Who Best to Tell My Story
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While driving over an icy bridge early one January morning, Monica Johnson slid on a patch of black ice. Her small car swerved uncontrollably, veering into the path of unsuspecting oncoming traffic. As tires squealed and metal collided, Monica’s life was changed forever.
Who Best to Tell My Story is an unforgettable journey into the faith that’s necessary when one’s life seems to veer helplessly out of control. Relying on God and her family, Monica was able to overcome hearing loss, muteness, paralysis, and damage to almost every internal organ, to make a complete recovery. Monica’s providential healing astounded doctors and deepened the faith of everyone who witnessed her miraculous return to ministry, marriage, motherhood, and wholeness. Her story has empowered others who are in need of healing.
Monica M. Johnson
Monica M. Johnson is an inspirational writer and speaker whose victorious life story brings hope and healing to people who have been abused or neglected in some way—physically, emotionally, and/or spiritually. Monica has a bachelor’s degree in business and life coaching. As a holistic life coach, Monica has over twenty years of experience speaking into the lives of men and women. Monica enjoys interpreting for the deaf and teaching sign language. She is a contributor to 365 Meditations for Couples and 365 Meditations for Women. Monica is comfortable interacting with individuals and groups and welcomes the opportunity to speak about empowerment and spiritual issues. She considers it an absolute joy to share with others the conquering power of God’s love—a love that enables us to overcome sin and the struggles of our lives. Monica currently resides in Annapolis, Maryland. She delights in being a mother to her adult son, Walter III, and her three teenagers, Isaac, Lisa-Nicole, and Nábien.
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Who Best to Tell My Story - Monica M. Johnson
Monica M. Johnson
Who Best to Tell My Story
An Unforgettable Journey of Hope and Healing
Smashwords 2019
© Copyright 2019 by Monica M. Johnson
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Table of Contents
Dedication
Introduction: A Story to Tell
1. The Black Sheep
2. Have Mercy on Me
3. How Are We to Return?
4. Listen to Your Father
5. The Raging Storm
6. Raised Up!
7. Point of No Return
8. The Apple of His Eye
9. But Now My Eyes Have Seen You
EPILOGUE: The Storm Is Over
Dedication
For Dad, Mom, and my children.
A season of suffering is a small price to pay for a clear view of God
. (Max Lucado)
Introduction: A Story to Tell
I want you to know, brothers, that the gospel I preached [tell] is not something that man made up. I did not receive it from any man, nor was I taught it; rather, I received it by revelation from Jesus Christ. (Galatians 1:11–12, NIV)
The skies were clear but a storm was brewing—a storm that would change my life forever.
It was early morning. I was driving home from working the night shift at the local hospital, Anne Arundel Medical Center, in Annapolis, Maryland. Only minutes away from my destination, Mama’s house, my car slid out of control on a patch of black ice. As it skidded aimlessly from one side of the bridge to the other, I cried out in desperation: Oh, God, please don’t let me die like this! Oh, no! LORD! Please don’t let me kill anyone!
My hands became entangled as I wrestled for control of the steering wheel, but to no avail. The bumper of the approaching vehicle violently tore into the driver’s side of my car.
Then silence. I heard nothing.
The car came to a complete stop.
And my life was thrown into a whirlwind.
The storm gathered force quickly.
In the shock trauma unit, the emergency medical technicians did all they could to keep me alive. With each minute that passed, my chances of survival decreased. The prognosis was death.
My injuries were numerous: a bilateral collar fracture, a shattered pelvis, a ruptured bladder and spleen, fractured ribs, a torn colon, lacerations to my kidney and liver, and a collapsed lung. My almost-lifeless body was connected to numerous machines and tubes.
People raced about around me. I could see them, but I couldn’t hear a word. And I couldn’t make a sound. My gaze scanned the room, trying to understand it all. Then I closed my eyes to the world. I wondered if it was time to rest forever.
But God, the Father, He was calling me to Himself with a purpose. It was not the call to eternal life. This was not the end but a beginning.
A beginning not yet fully revealed. The end of my life as I knew it.
There was a divine plan for my life, and it would alter any and all plans that I had innocently made for myself. I had never sought guidance from the One who created me. And there were gifts and talents within me that had gone unnoticed. There was greatness and strength within me that I had never tapped into. There was a person inside of me who was hidden and suppressed. I was about to embark on a journey of hope and healing—a journey that would ultimately reveal who I am and why I was created.
We learn and grow through the sharing of our life stories. Although my life story and yours are different, we’re on a similar journey—a journey toward hope and healing, a journey toward God. None of us are sure where the journey will lead. But it’s God’s hope that the journey will ultimately help us grow closer to Him.
Along the way, our individual journeys weave in and out of others’. We all have struggles, trials, and challenges. We all sin. We all have questions about God, suffering, purpose, and destiny. Although my life story is different from yours, it’s my hope that you will be able to relate to my spiritual struggles and apply the lessons I’ve learned to your own life. My intent is to reveal signs
that may help you prepare for, identify, endure, and, with God’s help, overcome the inevitable storms of your own life. I hope to encourage you to know and experience God as never before. To discover the power of God’s Word, which can equip you to live a victorious Christian life—not free from problems but free from spiritual defeat.
