Scarlet's Wolf

By Isabella Doucette

Scarlet's one vice, her preferred means of self-harm is a new tattoo. Scarlet struggles with relationships, as her grandmother's health deteriorates. A story about Mental Health and finding a community of friends.

A demon in my ear.
a whisper of self-doubt.
anxiety on my shoulders
depression claws at my skin.
suicidal thoughts marking me in jagged cuts,
that I cover in a thousand tattoos, my preferred choice of self-harm.
a new tattoo for every eager thought of harm.

Scarlet's wolf is a demon on her shoulder, she will fight it in every moment. As her grandmother struggles with Alzheimer's and she grows close with new friends and a woman who lights her up. Will Scarlet wolf destroy her or will she overcome its wrath?

I live for nothing at all.
more alone, than alive
more wolf, than girl.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Writing Under The Moon Inc.
• Release date: Apr 25, 2020
• ISBN: 9780463985892

Isabella Doucette

Isabella Doucette is a non-binary Author.Isabella grew up with a love for books and a myriad of mental health and disability problems that were apparent to no one besides the family and physicians that treated Isabella. Growing up with dyslexia and learning dysabilitys, migraines that stopped them from daily activities and a single mother on chemo for years. Isabella's writing thrived in the adversaries as they grew inwards like a beautiful plant curling upon itself coiling high upon its own tendrils.Isabella Doucette is a Manitoba Writer Who Garduated CDI College in 2015. After studying Addictions and community service Isabella the Nonbinary Writer worked for several child care facilitys within the government until their disabilitys took a tole and they took time off to recover. Within the next 5 years they published seven books including All That We Are: Stories of The LGBT Community, Finding Home: Colony One and its sequel Indigo Night: Colony One.Isabella founded WritingUnderTheMoon publishing when they decided to independently publish under several pseudonyms. Hero Song one of the names associated with All That We Are: Stories of The LGBT Community and Elliott Findley author of The Colony One series are both pseudonyms of Isabella published under WritingUnderTheMoon Publishing.

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For My Aunty Mary Lue may she rest in peace,

And her wife, my Aunty Margarette.

I love you both.

Scarlet's Wolf

TOC

Chapter one

Chapter two

Chapter three

Chapter four

Chapter five

Chapter six

Chapter seven

Chapter eight

Chapter nine

Chapter ten

Chapter One

I breathe deeply, staring at the tattoo shop across the street. My work in my hands, the sign staring at me. Tattoo Artists Wanted it reads. I breathe. I need this job. Gran is getting worse and I need the money to take care of her. I had been doing decently tattooing people in their homes. My clients liked me.

I don't know why, it's not like I'm an interesting or good person. The wolf whispers in my ear. I try to shut down the intrusive thoughts.

You don't have to go in there, the wolf whispers.

The doctor says it will be good for me, I tell the wolf.

You aren't even that good, it's okay to let's go home curl up in bed, the voice tells me.

I shake it off. I am a good artist.

You really aren't, it tells me.

I close my eyes and push back the voice looking at the stop sign again and I start towards it. Swallowing my fear. I can't tell I am walking, it mostly just feels like my body is moving without me having to do anything. Like I'm drifting along. I hear the familiar tinkle of a bell as the door opens and the wolf in my ear whispers you shouldn't be doing this. He won't like your work. You’re a fraud. Give up now, it's not too late. Just run away. But then it is too late for me to run because he sees me.

Hi, he says, six feet tall and all Hispanic. He grins at me, asking, What can I do for you?

I say nothing for a moment, frozen in fear.

Run, run, the wolf tells me.

No, I say to the wolf, but it is out loud I wince as the wolf tells me just how stupid I am, how I will never get the job.

Job, I say, sounding like I am a child, I take a deep breath and say all at once. Hi, I'm Scarlet. I'm here to apply for the tattoo job. Here is my portfolio.

Cool. Can you do an interview now? he asks and I panic.

Now? I am unprepared right now.

I got this far. I swallow and nod.

Cool. Follow me, he says. I'm Nico, by the way. I have been managing here for about a year and a half, since my last artist did some shit that I am not at all happy with. Got himself arrested. Anyway, so I am looking for a new artist to fill his shifts. We have clients on rotation and Adam and I have our schedules filled, so we need someone ASAP to pick up the slack. So that is a little about this place, tell me about yourself.

Um, I say, unprepared. My mind is screaming at me. I take another deep breath and start. Well, I have been drawing art since I was a kid. My Gran suggested that I get into tattoos a couple of years ago; she got me my first piece when I was 16. I lift my sleeve and show him the two skulls surrounded by roses. She thought it would be a good outlet for me, and I haven't gone back since. Um, here is my portfolio. I have done a bunch of different people's tattoos mostly just whatever, but now I wanted something more stable.

Cool, nice, he says, taking the portfolio. He starts flipping through it as my brain screams at me.

Stupid, stupid, stupid, never going to get hired, dumb, stupid bitch.

So to be honest, I have never had to do an interview before, but you seem chill. So if you want to do a quick tattoo on my arm as a reference for your skill, then I would totally hire you, Nico says.

I stare at him a moment. Really? That is all?

Okay well yeah I guess I should ask, where did you learn? Do you have certifications?

um, okay well when I was 18 I went to Vancouver for 6 months to take a course at ARS institute of Arts where they had a tattooing course, I mostly did it in my spare time and on friends but I was certified to work as a tattooist in Canada. It’s in my profile. Um I’ve never really worked a real job I guess

Nico looks