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Therese Estacion survived a rare infection that nearly killed her, but not without losing both her legs below the knees, several fingers, and reproductive organs. Phantompains is a visceral, imaginative collection exploring disability, grief and life by interweaving stark memories with dreamlike surrealism.
Taking inspiration from Filipino horror and folk tales, Estacion incorporates some Visayan language into her work, telling stories of mermen, gnomes, and ogres that haunt childhood stories of the Philippines and, then, imaginings in her hospital room, where she spent months recovering after her operations.
Estacion says she wrote these poems out of necessity: an essential task to deal with the trauma of hospitalization and what followed. Now, they are demonstrations of the power of our imaginations to provide catharsis, preserve memory, rebel and even to find self-love.
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Phantompains - Therese Estacion
FIRST EDITION
Copyright © 2021 by Therese Estacion. All rights reserved.
No part of this publication may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, including photocopying, recording, or any information storage or retrieval system, without permission in writing from the publisher.
Library and Archives Canada Cataloguing in Publication
Title: Phantompains / Therese Estacion.
Names: Estacion, Therese, 1983– author.
Description: Poems. | Text in English; includes some text in Visayan.
Identifiers: Canadiana (print) 20210105895 |
Canadiana (ebook) 20210106271
ISBN 9781771666862 (softcover) | ISBN 9781771666879 (EPUB)
ISBN 9781771666886 (PDF) | ISBN 9781771666893 (Kindle)
Classification: LCC PS8609.S73 P53 2021 | DDC C811/.6—dc23
The production of this book was made possible through the generous assistance of the Canada Council for the Arts and the Ontario Arts Council. Book*hug Press also acknowledges the support of the Government of Canada through the Canada Book Fund and the Government of Ontario through the Ontario Book Publishing Tax Credit and the Ontario Book Fund.
Cover artwork by Marigold Santos: shroud in threadbare light 1 (detail), 2020, acrylic on canvas, courtesy of the artist
Design and typesetting: Lind Design
Type: Mundo Serif, Tungsten and Trade Gothic Next LT
Book*hug Press acknowledges that the land on which we operate is the traditional territory of many nations, including the Mississaugas of the Credit, the Anishnabeg, the Chippewa, the Haudenosaunee and the Wendat peoples. We recognize the enduring presence of many diverse First Nations, Inuit and Métis peoples and are grateful for the opportunity to meet and work on this territory.
To my parents—Jose and Maria Theresa
To my sister—Ann
To Ipo—Olivia
To L—Ezra
She is too raw to be cooked
—Herminia Meñez
As uncomfortable as vomiting is,
it can be very instructive
—Deng Ming-Dao
Contents
Copyright
Dedication
Epigraph
Abat/Monsters
Agta
Duwende
Afloat
Tianak
The White Lady of the Philippines
Aswang
Blood and Absence Flows
Ancho
Lady of Sorrows
Ama&Apo
Smoke Struck
Tito Joey
Elegy for Ang Kong
Staying Present
Got Sick
Pee
Iron Body
Coma Dreams
Hands
The Amputee by the Magnolia Tree
The ABG (Able-Bodied Gaze)
Report on Phantompains
ICU I
ICU II
ICU III
A Task
Thinking about things again:misery during leg amputations month
Eunuched Female
EF I
EF II
EF III
EF IV
EF V
Resources/Sources
Acknowledgements
About the Author
Colophon
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Once upon a time the spectacle A young woman flatlined herself into oblivion Seemingly so Really she became the subject A body made machine-dependent, tube down her throat her holes sliced and closed lines for the drip taped to her skin Organ removed Her body was dead dying then automatic pilot One time they brushed her tender gums so hard her mouth bled
Another time they would not let her speak to her mother father sister anyone Apparently she needed sleep Still she forced