I’m extending you an invitation to walk in my shoes for a little while. As you walk with me through this journey of hope and healing, I encourage you to consider your own journey. Together, we will discover the joys and sorrows, the pains and pleasures, the hopes and fears, and the losses and gains of simply living. There are many winding turns on this rough road, but at the end, there is God, there is victory, there is life.
1. The Black Sheep
But you are the ones chosen by God, chosen for the high calling of priestly work, chosen to be a holy people, God’s instruments to do His work and speak out for Him, to tell others of the night-and-day difference He made for you—from rejected to accepted. (1 Peter 2:9, The Message)
Different
I’d always felt different from everyone else. In my mind, there was no doubt that I was adopted. All my suspicions seemed to be confirmed one day when I was twelve. I was sitting on the living room floor of my paternal grandmother’s house thumbing through an old photo album. Something strange fell out—a birth announcement. My birth announcement. I hesitantly read it. There, in bold black letters that seemed raised off the page, was my date of birth: December 22, 1968. We had always celebrated my birthday on December 23.
I didn’t look like any of my siblings. And I was constantly reminded by others outside of the family that I was the black sheep,
the only dark-skinned child.
My brother called me Blackie.
I was plagued with thoughts of being different, even ugly. I associated black with ugly. The name made me see myself as someone rejected, disliked, and stupid.
My sisters were always told that they resembled Mama. No one ever said that about me. Some people said I looked like my daddy, but I couldn’t see the resemblance. Whenever someone told my sisters how much they looked like Mama, they would smile and chuckle sweetly. I imagined it made them feel beautiful and happy. I certainly would have felt beautiful and happy if I were told that. But I wasn’t.
Why couldn’t people hear my cry to be adored? I just wished someone could feel my isolation and tell me something good about myself. Something to make me feel pretty—like a girl, or a princess, even. I didn’t want to be told that I looked like Daddy; he was a man. Even though Mama, with her warm smile, would introduce me as the baby girl,
it wasn’t enough to make me feel I shared in her beauty.
So, I grew up feeling like a tomboy. I climbed trees with the boys and protected my sister. I didn’t like being a tomboy, but it just seemed like the place I fit.
This can’t be true, I thought, as I looked at my birth announcement. We’d been celebrating my birthday on the twenty-third for twelve years. But the truth was right there in my hands. My heart skipped a beat and my eyes widened as I read on to find the names written at the bottom of the announcement. I held my breath for a brief moment and then exhaled with relief. Sylvester and Brenda Johnson. My parents. The tormenting fear was finally gone. I wasn’t adopted.
After that, Mama sent away for a duplicate copy of my birth certificate to have on hand, to remind me that I wasn’t adopted even though I felt different.
The relationship you have with your parents as a child is vital in shaping your destiny, whether you’re the oldest, middle, or youngest. Your early perceptions of your reality have greatly influenced your current reality. My feeling of being different
as a child played a part in shaping my journey. I heard the negative things loud and clear and became defeated in my thinking early on. I was unable to dream big, or even dream at all. I was ready to settle for whatever life had to offer me. I couldn’t finish things that I started; I’d give up easily. I was willing to do without and be last because I thought others were more deserving. I expected few good things. And I anticipated only the worst. I wanted so much to be happy and feel beautiful. I wished that I could say helpful and kind words that others wanted to hear, and to be someone who made a difference in the world. Instead, I felt unimportant, unattractive, and useless.
My Family
When I recall my early childhood years, I think fondly of my father, Grafton Sylvester. Sylvester was one of nine children. His complexion was dark and smooth. He was strong and well built, with legs that bowed slightly. His stance reflected his boldness. Though he would stutter now and then, he always looked me in my eyes, wanting my full attention. His hands were big, firm, and powerful, yet he was gentle when he scolded. Daddy’s discipline brought me a sense of comfort; he disciplined out of love, not anger. Daddy was great, except for one problem: he drank too much. Daddy was an alcoholic.
My mother, Brenda, was the oldest of six children. She was thin and relatively short, with a fair complexion that could almost be mistaken for Caucasian. She had beautiful black hair and sympathetic dark eyes. But it was her hands that really stood out to me. Mama’s hands were soft and warm, and there seemed to be a magic in her touch. Sometimes in the middle of the night, when she was sound asleep in bed with Daddy, I would quietly push their bedroom door open, tiptoe across the floor to her side of the bed, and tap on her shoulder. She’d open one eye.
Mommy, my stomach aches,
I’d whisper. She wouldn’t say a word. Instead, she’d express her thoughts through her countenance and her touch. She’d slowly lift her blanket and shift her body toward Daddy’s side of the bed. This was my invitation to crawl in. Yawning, I’d rest my head on the pillow feeling reassured that Mama was going to rub the pain away. Peace would fill my heart. I don’t know how she did it, but she always made me feel better. She’d place her