God … On Life: A Personal Conversation

By Dr. John Darland

Channeling and automatic writing has connected us with universal wisdom for hundreds of years. Gifted and enlightened souls have brought messages of peace and love from the source of all life. Joseph Smith and Joseph Benner in the 1800s and 1900s, Jane Roberts and JZ Knight in the ‘60s and ‘70s, and contemporaries like Lee Carroll, Neale Donald Walsch and Geoffrey Hoppe all share a common belief: We can each have a personal conversation with our higher self.

In God … on Life, author Dr. John Darland chronicles eighteen years of conversation with his higher self. It includes discussions about life events such as job loss, miscarriage, new relationships, death, and the afterlife.

Dr. John Darland describes how everyone can co-create with their God-self the life they desire to live. His higher self even throws in a curveball by suggesting that a single soul can experience multiple lives simultaneously. Begging the question: “Have I met myself already?”

• Language: English
• Publisher: Lulu Publishing Services
• Release date: Oct 9, 2015
• ISBN: 9781483438863

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Part I

God on Purpose

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First Voice

Okay, here goes. I thought I would start my own conversation with my higher self. I’m a bit skeptical, but there’s nothing on TV right now anyway.

It doesn’t matter how it starts, so long as it does. What took so long?

I needed a computer. And I asked for one. And I received one. Thank you.

You’re welcome. But you really didn’t need a computer to start this process.

And there is my first question. Why am I starting this process? What’s this all about?

You’ve wanted to do this for a long time. It has been planned for a long time. You are a messenger, and this is going to be a part of your message.

Or am I just imitating Conversations with God by Neale Donald Walsch?

And what if you are? That would be an amazing book and author to replicate. There was a reason why you were so taken in by his books. It struck you deep, where I am.

Okay, who am I talking to, then?

You are talking to me, your higher self, your God-self. You are connecting to a universal voice.

First, let me run through the obvious rationalizations for this.

By all means.

Since I am a psychologist, the easiest explanation is that I’m just talking with my mind—that is, having a conversation out loud, in the same way everyone has conversations in their heads. This could be regarded as crazy talk by many in my field—possibly a form of disassociation. As a spiritual person, I could just as well say that I’m talking with my higher self.

But you felt the difference a moment ago, didn’t you?

Yes. When I take a moment to think about what I’m going to write, it feels like there is a filtering process—as if my thoughts go through many levels of bias. But when I just let it happen, it is very pure.

Pure energy. That is what it is. If you believed that this interpretation was solely from your mind, you would be wrong. This is the realm of energy, creativity, and the One who is everything. Listen to me, my friend: you are a messenger. You chose to talk to me, and we honor you for that choice. You have the ability to un-filter; to accept what comes to you and what comes through you. You have honorably and wisely accepted the opportunity to come forward.

Anyone reading this would think I was crazy. My psychology colleagues would call it narcissistic.

You see, you just looked away when you were thinking of that term. That is because you were using your little mind, which is different from the larger mind you are using now. Will you continue to work with me? With us?

Yes. But I need continual reassurance.

Are you sure?

Not really. And I probably don’t really know what I mean by reassurance. Just please be patient. This is new for me, and I don’t know what I’m doing.

Of course you do. And this is not new for you. You have been doing it for many years already, just not in written form. Like the time you were driving away from the cemetery, and a little voice inside your head asked you to turn on the radio and tune in to a station to which you normally do not listen. When you did that, you heard a song you had never heard before—a song that sounded as though it had been sent directly from your departed friend. Which it was. You knew your friend was there in that moment. You said, Thank you. And he said, Thank you!

Thank you for that. That is a powerful and cherished memory for me. At the time, it was weird and felt out of this world. It’s amazing how many of those experiences I have had while driving the car.

Why do you think you drive over twice the mileage of the average person? You need to, and you know that. When you are driving, you let your mind handle all the external stimuli. And you let me handle the internal. It is as if your mind is so preoccupied with handling the details of driving that it cannot focus on the bigger picture. It cannot filter the way it is normally intended to. That’s when we have an opportunity to talk. You have had the most brilliant ideas come to you when you were driving. Your best insights have come when you were driving.

But now things have changed slightly, and you have noticed it. You are more worried about driving. You even worry that your worry is going to cause what you are worrying about! What you are experiencing is a change in philosophy. Though you will still experience me while driving, your creative energy is being transferred to another medium—the one sitting in your lap right now.

Do you want to name your new computer? Go ahead, if that makes it feel more personal, but the truth of the matter is I am not in there, and I am not out here. I am in you and outside of you. We are right here, together.

I think that’s enough for the first night. I have some things to do. My life is a bit chaotic right now. I don’t want to suggest this isn’t very important to me, because it is. I just want to take it in small steps at first.

Small steps, big steps—it is all the same. We are all the same. And this is our journey. We have been waiting for this for some time.

Crazy Talk

Knock, knock.

Who’s there?

Me.

Me who?

That’s what I’m trying to figure out.

What are you really wondering about?

The purpose. The reason I’ve started this. The end goal. Whether I’m crazy for doing this and if anybody will think I’m crazy should they ever read this.

