it and be happy, all is well.

Jen: This is good for you. I don’t want you to be lonely. You say she is married and may go back to her husband. Why did she leave? Why would she go back? Did her husband harm her in some way? What age is she? What do you want from this? I do feel it will fill your gap of loneliness. Is she the St George women you told me you thought about contact quite some time ago. Why did you have to wait 4 hours or was the flight late. You must of spent the night cuddling and talking. I envy her. With a one way ticket she must plan on staying awhile. This really sounds like what you have been wanting. The others were just learning experiences. Enjoy my love. Please keep me posted.

M: Please understand that I will not be spending all my time at my computer anymore so responses may not be as long or as fast. Kira is just a few years younger. I found out that she’s still married, I didn’t know that until she was here. She asked her husband for a divorce five years ago because he was unfaithful to her, numerous times it turns out. But he still loves and wants her even though she feels she must move on, that there is another man waiting for her. She had to wait in Seattle because she booked her flight last minute and that’s the only flight that worked.

I am hoping she stays a long while, she is what I have been wanting. Obviously we can’t marry because she’s still married, and I am not wanting marriage anyway, just a long term loving relationship. She just closed down her business - everything worked out perfectly, the timing for both of us getting together was precise. My first contact with Kira was during the three or four days that you were silent. My mention of a woman in Utah was not her.

Jen: When you say maybe just be an angel to help her with her sadness. I could feel her sadness. What happened? Has she chosen to be unfaithful as her husband as he chooses to be toward her. Will another mans arms heal her or will it compound the situation she is in or will it help her to move on. Often we do need another to help us move on. Would you come back to the states and live with her if all is well.

M: Kira has not been unfaithful. My coming into her life and her doing what she did to come to me are totally unfamiliar to her, it’s a course of miracles that brought us together last night. It’s just that everything felt right for her and was validated by her friend who told her that I was exactly the man she has been needing in her life, and I agree.

Jen: Are you saying she is wealthy and now living in St George. Was it to be close to her family here. Does she want to buy the house I am in. Seriously! It has wonderful feeling and some of that is you.

M: That’s a nice idea but I don’t think she/we have a clue right now about the future except that it will be very good. I think she already owns a house in Utah, not sure.

M: (to Lynne) Please contact me, Kira and I would like to make an appointment with you for a clairvoyant reading with the two of us there at the same time.

Jen: Even though my heart hurts. I want you to be happy and glade you have her in your life at this time.

M: Thank-you so much Jen, I appreciate that. We’re just exploring each other at this time and I still love you, she still loves her husband. So turn off those heart hurts. I understand though, I went through a world of hurt when I got emotionally involved with you again in Victoria, then thought you had dumped me so you could explore other men. As you properly should, we’re both single, I wish you the very best with that. I’ve adjusted to the newness of you, a new moment, a new life, I choose happiness in it. As I hope you will do to.

Jen: One correction. I never dumped you for other men. There has never been another love in 20 plus years. Would you still willing to spend time with me this winter?

I feel for her but at least now it’s her chasing me instead of the other way around, I like that better, doesn’t hurt so much. And I feel no pain anymore, Kira’s home. I think I’ll just ignore that message. I said to Kira this morning, because that’s the way it was for me as I reached for her in spirit, that she was like a cloud, allowing me to immerse myself all over her and play as I would within her beckoning promise. A moment ago I saw her sitting on the floor in the bedroom having bathed, with curlers in her hair and only a towel covering her nakedness. I said because that’s how I saw it that she is cute, and sexy mmm. I will win this woman’s love and then hopefully her promise because I value and crave that wanting, maybe forever.

Jen: Are you taking the trip to the North side of the island you were wanting to take.

M: Things are going well for us Jen so it’s most likely that we will do that after a few days exploring Victoria. I will most likely take my laptop but it may be hard to find internet. Sure wish I had someone to take care of the business, I need the money but can’t bring myself to run it properly. When are you going north yourself?

Jen: Tell me more about your new love. It makes me happy that you are not alone and I don’t feel pressured to come and visit. I am going to call the man here in St George in a few minutes. Not sure about it but will give it a try.

