Rhythm and Greens: Professings of a Prison Poet
By Evan Sachs
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Since he was just a toddler, the author was identified as having a special gift of intelligence. As a student he excelled in school, and was known by all as a smart, funny boy with a quick wit and a shy manner. Then one day he shocks an entire community by attacking an innocent child in a local video arcade. No one would have suspected that he w
Evan Sachs
Evan Sachs holds a degree in Psychology from the University at Albany. He is currently incarcerated at Clinton Correctional Facility in New York State. Rhythm and Greens is a collection of poetry about prison, remorse, mental illness, life, and his determination to heal himself and someday to live a better life.
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Rhythm and Greens - Evan Sachs
From the Author
I’m told this book needs an introduction, but I’m going to try to keep it brief. I believe the poems speak for themselves.
I’m in prison now, serving a 14-year sentence for attempted murder. On October 8, 2010, I walked into an arcade at a shopping mall and stabbed an eight-year-old boy five times. I’ve been asked why I stabbed a child. I promise you that no answer to that question could ever satisfy. I should also clarify that this was my only act of violence. No one other than me could see it coming. I was in treatment for mental illness.
That night, I became a monster. I have not forgiven myself for what I have done, and if I can convince anyone contemplating taking such an action I tell you now: DON’T! I’m not the monster I thought I was. Now I consider myself to be a recovering monster,
and this book is helping me in my recovery. I hope the poetry here will stand as a testament to the need for anyone who is troubled by their actions or by their thoughts to find a productive outlet, and that it serves as an example of what can be accomplished by using introspection to transform your darkness into light.
An explanation about the title of this book: Inmates in New York wear green.
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SEA OF GREEN
My life consists of somber fits
And television, television, television, television
Day by day in every way
Is repetition, repetition, repetition, repetition
Yeah, it’s true, I’m getting what I’m due
Yeah, I know, I’m reaping what I sow
But I’m only human, hence the err
Forgiveness my sincerest prayer
Redemption in my fondest dreams
And a life no more than what it seems
My sanity has been in question for nearly a decade
I’ve diagnosed myself as everything from Paranoid Schizophrenic to MPD
Divided myself into Red, Yellow, and Green
I had all these charts and graphs
Now I laugh about it
But every now and then I doubt in the realness of my experience
The incidence of coincidence just feels of insincereness
Subjective and objective reality are the same, discuss
Use a slide rule and astral projection if you must
Oh dear, I’ve gone terribly off track
My life’s imbued with sobering truth
And fantasy, fantasy, fantasy, fantasy
Every night I take the flight
Of can it be, can it be, can it be, can it be
Yeah, I guess, I simply need a rest
Yeah, I’m sure, I’ve said this all before
But I’m only human, hence the ennui
The weight of what I’ve done on me
The burden that I placed on him
The wages of my vice and sin
My intelligence has always been a given
I’m not trying to brag, I’m just saying
Even at the lowest of my self-esteem, I know I’m bright
It’s those intangibles in which I’m slight
Street Smarts,
which I lack in spades
Explain the choices that I’ve made
Not to say excuse,
fuck no!
Never would I say it’s so
I’ve always felt my skills were useless
And damn if what I’ve done don’t prove this
My life’s replete with bittersweet
And loneliness, loneliness, loneliness, loneliness,
All the time I see what’s mine
It’s only this, only this, only this, only this
Yeah, it’s hard, to live a life apart
Yeah, it’s tough, and still I get enough
But I’m only human, hence the hunger
The need to leave the roof I’m under
To sail away to part unseen
Across the teeming Sea of Green
HOUSE OF WAX
There was a boy named Kevin Wax
Who had a pair of special cats
Gravy was so sweet and plump
Such a fuzzy, furry lump
Splurge was quite the firebrand
Bit the leg if not the hand
Kevin also had two brothers
One was older; one was younger
The eldest son of Wax was Max
Mastered circuits and syntax
Seth, the family’s youngest boy
Theater was his greatest joy
That just leaves the parent team
Dad Nathaniel, Mom Brandine
Brandine handled pressure well
Hated Daryll, boss from Hell
Nathan hated and despised
Anything unorganized
Kevin had a bestest pal
Fellow by the name of Cal
Their childhood was spent together
Through the worse, but more the better
Cal had Kevin friend-surrounded
Kevin tried to keep Cal grounded
Their families did support the other
Cal was as the fourth Wax brother
Kev was never out of place in
Mack and Trudy’s child’s basement
To this day they keep in touch
Miss each other very much
Cal is living overseas
Acclimating there with ease
Say of Calvin what you will
He is quite adaptive still
Kevin, well I think you know
He ain’t got nowhere to go
Kevin’s regrets number none
Growing up the Waxes son
With his siblings and his friends
He would do it all again
Not, of course, that other bit
That is something separate
Something bigger in a way
Than how we’re raised or DNA
Call it fate or destiny
What has been is meant to be
He would like to represent
That this, to him, is excrement
But I know him very well
He believes it I can tell
More precisely he would say we all have will that’s free
Though perhaps we’re choosing from a small decision tree
And even if his happened to have borne a bitter fruit
He would say his tree was free of poison in the root
THE GREAT WALL
It’s funny and this is true
Years ago, I thought hopefully of being locked away
I envisioned more of an institutional setting
Nothing to do but roam in my robe
Fingertips lightly brushing the sterile, white walls as I go
No responsibility
No need to even say a word
There’d be talk of Crazy Sachs
Staring into space, wandering wordlessly
Much of this has come to pass
The walls are green and I’m a bit more verbose
But there is that talk
And not much is asked of me besides being seen not heard
I offer this anecdote
For it is the second biggest example in my life
Of the difference between fantasy and reality
Novelty fades fast
Occasionally instantaneously
Expectation begets exaggeration
Excitation leads to exasperation
All in all, between dreams and evil schemes should be a Great Wall
Mine was more an invisible fence
I passed through and was aghast to view the consequence
Slashed through thick vines for a sick crime
I was them first two pigs
Dicking around with straw and twigs
Unhinged when the wolf blew in
hit bricks because the walls were too thin
You can’t always get what you want
But if you try sometimes, you might find
What you want isn’t what you get once it’s got
Now you have to lie down in an unmade cot
Ruin, subvert
Cause one to hurt
Feel lower than dirt
That’s it in a nutshell
Just swell I’m in a jail cell
Bars make for a fine wall
Look, not touch at all
Plan how to build
With my unskilled
Hands that killed
Nearly
THE WANDERER
Wandering and wondering at all that’s possible
I slipped and fell by carelessness and landed in a hole.
Upon the haze of coming to, I squinted toward the sky
(As there appeared the Demon King, to tell me how I’d die)
"First comes the thirst, then comes the hunger,
next comes the pain as I tear you asunder.
The rest of your days shall be spent in the hole,
and at Death’s sweet embrace I’ll collect of your soul."
I frowned and cursed the hands of fate that made such rotten luck
to be supine and motionless and so severely stuck,
And still as if that’s not enough, on top of everything;
to have somehow incurred the wrath of Za the Demon King.
Taking stock of muscles that could oh so slightly move.
I hoped to find by hook or crook a something I could do.
I thought although upon my back I couldn’t pass the test
I might have half a prayer were