The purpose is to help you relax your thinking mind, to give you the opportunity to let your higher creative functions express themselves. You have been having this dialogue for many years inside your head, and it has served you well. Look at your life. You are young, healthy, and educated, and you have a bright future. You have experienced deep love and deep grief. You have come through your young life relatively unscathed, which was the intention. You possess many spiritual insights and have the tools to bring them forth for others. You tell yourself every day: To whom much is given, much is expected.

But the dialogue inside your head can only lead you so far because it is inherently limited. You understand the idea of limitless, and so here you are, beginning to understand and experience the process of an unlimited dialogue. This is a transition; so do not fret about this being the end goal. Not only is that a personal fear that needs to be examined, but it is also irrelevant. You cannot possibly fathom the end goal, so do not worry about it. Just write. Keep writing, for when you write, you are actually meditating. These words may not ever be seen or heard by another human soul. They may all be lost in the blink of an eye with a computer malfunction. Or they may be words that will someday help you or others better understand spiritual development.

Just relax. If it makes you feel better to think that you are simply journaling (as you did when you were younger, and as you have counseled so many others to do), then think of it in those terms. If you think you are actually listening to a particular God, then go ahead and believe that. It does not actually matter, because there is no matter of which to speak. We are all energy. You are simply learning how to communicate with the energy that you are and that you are becoming.

I feel much more relaxed when you are talking. I feel that, in my everyday life, the you talking right now talks more in my head than the me talking right now.

You know better than to separate us like that. But to use your terminology, I feel much more relaxed when you are talking. I feel that, in my everyday life, the you that is talking now is closer to us than ever before.

Let me say this again, and I will repeat this many times: We are One. There is no you or I. There is only One.

When you allow me to come through, you are giving voice to the One. I know this can be difficult to understand, partly because of the dualistic terminology you have learned.

Keep talking, my friend. And keep remembering. This takes much practice and much patience, but in the end you and I will talk like this naturally. Even then, there will be some changes that would seem confusing now. It is appropriate that you hear me more often than not in your current everyday life. I am honored that you have chosen to listen. And you are honored because of your openness to listen.

Thank you for those words. Sometimes you have the ability to completely shut my regular mind off with your responses to my questions. It’s like a part of me knows that you have given me pure truth, and there is nothing more to say. It’s kind of like sitting in awe after watching a powerful movie. My mind has no more questions right now.

Which is a sign that we have made some progress. We want to answer all the questions you have and could possibly come up with. And even then, the communication will not stop. Have faith in this idea. Do not fear any sort of completion. All endings are the beginnings of something new. The goal is to get to the point where you need not ask any more questions, because you already know the answers and trust what you already know. Then you will begin to create the best answers—from the vantage point of this side, so to speak.

At that point, you will know and feel the Oneness differently. You will speak from authority and wisdom, as your mind speaks now. You are a messenger, my friend. Begin to prepare yourself for a fascinating and important journey. You always have choices—and at the same time have already chosen. Choose again, and again, and again until the choice is no longer a choice but a mission. Be a missionary. Be a visionary. And whatever you choose to be, we will always be here with you.

Death Wish

Wow. Twice in one day. I am impressed.

Well, I was inspired. I just finished watching the movie The Shawshank Redemption. God, is that a terrific movie!

Yes it is. Thank you.

I love this line in it: Get busy living, or get busy dying.

Those words have many meanings. They are inspiring because of the dualistic language you have. The truth is, you do not die.

I know that, and that is a topic I would like to get to later. For now, though, I just want to share some of the thoughts whirling around in my head.

For starters, although I love the line just mentioned, I think I now interpret it differently than before. And this is a thought I feel isn’t appropriate for everyone, but here goes anyway: I want to get busy dying. But not in the way presented in the movie. I honestly believe that the way we humans view the world ought to be reversed.

I am so ready to go home. That is somewhat of a scary thought to me because it connotes a death wish. I love living here, but I know that home is there. I honestly believe that I can and have been quite influential there. I wonder how I can be as influential here. So I am truly enjoying living in the moment here but want to be home. Is that crazy?

You are asking more than one question. Let us take this somewhat slowly. In many respects, you are absolutely correct. In others, time and experience will help you come to a slightly different understanding. Yes, most of the views of the people on earth are backward. It is as it should be. There is much to be remembered and experienced. You already understand this well.

With regard to you personally, your goal is not to be as or more influential than you were before you were in your physical form. Do you not need to experience life as well? Is it not different to experience and feel, rather than know and enjoy? You are at a point when your development is certainly on the latter, but to ignore the former would do a disservice to the process. It is more an upward cyclical process than a continuous straight line. Do not rush it. There is timing in everything you do.

I want to go home. I miss the people that went before me in this lifetime. I miss being able to help and communicate without effort. No, I am not suicidal.

That is your mind trying to protect you. You are correct; you are not suicidal in the sense of wanting to escape suffering in your current lifetime. But you do have a life-wish that is stronger than most. So you need to also be careful. There will be times when you are not being particularly productive or influential, as you like to say. Your physical body needs these downtimes as well. You cannot possibly last in a constant state of heightened energy. Your spiritual body needs these times. As already mentioned, you ought to be experiencing life, though these experiences are fundamentally different from many people.

You are coming home, my friend. And you are already home. Home is where the heart is. Your heart knows the