Love Thyself: Oneness, Victory of Self, Exceptional Love.

By Brandee Downes, Sonia Morales and Robert Stam

The author will take you on a journey that will help you open your mind and heart to different ways of seeing how the world was created by channeling Sophia. She will also take you on a journey of self healing and find ways to once again, Love Thyself, through guided meditation from spirit guides and healing exercises. Enjoy the variety this book brings to include messages from guides such as St. Michael, Jesus, Mary Magdalene, Sekhmet, the Cosmos and more. May your light shine brighter each day.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Lulu.com
• Release date: Feb 4, 2021
• ISBN: 9781716119835

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Love Thyself:

Oneness……

Victory over self

Exceptional love

A channeled story of creation and ways to heal and love thyself.

By Brandee Downes, MFT

Cover : Robert Stam  Pictures: Sonia Morales

© Copyright (2020) by Brandee Downes- All rights reserved. Except for brief quotations in book reviews and as otherwise permitted by law. It is not legal to reproduce, duplicate, or transmit any part of this document in either electronic means or printed format. Recording of this publication is strictly prohibited. ISBN 9781716119835

Prelude

Dear higher self, I ask you to guide me each day to make choices for myself and others out of love and compassion. I ask my ego to help guide me out of love with logic and reason and to help set boundaries where needed—knowing that we are all on the same side of progression and growth, Amen!

This book is a guide to help you find the tools you hold within to heal and become the best version of yourself. During this journey, you will find that in order to become the greatest version of you, you must mend your heart and mind and embrace your higher self with ego-self. May this book and this self-journey free you and allow you to be your authentic self.

I want to thank Jesus, who continues to guide me and never leaves me. The spirit guide who picked me up and walked me over that threshold of being good enough for my life purpose, and the guide who stands with me guiding me to bring love, light and healing to humans so that they too can embrace their light. As everyone has the light, only a few have been taught how to access it.

Thank you, Jesus, Mary Magdalene, St. Michael, Sekhmet, and all my other guides for my Spouse Uppsen, my ex-spouse Charles and my children Chevin, Kaiden, Quinn, Mckenna, Keenan, Ema, Kealamauloa, and King-Kai (and the one I lost Airiana).

I also want to thank the following: Omasha, Helma, Barbara, Kim, Jeff, Sonia, Ashleigh, Gabbi, Ang, Tai, Stacey, Kearsta, Cami, Pawel, Gary, Lois, and in loving memory of my father Christopher K and my aunt Marrie, and Opasha, And any person including all my siblings (Kristy, Chad, Jessica, Jessyca, Josh, Efren, Veronica, Aurora, Jim, Candy, Sophia, and all the others already mentioned) nieces, nephews, uncles, aunts, and cousins and anyone who has ever touched my life to include all my clients, this book is dedicated to you.

May we all awaken to our light, carry our true essence and carry peace forward on this planet.

Note: This book is a guide only and is not to be used to replace any medical professional advice you may receive from your doctor. Always work on your health from all perspectives. Sometimes healing is accepting your circumstance.

Author Introduction

I went into a deep meditation where Mother Mary took me back to the age of 4 years old. She showed me how I saw spirits running around and how I lived alongside the Ascended Masters. She then showed me how the fears of others started to put energetic blocks around me. When I would talk to spirits, I was told I was talking to the lamp or talking to a jacket hanging on the edge of the bed. I remember fighting the blocks, having full conversations with spirits, and being told it was something else. To save myself from being completely lost or isolated, temporary energetic blocks were placed around me. One by Mother Mary, who said, Don’t worry, child, I’ll be back to remove this block when you are ready. I continued to see spirits, but I did not talk to them as much.

I still remember being eight years old, and spirits would chase me around the house. I remember being afraid to tell others because I did not want anyone to think I was crazy. Of course, my cousin Jeffery new as I shared much of my experience with him and my so-called odd ideas. When I was 11 years old I remember lying in bed and a female voice talking to me from above, giving me messages about my recently deceased grandfather. I remember the fear I had that if I continued this behavior people may see me as being odd or crazy, so I asked her to stop coming to me because I needed to stay sane or what I thought was sane in this 3D world. Again, this was Mother Mary, and she put another veil over me and said, Dear child, do not fear, I will remove this when you are ready.  I stopped seeing and hearing spirits after that conversation, but I never stopped feeling them. I read books like The Celestine Prophecy by James Redfield and any books that talked about energy work or spirit work, which helped me feel like I was not alone. Years later, Mother Mary kept her promise and removed each of these veils that no longer served me; she also helped me remove other blocks of fear placed on me by so many people who feared my connection to the spiritual world.