Jen: What is this ladies name. I don’t think it is Kira.

M: She loves the name Kira so we’re calling her Kira except obviously when she’s around her family it will be her normal name for them. You can call her Kira.

M: (to Kira) I’m forwarding to you the message below that I sent to Jen this a.m. in response to her email received today. This is a sample of the type of communications I have with Jen.

Jen writes: A word came to me last night in a dream. What does love transcends mean to you at this time in your life?

I can think of a whole bunch of associations regarding those two words but they have no specific significance for me that I am aware of at this time if that’s what you are asking. It’s most likely a personal message for you yourself to ponder. Literally it would mean that love conquers all. Love is the greatest of all powers. If you are having problems and ignore those problems, focusing instead on the feelings associated with love and loving, then you will have transcended (overcome) all of those problems. They simply won’t matter anymore, they will slip out of your awareness. Never give energy to something negative or unwanted, instead focus on the solution so the solution is what you attract and not just more of the problem. A great secret to successful living is to always ignore negatives (never fight) and always focus on love and happiness. Then the Universe will bring you everything you want, it must. If what you want involves a specific person you may not get that specific person because they are free to choose (and vibrate) for themselves. But Law of Attraction will bring someone else to you who is vibrating at a frequency similar to your own vibrations - as in like attracts like.

It always happens, you just need to relax into it, be happy, and allow that newness to manifest. It will, as if by magic or miracle because we are the creators of our lives. Law of Attraction is our servant, like the operating system of a computer. Type in what you want, be happy, and the ‘computer’ (like Aladdin’s genie) will bring to you what you want or even better. What do you really want Jen? Is it me specifically, or is it happiness and the company of a man like me or better? Different isn’t it? Like attracts like. There is no scarcity in the universe, it’s full to overflowing with abundance - low hanging fruit, ripe for the picking. Pluck some? Does that make sense?

Jen: If you continually sin for pleasure of the moment will that bring you what you want now but in the end there is always a price to pay. Such as health or sexual diseases or self alienation. Or should you work toward what is the pure love of Christ that is the highest form of love meaning a love that transcends all other loves.

Jen: Abraham say you don’t have to go back and fix any thing. Is coming from a very selfish side that is wrong. There are things that one morally needs to go back and fix. Otherwise they leave a string of hurts and damages. What about accountability. The sin is still bared and marked deep within each of us. If one don’t face their past mistakes and make proper changes they are distend to repeat it over and over. Ignoring a problem does not make it go away. When you face your mistakes that’s when you can really go forth and find joy and happiness. I feel I have faced many of our mistakes and I have changed tremendously. I feel I now can go forth and find much more happiness. Maybe with you or maybe with some one else I don’t know. Michael what you have now is not going to last. It can’t it came with to many unsolved problems in her life and yours. She will go back to find a solution. You are her angel right now so enjoy this moment.

M: I have been enjoying my moments for a whole year now, why should today be any different? But thanks for your concern Jen, enjoy the day.

Jen: I was up early and went back to bed for a bit. I woke up hearing you say you have not slept with her yet. So I assume you are taking it slow with her and realizing it might not happen. Just sharing. I know you are enjoying this moment. That is good.

M: As usual your woman intuition has been precise. We have not had sex, she is the kind of woman who does not give her body lightly, had sex with only one man (her first husband) for many years. We draw hourly closer to each other and to her moment of commitment. But it has only been two days since we have been in each other’s presence, there’s no rush no hurry at all. I like her a lot Jen. Enjoy the day.

Jen: But she has had affairs since then as you have. If that is true than it just might happen.

M: What I am saying is that both she and I were faithful to our spouse until we were 48 years old at which time we divorced and were single for a period of time, so we have very limited or no sexual experience other than with one partner until we were at least 48 years old. Each of us has disclosed to the other how many out of marriage experiences we have had in our entire lives and it is remarkably almost the same and remarkably very low. We’re an excellent match in many ways.

