Alchemical Journey

By Candy Ray

Now available as an eBook, Candy Ray’s popular account of her six past lives, and the times in between them. She has been a demon, a warrior in ancient India, a sacred cat in the time of Moses, a scholar in Medieval England, a witch during the English Civil War and a Quaker in the era of slavery.

The account is a concise summary of many events covering the past five thousand years. It focuses on how the Law of Karma works, and gives insights into some important world events. This edition has added end notes which give more details about consequences in the present day.

(Note: I apologise for an error. The previous cover painting was not by Jusitin K Pitonak but by Christopher M Whitehouse, another painter in the original Aeon chaos magic group. I have just noticed this, and have now changed the cover to one of Jusitn K Pitonak's paintings- Candy Ray April 2021.)

• Language: English
• Publisher: Frond
• Release date: Oct 24, 2019
• ISBN: 9780463274262

Candy Ray

When I was a child I always thought I would become a fiction writer because I wrote so many stories in exercise books. What in fact happened was that for a while I wrote a lot of poems and songs, and then nothing at all for twenty-four years.My consuming interest has always been the occult and psychic subjects, and in 2014 I joined A.E.O.N. a chaos magic group on Facebook. It was described as: "A Unique Art-Magic Collective made up of Highly Creative Individual Rebel Artists: Writers, Graphic Designers, Crafters, Pranksters & Performers. Art Transcends All Reason!"For the sole purpose of contributing to this group, I started to write short stories and novellas. I teamed up with a chaos muse, a non-human entity, and channelled material from her so that we each wrote some of the pieces. Then I began to self-publish the resulting books .The more I learn about the professional writing world the more I am discovering that I don’t have anything in common with them. Therefore, I have now made all my books free on this site.I live on the south coast of England with my small family. The A.E.O.N. art group has faded from prominence now and has been succeeded by newer ones, but still:- Art Transcends All Reason!Other LocationsMy Smashwords interview can now be found on this page https://www.smashwords.com/interview/FrondThe short story collection Chaos Fables is now on this page: https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/1370828I also write under the pen name Lena Chere. The books under this name are the Eoss Trilogy and they are available both as digital books and paperbacks.Volume 1: See this page. https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/890472Volumes 2 and 3. See this page: https://www.smashwords.com/profile/view/lenachere5These two are published by me and are free.

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Alchemical Journey

An account of my previous lives

Candy Ray

Copyright © 2015 Candy Ray

All rights reserved

Cover painting by Justin Kingsley Pitonak

self-published by Frond

Smashwords Edition 2019

Table of Contents

Foreword

The Original Introduction

Chapter 1 Ancient Times

Chapter 2 India

Chapter 3 Egypt

Chapter 4 Heaven

Chapter 5 Medieval England

Chapter 6 The Seventeenth Century

Chapter 7 Hell, and the Planes Near Earth

Chapter 8 The Nineteenth Century

Chapter 9 Summerland

End Notes

Fiction Books by Candy Ray

Foreword

This text has been available as a free PDF since 2015 and it has been quite popular, after being recommended on an occult forum as a document of outstanding value. I have decided to make it into a book now.

There wouldn’t be much point in adding a lot of commentary, as I so scrupulously removed all the comments and speculations from my original hand-written manuscript. It had been lying in a drawer for many years before I published it and I had considerably changed my opinions, which was why I left in only the narrative.

As I said in my original introduction, when I included my present life there were too many occult secrets and too much sensitive personal information about living people. However, I think it would be useful to have a little more information, particularly about how the karmic effects worked out in the present day. So I have added some brief notes relating to each chapter, at the end of the book.

Candy Ray 2019

The Original Introduction

All my life I have come into contact with people who remember previous lifetimes. It seems that I keep being drawn to them. Eventually I developed a passion for studying my own reincarnation memories, and tracing what I see as karmic links that have affected me in the present day. The memories came back in a variety of ways: dreams, feelings of déjà vu in particular places, regression meditations, games I played when I was a child, and once when I was given a blended flower remedy by a healer. I have never had actual hypnotic regression because I am not a good subject for hypnosis, and I doubt that it would be possible for a regression therapist to put me into a trance.

In some ways it was like living in flashbacks, because later memories came back before earlier ones, and the very beginning of the story came last of all. When the beginning did come back it turned out that I had been a demon. If this information had come at the start of my research I would have been pretty upset about it. I have always been very religious, although in what is called an eclectic way. I’ve been through a series of different religions, and nearly all of them are ones that treat other religions as equal alternative paths.

As it was I found out when I had been studying the occult for over twenty years, and it was fine because it cleared up some mysteries and answered many questions. The foremost question it answered was why I kept ending up involved with demons, seemingly against my own wishes, and why no-one came to rescue me as I had been brought up to believe that they would. I have had a few traumas in life as everyone does, but I was not harmed by contact with my own people. Indeed this is still going on now, at the time of writing which is 2015. I thought I had got away from them when I recently spent four years in Pagan religions with the Pagan gods. But then some other entities showed up……

At earlier times when I have written drafts of my autobiography I included my present life, but this time I have elected not to because I always end up relating a lot that is supposed to be secret, and then I start thinking that I cannot publish it after all, and I will have to leave it to some esoteric organization in my will. So I am only going to tell what I remember of my previous lives. I have actually greatly shortened my original account, to leave out unproven speculation about the nature of the cosmos and focus only on what I believe actually happened.

Unlike some of the people I have met, I do not have a visual memory. I cannot remember people’s faces, or what everyday objects looked like. All my memories have a storybook texture, as if I read them somewhere. I believe the reason for this texture is that the last time I lived on the astral plane I had a hobby of going to the symbolic library where the akashic records are kept and reading the records. In spite of this activity I was not born with past life memories, but when the memories did come back gradually they were like a written narrative: one which highlights significant events and describes only the details necessary to understand them.

1. Ancient Times

The first time I was born was as a succubus, a daughter of Lilith the dark moon. She gives birth to the succubi in a symbolic sense only, to enable them to transmigrate into her species. One time in meditation I saw a point even earlier than that, before I had ever been born, and what I saw was a wispy, wafer-thin creature that looked like a moonbeam, and in some sense WAS a moonbeam. This creature was female with long, flowing hair that constantly changed colour, and she belonged to a colony of similar lunar spirits that all lived together. It is almost impossible to imagine what an existence like that would be like, and it seems strange to me that I was lunar because my physical metabolism today is very solar. I feel widest awake at noon and most tired at midnight. But that is what I saw. My impression was that there was no conditioning: no-one had taught us that lunar meant evil or subordinate. That concept did however appear when I was born to Lilith. The Zohar describes how Lilith originated in the moon’s reluctance to diminish herself and be subordinate to the light of the sun. She is a lunar goddess, the dark aspect of the moon.

Actually Lilith has many hundreds of daughters. The nearest equivalent on Earth is ant and bee colonies in which one queen is the mother of all of them, and to a certain extent they have a collective consciousness. So I was not a princess, I was one of a species who are all sisters and all daughters of the queen. However, when I was young I didn’t see them as sisters; I saw them as hundreds of aunts who were all looking after me, all keeping me safe.

Young angels and demons belong to a vast race which is sometimes called the Deva kingdom- that is the name I like to use. This race consists of nature spirits, which feature strongly in folklore as fairies, elves and so forth, and angelic beings which belong to the same species but are more developed. The main difference between Devas and mankind is that Devas have no physical bodies and live in an astral body. They reproduce in the same way as man except that they