Sorrows of the Chameleon
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Ella Wagemakers
Born of unknown parentage sometime toward the end of September 1961 in Manila, Ella Wagemakers emigrated to the Netherlands in 1988 and became a Dutch citizen in 1993. She obtained a master's degree in education in Tilburg in 2003, worked full-time at the Dutch Police Academy for nine years, and is currently teaching business communications and project management at the Hogeschool Rotterdam (Rotterdam University) in the IBMS programme of the Rotterdam Business School. Her first book (written in Dutch) is an eight-hundred-plus-page genealogy of the Wagemakers family. Her first poetry collection, Sorrows of the Chameleon, was published by Xlibris in 2007. Metal Ox Moon is her second collection. She lives with her husband, Adrian, in West Brabant, is still active with genealogy, and is also into photography, travel, reading, and philately.
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Sorrows of the Chameleon - Ella Wagemakers
Copyright © 2007 by Ella Wagemakers.
Photographs:
Front—taken by Erik Christenhusz in IJmuijden
Back—taken by Henk Buijs in Apeldoorn
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Contents
FOREWORD
IN MY SECRET COUNTRY
THE CHILD YOU HAD
GAIA
MONSOON
PERSPECTIVE
IN MY SECRET COUNTRY
OUTPOST
REMNANTS
DUST ON THE GROUND — A SENRYU SERIES
LAND WHO WOULD NOT HAVE ME
WHEN I AM DEAD
THE DREAM
THIS IS THE ROAD
SPRING, 2006
MEETINGS
GIVE ME A SIGN
WALKING
OLD CHILD
I WAKE TO THE RAIN
MY WORDS AND I
SHARDS
HOUSE ON THE HILL
MAUSOLEUM
FAT BOY TRIPTYCH
WALL
THE WART
X" MARKS THE SPOT
ENNUI
I WAKE TO THE RAIN
I SAW THEM
WOMAN BY THE DOOR
HELMOND
PAGODA AFTERNOON
MORNING AFTER
OLD MAN ON THE BRIDGE
BEN
ANIMAL PLANET — A HAIKU STRING
MODERN ART
DYRHOLAEY BEACH — FRAGMENTS
VIK
AMSTERDAM
BRIENENOORDBRUG
ON THE BRIDGE
POEMS FOR THOSE WHO COME TO MY DOOR ASKING FOR DONATIONS
WOMAN BY THE DOOR
PIG HEAVEN
FOR THE TSUNAMI VICTIMS, 2004
MOON HAIKU
TANKA—A SELECTION
TEA HAIKU
THE BODIES
THE AFSLUITDIJK3
SHOWER
ANDÀY
OTHER HAIKU AND SENRYU — A SELECTION
WARZONE
HAPAG
HAPAG
LOOBAN
IKALIMA NG HAPON
BETWEEN THE SHADOW AND THE SOUL
HOW I LOVED YOU
WAITING FOR YOU
FOR RI
APOLLO’S ODE TO APHRODITE
SUNFLOWERS
LINES PROMPTED BY A SONG BY ANOUK
YOU HAVE WOUNDED ME
AFTER AN AFTERNOON IN BREDA
THREE WHO PASSED BY
DRAGONFLY
BETWEEN THE SHADOW AND THE SOUL
ROSA BELLE POITEVINE
THE GIFT
DESERT PLATEAU
TO DANTON R.
FINALLY, A WISH FOR YOU
DRIE DIE VOORBIJ LIEPEN
DRIE DIE VOORBIJ LIEPEN
EINDELIJK WENS IK JE IETS
THE WAINWRIGHT’S SON
— A HAIBUN
THE WAINWRIGHT’S SON
EXCERPTS FROM
‘DUTCH JOURNEY’
EXCERPTS FROM ‘DUTCH JOURNEY’
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS AND THANKS
AUTOBIOGRAPHICAL NOTE
Endnotes
This book is dedicated to
a woman I have never met
my real mother
Only what is entirely lost demands to be endlessly named;
there is a mania to call the lost thing until it returns.
—Günter Grass
All my love
to Ad
and heartfelt thanks
to Petra Hissink and Henk Buijs
at Apeldoorn
A deep bow
to the memory of
Pablo Neruda
FOREWORD
my first attempt at a book of poetry
a collection of feelings sans sentimentality
looking clearly through an evening mirror
from the present to the past
an attempt to climb the Everest of my hopes
and plunge into the ocean of my anxieties
words which will hopefully paint
a fleeting hologram of my shapelessness
a moth’s trip to the tantalizing moon
a dragonfly’s wings scorched by the sun
finally it can be said
that I have dipped the marrow of my despair
into the ink of my serendipity
Ella Wagemakers
September 2006
IN MY SECRET COUNTRY
THE CHILD YOU HAD
is gone;
dead like the garbage
rotting near the bay;
the very image worn out
like rosary beads
rubbed numb
till all the prayer
had gone out of them.
You wanted her lost,
and now I lose myself,
doomed to a life
of hangmen,
executioners and judges,
jailers of the spirit,
a homeless chameleon
in an obscure jungle
hiding from ominous
birds of prey.
Yet the jungle is home
to strange creatures;
flying snakes,
hairy sloths,
vampire bats thirsting
for fresh blood;
apes of noble lineage;
spiders weaving
kingdoms of webs,
killer fish;
tadpoles, alligators;
and birds of paradise
thriving in anonimity,
their nest a hammock
of feathers,
their magical rituals
unrecorded,
their poetry
beautifully
incomprehensible.
GAIA
Your womb moulded me into a