Jen: I think you should share all your sexual fantasies with her and what your desires are to do to her. Think how it opened me up to becoming a very sexual woman that could not get enough of only you. If you don’t boldly share your wants it may not happen. That is part of foreplay. It prepares her for the touching and wanting.

Jen: Is this a second marriage she is talking about. You said you both were divorced at age 48. If so how long has she been in this marriage. Are you attracted to her or her skinny body? Is there good chemistry. My journey is a heavy one working at loosing weight. But it is happening.

Jen: Good morning. I need some tax information for the accountant. PS: I think you had a good night last night.

Jen: I visited with a man for about three hours on the phone tonight. That’s a big move forward. Think I will call him back and meet for breakfast. That all it will be.

Jen: I think you caught up to my total. I would say it has been 6 or 7 for you. You became wild man a year ago. Man you waited a long time. Do you tell women how long you went not wanting to have sex with your wife because she was over weight or did you just tell them I was the one that moved out of the bedroom years ago but didn’t add I never stopped inviting you to my bed. I had numerous painful rejections that did not phase you. I kept the pain to myself but was glade we talked about it when I visited and you invited me again to your bed after to many years of absence. It is sad on my part because emotionally I am still married to you even though we are divorced and I can not be with you because of past events.

M: I never became wild man that’s just your imagination and lashing out at me as you fight yourself. Yes I waited a long time to have sex with someone I was not married to. That’s because I was either Catholic or Mormon and faithful to every one of my wives for the more than fifty years of my life that I was a married man. You could have been with me, I offered that, but you wanted to experience the single life. I don’t blame you for that, just saying it the way I see it. Enjoy the day Jen, I care about you.

Kira asked as we walked the breakwater the day after she arrived if we would be able to have the fine things in life. Last night we went to a restaurant on the sea and ordered Thai salad. Me with prawns, she with chicken. She was looking for ambience and we found it on the water: boats, ferry to Port Angeles, seaplanes taxiing. She had red wine, I a Long Island Iced Tea. I knew it was going to be powerful, my first after tasting Suzanne’s in Los Vegas, and joked with the waitress who said she’d get me to a taxi.

It was heaven there with that gorgeous goddess: slim, my height, lovely face, soft spoken, delightful wearing an expensive black pant suit, my dream, we walked there. I didn’t even bring into awareness that this goddess was used to wine costing $140 a bottle while I gave her ten dollar versions. But that didn’t mess with the ambience and she was buying dinner. We enjoyed our food and conversation. She, accustomed to dining daily in the best restaurants in Las Vegas, said it was the best food she had ever tasted. Me too, except I’d already tried it with my sister, that’s why we were there.

Heaven was wonderful. I pointed out to her that we were living fine and she agreed. Then arm in arm we strolled along Inner Harbor and rubbed our hands near the lamp glass of a tall warming flame at a bistro. Again I noted to her that we knew how to serve up fine and she agreed, life was grand here in Victoria, we didn’t need Italy or France.

At home I opened a bottle of shiraz and prepared to watch Somewhere in Time with her. We’re still always clothed together, no sex, that would be her final commitment to me. She dawdled in the bedroom last night, came to me on the sofa, and we were no longer serving up fine. Suddenly we were separate souls where one had been but moments before. We didn’t cuddle or touch, the movie paused, me up several times, tempted to fall sleep on the sofa each time. I concluded that she wanted to leave next morning and withdrew male energy like air escaping a slowly deflating balloon. This morning she appeared when I was creating my morning mug of white tea and as always surprised and delighted me with the first glimpse of the tallness and slimness and loveliness of her. She wanted to talk. My emotions were already severed so that was instantly accepted.

She revealed that last night when we got home she had read a long text from her husband that disturbed her greatly, the first time he had texted her in years of marriage. He asked if she was hiding from him, he wanted her back, still loved her. He was offering a small monthly allowance if she doesn’t live with another man for more than a few days in any six month period. Then she told me that the morning of the day she flew to me she had received a tip where he was and watched from a distance as he kissed good-bye to a sexy 30 year old woman wearing short skirt and heels – this was Las Vegas, Nevada, USA, City of Sin - what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas. That living proof was a gift given Kira, the final seal of approval from that she should leave her husband much as she still loved him, and be with another man.