So many people were robotic and lived day-to-day with no purpose or understanding of the self, and I did not know how to fit in. I searched by going to every type of church hoping to feel connected to angels, spirits, and Gods Vibration, but I often felt the church was not where I belonged. Then one day, I walked into a church, and I heard a voice say, This is not the place for you. I struggled for years with this and continued to search in churches, books, and people for my life purpose and spiritual connection. Until one day, I finally understood what the voice was saying.

One night when I was 14 years old, I had a significant dream in which I was walking around a temple. This temple was on a hill, and it glowed like the sun. Each step had its own sound, each curve had its own light, and every breath of air had sacred geometry. The temple was already so intense with light and vibration that when a spirit walked out of the temple, people started to fall to their knees, it was as if the vibration radiating from this spirit was so powerful that no human could stand in its presence. I tried to stay standing, but the power was so intense I fell to my knees into a bowing position, as I was facing the ground I saw a pair of feet and a hand reaching for me, I looked up and saw Jesus, he took my hand and said You belong with me. He explained to me that my life purpose is to help remind people of their divine light, and to do that, I could not be tied to one religion but to all. Finally, I could breathe; I had an answer to why I felt like I did not belong. Of course, I still struggled with life going from one abusive relationship to the next and struggled with my own behavior. I pushed my gift away and decided to experience the repeated pain of life until I decided it was enough.

I joined the military at 20 years old and continued to read books on energy, went to school for therapy, and worked at a prison in California as a volunteer to help inmates find their light and self-worth (of course, I would not have named it that back then). After a divorce, I moved back to Utah in 2003 and worked in the active military until I joined the police force in 2007.

I continued reading about energy work, feeling spirits around, and kept it all underground because of the fear of not only being perceived as crazy but being crazy. Of course, it did not help that my spouse at this time would tell me it is all in my head, while in the same breath saying he bragged about it. Then came 2009, my aunt Marrie passed away at the age of 52. She believed in angels and fairies but did not speak much about it to me back then. She had fairy statues in her home and a picture of her guide on the wall. Her passing was challenging, to say the least. In 2010 I started to practice Reiki and became Reiki 1 and 2 Certified. When taking Reiki, I found out that my grandmother was also certified as a Reiki practitioner, and her sister in Holland was a Reiki Master. She said she never shared because she did not want people to see us as odd.

2011 was a hard year, and it was the year my father got sick and ended up going to the hospital, only to pass away a few months later. If you knew my father, you understood his love for music, his passion for singing, and his love for his children. He had a hard life of addiction, which was hard for everyone; I still remember my sister and me at a very young age searching his house for drugs and drug paraphernalia. Until one day, it was gone. I was told he stopped using it because we would not let him, and he did not want us to keep seeing him that way. From that point on, his addiction became solely alcohol. Eventually, this is what took his life. During his life, my dad carried a lot of shame and guilt, often not looking anyone in the eye. He had to process this pain during his death experience. I share my story:

I woke up in the middle of the night, having a psychic attack. For those who know me, this is not a surprise 😊. (For those of you who do not know what a psychic attack means, its similar to a panic attack, but with ears ringing, and energy flowing everywhere.) I went and made sure all my family was breathing and spiritually checked in with other family members. Knowing that my distant sister Kristy could be healthier, I sent her light. I asked my guides if I needed to listen, and then as I laid in bed, I said, love you, dad.

Even though you have passed, you comfort me in the middle of the night; you remind me life is what we choose to make it. We can make it short, long, full of happy experiences, love, or hate. You remind me of my healthy support system and let me know it's ok to love others and still have boundaries.

You remind me of your favorite holidays of Halloween...Christmas merry, and Irish traditions.

Today is your birthday, and in a few days is your Deathday. I remember the last birthday I saw you. You were just blue coded back to life. You asked me what day it was, and you were disappointed you did not die, only because you knew it was your time and why not die on your birthday. More importantly, you decided to come off life support so you could talk. The only thing you wanted to say to your family was, I love you.

You told me just a few days prior after your other death experience: that life, if even a struggle, has a purpose. We just forget to embrace our purpose. You told me to embrace that I was a spiritual seer, so I embraced it. While some question it, many more support me, and I thank you for honoring me even as you were ready to part this world. As in your name Christopher K (king) O’Brien I acknowledge you by giving our 8th child your middle name.

