An Aspie's Psychosis

By Travis Breeding

Asperger's syndrome is not always what you think. Standing alone Asperger's has been no challenge for Travis. With co-morbid psychosis life has been a nightmare at times. An Aspie's Psychosis is written in two different personalities. The first by a man in the middle of a psychotic episode journaling his every though and feeling. The second from the perspective of a man who is in a time of healing looking back at his psychotic episode and reflecting on it.

Co-morbid psychosis is alarmingly common amongst people with Asperger Syndrome. With extreme social rejections and bullying a primary feature of Asperger's it becomes apparent that there will be co-morbid mental health issues that arise. Travis hears voices. Those voices impact his social skills more than his Asperger's does.

Psychotic breaks can last for long periods of times. With perseveration being a primary feature of autism, it can be hard for someone with the disorder to break free from the psychotic trap. In a recent study it was said that people with Asperger Syndrome often experience hearing voices and having hallucinations and in some cases this is due to the social experience. Travis shares how his hallucinations and voices cause him to focus in on the wrong treatments for autism and obsess over things that otherwise have no meaning outside of psychosis.

This book will bring you inside of the psychotic experience of someone living with autism. As usual this story is told with no filter and comes from the heart of an aspie making it a valuable tool in understanding the co-morbid issues a person with autism might face when encountering psychosis.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Breeding Publishing
• Release date: Dec 16, 2018
• ISBN: 9780463510506

Travis Breeding

Travis is an author from Huntington Indiana how enjoys entertaining and educating through words. He enjoys telling a story and taking it from his mind to paper. He has authored several books on autism, mental illness, schizophrenia, and disability issues. He continues to write about those issues but also explores some fiction writing as well. Travis has a loving family and enjoys spending time with friends and family. He loves to play bingo and meet new people. One day Travis hopes to start a family of his own and give them so much love. Travis would like to thank his readers for supporting him on his journey of becoming an author. He could not have done it without you. If you would like to get in touch with Travis please email him at tbreedauthoratgmaildotcom,

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An Aspie’s Psychosis

Travis Breeding

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Contents

An Aspie’s Psychosis

About the Author

An Aspie’s Psychosis

Many things have happened over the years before being diagnosed with autism and since being diagnosed with autism over the years to make me feel like I am not a real person as an autistic man.

I suppose it is a combination of all those things that have happened or all the experiences I have had through the years that have led me to feel the way I am.

The combination of developing feelings of desiring close friendships and relationships with a female friend along with not feeling like autism therapy services want to help me with that issue have probably led to these feelings.

I have much confusion about well just about everything sexual and sexuality wise. One thing I do know that is a real feeling for me is that I know that I am not a real person and will never be a real person without either having close strong connections with women or becoming a woman myself.

That is why it is so important for me to connect with women. Not only because I think women are beautiful but because I want to be their friends.

Something that is hard for me to understand though is that sometimes if you show that you think women are beautiful too much without connecting with the emotionally you are creepy and when I am creepy that makes me feel like I am a bad person. That also makes me feel like I am not a real person.

Add to that my understanding of emotional connection and I sometimes feel trapped inside of my mind like I can’t get out. I feel I cannot express myself and sometimes I secretly wish that I was non-verbal and had a different kind of autism than just Asperger Syndrome.

At least being non-verbal you cannot say the wrong things. You might be able to do the wrong thing in some way, but you cannot say the wrong things that offend people or upset them or hurt them.

As time has went on my desire for close friendship with women has increased and I sometimes don’t know what to do with those feelings.

It is all a very confusing world for me to live in. I mean take for example the fact that sex is something that we do with someone we love and care about but also then there’s the whole idea that sex is something that we only do with people that we care about in a certain way.

One thing I’ve learned about life and socializing in general as being someone with autism is that context is everywhere. One thing we must be able to do is understand social context and that is where