That man (me) was given to her in the beginning from a distance, a full knowing that he was right for her, miracles further validating that and finally her coming to Victoria a few days later. But instead of the fullness of accepting and going forward, flowing with new life the Abraham way, she began to fear and doubt and be insecure, unprotected and scared. And that’s where we were last night. Until with her candid talk this morning when I found again my love for her, my accepting of this gorgeous goddess who embodies everything I wanted in my forever love my Kira. But now as I write this at noon today she has been in the bedroom, door closed, talking to her husband and others I suppose, though she said she’d stay longer with me - give us a chance to be. Last night she lost my hope, this morning she rekindled it. Which will it be for us? I feel that I know now. I feel that OUR LOVE WILL BE!!!

Lynne: Hi Michael, thank you for your messages and my apologies for not replying sooner. I have been meaning to message you but have been busy with work and life stuff. Thank you also for referring Oresha, she is an amazing spirit. Unfortunately I am off to Vancouver this weekend on business and the earliest I can read for you would be Wednesday the 17th. Let me know if this works for you. Enjoy your weekend!!

M: Thank-you Lynne. This will confirm that Kira and I will buzz your door a bit before 11 a.m. next Wednesday for a joint reading. If you unlatch the door, we will make our way to your apartment, or you can meet us downstairs if you prefer. I look forward to seeing you again, you too enjoy the weekend and your trip.

Lynne: Thank you Michael. Wednesday the 17th 11:00 am confirmed.

Jen: You are wrong I am not experiencing the single life or do I want it. I do not like being single. You should of loved me enough to wait for me but no. Two or three days later you replace me. How do you think that makes me feel. What kind of love does a man have that replaces the woman he claims to love with another woman within three days. You just never stopped shopping for women.. And yes you became a wild man. OK. That’s what you want. So I have trust issues with you. I am afraid to commit to me and your actions have proven that my fears are correct. You could not even wait two or three days. That makes me cry. I have not even held hands with another man but yet you accuse me. So you slept with her last night. If that’s what you want then I am glade you found someone.

Jen: Your profession this past year has been to get woman into your bed. Most ran a few tried you out and never came back. If you could of found more woman to have sex with you would of as long as they were skinny. You want two or more lesbian women in your bed you don’t think that doesn’t make you wild.

M: It’s unfortunate that you have such a low opinion of me. But as usual your fight is with yourself and you accuse me falsely. The truth is that last night we never even touched, I thought she might pack up and go home today. But she decided to give us some more time and I’m grateful for that. It’s true though that although I will most likely always love you, I did warn you several times that if you took the year or whatever that you appeared to want to explore other men that you were risking losing me because my choice would be to go forward. I warned you clearly that time is of the essence for me. I was committed again to you but that was not reciprocated, you seemed to be a different woman than the one who came to Victoria who I had such a wonderful time with.

Go back to my emails before I met Kira and that is very clear. You accepted the risk of losing me for whatever your reasons were, even as you worked singles sites and accuse me of being you. I saw what was coming, I was even going to pay for your flights. You seemed only willing to come for a couple of days in your capacity of friend, not because you wanted me as husband again but to be consoler and adviser, I told you I didn’t want that. You wrote saying that because I had explored being single you should be able to experience being single too. Instead of responding to my messages as a priority as I was pleading with you to come to me you were instead on singles sites looking over and maybe responding to other men, and then you went completely silent. (I knew every time you signed in to singles Jen, you couldn’t hide that from me, you were there while my urgent messages were growing several days stale in your inbox, you didn’t get away with deceiving me.)