King-Kai Downes, as he will be king of the ocean. A Pisces ready to serve this world as our other 7. Chevin serves to experience the emotions tied to the world, Kaiden, a warrior of emotions, Quinn advocating for change, McKenna embracing beauty within, Keenan loving beyond measure, Ema loving flowers and people, and Kealamauloa embracing Mother Earth.

All my children, just as all of you, have a purpose. Just as my dad said, find yours, embrace it and let all past shame go, as holding onto it does nothing but hold you back, and embracing it pushes you forward.

I love you all, as my dad Christopher King O'Brien loves you from the heavens.

Don't let people die in vain, instead, embrace what they teach us. I share with you one of the last conversations I had with my father in 2011.

Dad: Brandee I saw God!

Me: I believe you.

Dad: No, I really saw God.

Me: I know.

Dad: I was told I was worth it, that my life had purpose. Look at you and my other kids. I taught you who you are and could be. Embrace who you are.

Me: I believe you dad.

Dad: You're supposed to be a medium.

Me: I just smiled and said okay.

What keeps me going is knowing that everyone has a purpose. With this, I decided to honor my father by accepting my own gifts, hoping that I won't let him or the heavens down. You are all worthy, and all have a purpose. See it, believe it, and know it. Our purpose may all be different, but they all have to do with love, compassion, balance of the 3D shadow (ego), and life. Embracing the light and dark.

Kristy Lotte, Jessyca Brown., and Josh Brown. I love you all, as we have the same father. Regardless if I've seen you, I think of you every day. I know in life, we have boundaries, busy schedules, and choices, and I accept that. But remember, regardless, I love you and send love your way every day.

Happy birthday dad.

The pain of losing my dad was challenging, but in the same breath, he is the one who put me back on track leading me to my life purpose of being a seer. This was when many of my awakenings, and inner truths started to come, and I stepped into the woman I am today and will be in the future.

I was stuck in a depressive state for several months in 2018. A place where I felt there was no escape, and I had no logical reason to feel this way, which made it more confusing. During this time, some of my close friends, to include Ashely Dale and my sister Sonia Morales, gave me some perspective on the situation. They said I needed to experience this 3D world in a state of depression and to embrace it, and by doing so, I would help others, including my children. Of course, I wanted to argue but knew they had a point I would understand later. 

The deep depression did give me a better understanding of how to help my clients and tools to help my children.

At first, I did not want to hear that I needed to sit in the depression, or that I needed to embrace it, because it was not comfortable. I did not like it, not one bit.  This place had no explanation, had no reasoning, had just ugliness all around. It was a place of no control, and a place of no escape, so I thought.

On August 26th, 2018, one of my children Keenan (who was nine at the time), said we should watch a movie called Arrival. This show was about a psychic who could see the future, but learned she was living in multiple dimensions. The aliens showed her how her gift was to see time as they do on a multifunctional level, and not on a linear level--how humans see it.

During this or after watching this movie, I drove to work and had an aww-ha moment. I realized that even as a young girl, I never liked being in the 3D world. I lived closer to spirit, to energy, and the heavenly realm (well at least the parts no one talks about)—no wonder people thought I was odd.

While growing up, there was a lot of physical, emotional, and sexual abuse, and it caused a lot of pain, confusion, and unnecessary connections and unhealthy relationships. I had a lot of healing to do, which helped me prep for being a parent, a wife, a co-parent, a seer, an intuitive therapist, a leader, and the ability to write this book.

My escape during the process was reading books about energy, trying to understand the underlying work of Jesus and why he picked me to guide others (and millions of others), and learning as much as possible in the spiritual realm. I never liked being entirely in the 3D but knew from a young age that my purpose was to help others awaken to their internal light. I am happy with my life purpose, and the more I awaken, the more comfortable I am in embracing the 3D, even though there are some days that are very uncomfortable. Some days I am overwhelmed with sadness seeing all the pain people carry.

When I was pushed into this depression, I was hoping the dark place was teaching me how to be a better spiritual healer, wife, mother, therapist, and supervisor for others. It was not a comfortable state of being as I often felt like I was locked in a box. Living in this dense space for months helped me understand why people want to leave. What kept me going was the part of life I enjoyed and knowing that if I left before my time, I would come back. It makes me realize why staying, learning, experiencing, and completing my purpose to the end is faster than repeating. I’m not going to lie; there were situations that happened multiple times to me on this 3D planet, and not stopping to learn, understand, and grow prolonged my pain in that experience. Sometimes what we think is comfort is led by fear that keeps us stuck in a negative state of mind longer than needed.