Daddy, This Is It. Being-with My Dying Dad
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My father lived an inspiring End of Life, a journey of courage, sorrow, wonder and assurances of Eternal Love. And before he passed, he encouraged me to share the story of his transition with you.
Learning he had metastatic cancer, Dad faced that fact by choosing to live fully for the rest of his days. When cancer treatments beat him down, he rallied by setting small physical goals and systematically beating them. Time and again, his doctors preserved the human body where the tumors grew with new methods of treatment, until there was nothing more they could do to prevent the inevitable.
When he heard there were no more medical options, Dad was shocked. He didn't feel like dying. He felt full of life and longing to live. He was angry and sad, disappointed and confused, scared and brave, unaccepting and, finally, accepting. With courage and amazing grace, he lovingly prepared our family for his passing. As our time together came to an end, I was grateful to be present.
Although death is an inevitable part of life, how we choose to be-with the dying and the bereaved is up to us. I encourage you to prepare and to embrace the possibility of a lovingly supported transition and, to that end, include some resources that may help you. Being ready to be-with is a wonderful way to live.
Julie Saeger Nierenberg
Julie Saeger Nierenberg is a freelance writer, lifelong educator and artist. Inspired by the experience of her father's dying and death, Julie published a short memoir about her family's grief and loss. Daddy, this is it. Being-with My Dying Dad launched a true journey of connection and transformation, as Julie reached out to share it with those who assist the dying and bereaved. Following that memoir's publication, Julie received numerous end-of life stories from others. Some of these are available in Journey's End: Death, Dying and the End of Life, the 2017 anthology of over 50 perspectives on the topic. Writing and publishing in this heart-led direction, Julie hopes to contribute to a cultural shift in how we prepare and support others in the final chapter of life. Julie now helps to facilitate others in choosing and documenting their end-of-life plans using the Before I Go Solutions method.
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Daddy, This Is It. Being-with My Dying Dad - Julie Saeger Nierenberg
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Farewell, Dear Father
The light beings are gathered now
In that place beyond dimension
That place we cannot know, but know awaits
Gathered they are to receive you at journey's end
Welcoming you now, in the ecstasy of death
Bathing you in the pure light of absolute peace
Blessing you with the comfort of release from all burdens
Farewell, dear father, farewell
Those whom you've left now grieve at our loss
Yet know that our hearts are cleansed by those salty tears
And we will go on loving
Sustained indeed by the love of God
So faithfully expressed by you
Farewell, dear father, farewell
Though you have passed into the light beyond
The eternal light that shined through you
Will never be forgotten
Peace be with us, as it is with you
May we too know the eternal comfort
Of resting in the arms of God
Farewell, dear father, farewell
By Louis C. Saeger, April 28, 2012
Prologue
As I read each word, I felt a strong response to a Tough Love
email from blogger Craig Ballantyne of Early to Rise fame. To paraphrase his powerful message, When we refrain from doing our best, and from succeeding at our goals, we hurt others.
For some of us, there is a selfish reason why we hold back:
We protect ourselves from the criticism of others.
When we delay the actions we need to take to succeed, because of perfectionism or procrastination, we may not realize the consequences of our doing so. By postponing, or failing altogether to complete our project, we withhold its potential benefit from others. Craig’s message really spoke to me. In fact, it yelled and motivated me to resume-to-completion this project.
A few days ago, a friend called our home to confirm that he received our recent voicemails. He delayed answering, he explained, because he’d been holding his dad’s hand, being at his side, as his father prepares to die. Our friend said,
"Birth is such a joyful and beautiful process.
It’s a real shame that death can’t be like that.
Or at least, it’s not like that for my dad, for us."
But it can be, I thought. As his painful words echoed in my heart and head, I felt unprepared to voice my feelings about the experience of death. Though I am not living within the same paradigm that our friend and his dad share, I do believe that death can be a beautiful event, and that a life can be celebrated with joy at its end in a way that honors and nurtures the dying and the bereaved.
A third message came to me a few days prior to these calls-to-action. My tale may seem rather silly to some readers, and that’s okay with me, as silly is a divine gift just like any other perspective. Try to imagine the way it happened for me.
While riding on a streetcar, my gaze drifted to the wall under the window where a sign jumped out at me:
KEEP ARMIN
Keep Armin? That’s my dad’s name—Armin. He’s messaging me from the Great Beyond! Could my dad be reminding me to keep him front and center, to keep the promise that I made to him to write his story, our story, and share it with others? I took this message to heart, feeling its nudge, and I eventually got the Aha to KEEP [my] ARM IN when sitting near the streetcar window. It took me a minute or two to get that second meaning.
Now I invite you to enjoy our story and celebrate the worthiness of its telling.
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I miss you, Daddy.
Daddy, I promised you I would continue the story, your story and our story, after you could no longer write. Today is the day I start.
In those moments between your last breath and my realization that it was, I felt many things—pain, sorrow, relief, surprise, wonder—all imbued with so much gratitude and peace that your struggle to live and to die at the same time was over.
It’s been three weeks, and I handled them pretty well for the most part, until yesterday. That’s when I melted down. That’s when it truly hit me that I will never know another love like yours, another bond like ours, another unconditional space where I grow and flourish without demands or expectations, with boundless acceptance, unceasing encouragement and a shared history that