What else could I conclude then but I needed to withdraw from you and move forward? So Law of Attraction brought me the woman I call "Kira’. You and I may resolve our differences and be in each other’s lives perhaps off and on for a while, perhaps more deeply. And we may not resolve them and simply move apart, going our own ways as it was with me and others. But Kira and I are certainly not going to marry because she’s still married, her husband won’t grant the divorce, he still loves her even as he is unfaithful and tries to hide it, she can’t handle that even though she too loves him. You rant at me and try to make me feel guilty I suppose but you acknowledged and accepted the risk and turned me down when I invited you back into my life. So now you have to live with the consequences. This doesn’t mean that we are finished forever but it does mean that we should both explore other possible long term partners as time goes on, that’s what I am doing.

I feel for you, I wish you weren’t in such a stew over me meeting another woman, you knew my needs and desires were urgent and should have known how Law of Attraction works in my life, it brings abundantly. I still hope we will be friends, I will always be fond of you, we had a great and wonderful 18 years together. Be well Jen, enjoy life and the variety of opportunities it brings. I hope your breakfast meeting went well.

Jen: I’m very selfish. I’m glade you did not sleep with her. I just wanted to know. I do understand loneliness. None of it is about other men. I don’t care about other men. Would like to have a male friend to do a few things with. I look but it is not very desirable. At this time in my life the only bed I want to be in is yours. That’s the real truth. I am afraid to commit to you at this time plus the other situation is not resolved with my family, they don’t want us to get together again. I am the same woman that loves you. But you can not pressure me to move in your direction when I am not ready and in a very vulnerable state. You were pressuring me so much that I could not think straight, so I went silent. I needed a breather. I do miss you so much but will not risk us getting together for many reasons at this time.

I knew you could tell when I was on the singles site, so what. Looking does not mean touching. You were pushing me and I was not prepared to do what you were insisting on and I could not handle the communication. How could you love me and a few days later going crazy over another woman. It leaves me in a very bad place of wondering what kind of love do you have that turns on and off so easy. I don’t feel I can trust your love now. Didn’t go to breakfast this morning. Wish we could talk on the phone or do video. Then you could see how I look.

M: The kind of love I have is very long lasting as evidenced by my unusually long marriages and that I still love you. However, the past year has taught me that women will lead me on then reject me by going silent. I thought you had done that so I withdrew emotionally and moved on, Law of Attraction taking only a few hours to address that desire. One door closes, another opens. I was for a time looking for a lover, but deep inside all along I was looking for a stable long-term loving relationship with one woman. You say even in this email that you are not ready to come with me, maybe not for a long time.

And so there’s Kira, still only a potential but there were so many miracles working for us to bring us together that it is certainly a good path we are on. Even you (as I thought) rejecting me in the very hour that my heart needed to be open to the possibility of another and receptive to her first contact with me. The very day she flew here to Victoria, that morning Kira got a tip as to where her husband was. And she watched sadly from a distance as he kissed and bid good-bye to a 30 year old woman in heels and a short skirt - that’s Las Vegas. But it was the final proof Kira needed to remove her guilt for leaving a man she loves who still loves her. Such are the miracles that come when you are in tune with universal laws. She was prepared for another, I was prepared for her. Enjoy the day.

Jen: Well this sounds like a kiss you good by Jen. I see you are prepared and want her. Good luck and good by.

M: You are such a silly woman. Do you expect me to be alone for a year while you do whatever it is that is keeping you away from me? (I don’t know what that is, you won’t tell me, you keep secrets.) Why didn’t you drop everything and rush to me when I called for you if you truly love and want me like you say you do? Nothing should keep us apart with such a love if it was real, nothing else would be a greater priority, you should know that, I’m sure you do. But reality is that everything else is more important to you. What else can I conclude than even though you deny it you are hoping to find another man, you have thrown this one away or only want him for backup if all else fails, or perhaps to use as an excuse to make yourself miserable and wallow in it?

Anyway, my guess is that she is going to leave on Monday, and she will go home without our having had sex, don’t know yet, it doesn’t seem to be coming together for her. I have a great love to give away, it comes back only in dribbles and spurts, appreciated, acknowledged, but not the full unhindered flow it should be when we were brought together by so many miracles. You know I am vulnerable to that, it is inevitable if I’m left alone, my soul yeans to fill the universe and then create another one, it will inexorably attract a like companion, it must for I am becoming Adam. Enjoy the day