Lord, Help Me!

By Charity Dockery

This highly personal part-memoir part-self-help book will take you through the author's journey of first turning away from God, and then coming closer to Him. It is a story of vulnerability and honesty. She hopes to show readers in a rocky relationship with God how she was able to establish her strong foundation of faith. Along the way she share

• Language: English
• Publisher: Palmetto Publishing
• Release date: Nov 4, 2020
• ISBN: 9781649902429

Charity Dockery

Charity Dockery is a Licensed Vocational Nurse (LVN) with a degree in science. After starting her blog, www.charityfaithlove.com, she felt a need to share her story with a wider audience and show how great God really is. She believes He put this book in her heart as a reason to start writing, and it has flourished ever since. Charity grew up in La Grange, Texas, and currently resides there with her husband and children. Her favorite hobbies are writing for her blog, enjoying time outside with family, and watching movies

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INTRODUCTION

Well, here is my moment. This is the time I am supposed to make you think this book is perfect for you and that you should buy it immediately. This is my attempt to convince you that this book is more intriguing than that bestselling book that everyone is talking about. I apologize. I am not the best at writing a killer introduction; I realize that. However, I think you will learn something from this even if it’s just a small piece of information. There is only so much I can say to persuade you to continue to keep reading, but I can tell you that God put this book on my heart to share with the world. I have gone through plenty of triumphs and tribulations in just a short time of my life, and I feel that my mistakes and decisions have put me in the amazing place that I am in now.

God has shown me so much through the years and, more recently, tested my strength in the past few months. Between life experiences and the Bible, I have grown one thousand percent more in my faith and hope that you can do the same. The stories in the Bible have shown me what normal humans they were and how we still compare to a book that sends us back thousands of years. It has made me feel so much better about myself after learning how people who knew Jesus and watched His work still doubted Him; not that it’s good to doubt Him, but we are human, and that’s how our brains work, unfortunately. We want answers; we want to see the thoughts and actions played out, and we do not want to have patience for Him to do those things. We are going to experience doubt, pain, frustration, anxiety, and hurt. It is up to us how we apply that to God’s word and allow that to transform our minds into what God wants for us. I have had a lot of different things through life that have challenged me and my faith to its very core. I have felt so belittled and so unworthy that I have had nowhere to go but to God. I have had days I did not feel like a Christian, doubted God, and just didn’t want to pray anymore. I have had things happen to me I did not understand and still do not understand to this day. God’s grace and mercy have brought me through all of it. But it took me seeking Him to find what I have been missing. We all have our own stories to tell, and some do, and others keep them to their selves. I am not saying either is right or wrong, but I think you should consider the things God has gotten you through and how that can really change someone else’s life; they might need the push you can give them. I have chosen to share some of my stories in hopes that they will change something in you and show you just how easy it is to let go of your situations and let God intervene. You will never feel completely whole until you surround yourself with Jesus and God’s word. Your decisions matter. Your choices matter. What you choose to do today and ten years from now all matter and will make an impact on your life.

So, what will you do? Will you continue to go through this life suffering with pain and anger? Will you continue to be hardheaded and think you know everything? Do you remain skeptical of what God can do in your life? Or will you let God take over and give you the peace you deserve? After years of fighting and confusion, I came to the point that God took over for me, and He gave me the greatest joy and happiness I could ever experience. God will always give the opportunity for you to share these same experiences, but ultimately, will wait for your pursuit. I think we forget that His hand is extended to us every day and night. He is our father and wants to be there for us; He wants to know how our days went; He wants to know what we are feeling, if someone hurt us, and how we need His help. So many of us think that, since He is God, He should already know that information. I hear you, but don’t you think our parents know when we are upset, know when we need a hug, and make us feel better after explaining and talking it through? God is the same way. He needs us to be vulnerable with Him and share our bad days so He can help us through it and give us the hug we need. Once I chose to completely let go of being stubborn—thinking that I knew everything and that my plans for myself were better—I was given a sense of peace and was more willing to give all my worries to Him. That day, I finally sat down on my bed in a dark room, sobbing, and said, Lord, help me!

I pray that you will be able to increase your faith with God after reading this book. I hope you are able to dive into this book and refer to the Bible for the answers you have been searching for. I pray that you let God’s word wash over you and allow new opportunities for you. You deserve peace, love, and hope to get you through your day; only God can give you these things. I pray that you ask God to show you how to be more of a disciple of Christ and how to teach others about His great work in your life. I pray that you can be an influence on others and show them how to be open about Jesus and not allow it to feel like a foreign conversation. I challenge you in the days to come to have a friend or two that you can open up to about Jesus and with whom you can study His word, even if it’s just a random text about something you read in the Bible that intrigued you.

For where two or three have gather in My name, there I am with them (Matthew 18:20 [NIV]).

He is right there, guys; He just needs us to gather and allow Him to come into our homes and restore our broken sin.

You can do all things through Christ who strengthens you (Philippians 4:13 [NIV]).

Go forth and move mountains, my friends.

CHAPTER ONE

The Beginning

I remember sitting in my bathroom with my aunt next to me, waiting. I could hear the clock ticking in my head. Not that there was a physical clock in the bathroom, but I could hear each second go by. I felt that minutes took hours; then, finally those two blue lines popped up. The test said to wait five minutes for results. Yet, after just a few moments, it was already positive. I immediately started crying. My aunt stared at the test, making sure it was actually accurate and not just accidently showing two lines. All I could think was, This can’t be true! Is it broken? She started asking common questions: Did you not use protection? Did you think it was not going to happen? Your mom is waiting out there for an answer…

The whole time, I was crying and texting my boyfriend to let him know that the pregnancy test was positive. He was as accepting as a sixteen-year-old boy could be when finding out he was going to be a dad. We were both unsure what to do. How were we going to take care of a kid? We were too young to live together, and we had to finish school. I was so confused, because this shouldn’t have happened to me. (I was aware of many girls having sex, yet none of them were pregnant.) Why did I have to be different? Maybe they were