Faces of Recovery: Treatments that Help PTSD, TBI, and Moral Injury
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Faces of Recovery continues the report on how millions of American soldiers have faced the ultimate dilemma: kill the enemy or risk being killed yourself. As documented in Eric Newhouse’s earlier book, Faces of Combat, PTSD & TBI, each choice traumatizes the brain. The trauma is cumulative — prolonged combat increases emotional and physical injury. This book also describes a newly discovered complication, moral injury. It occurs:
When soldiers are ordered into a conflict they can’t justify morally, but they’re forced to kill others to stay alive. When soldiers feel their chain of command has betrayed or abandoned them.
When they have violated their own moral code, for example by killing civilians to avenge the death of friends.
And when they fail to protect the buddies who have been watching their backs.
Faces of Recovery looks at the steps each vet must take personally to feel accepted again in society. These include forgiveness, making atonement, self-forgiveness, and physical exercise to help the brain reduce depression and anxiety.
Eric Newhouse
Eric Newhouse has earned his reputation as a crusading journalist, winning the Pulitzer Prize in 2000 for a yearlong series of stories about alcoholism. Through personal, in-depth interviews, he has seen the devastation caused by PTSD from the Iraq and Afghanistan wars and the ongoing trauma for veterans from Vietnam and other American conflicts. Newhouse’s crusade is to get the young men and women who have served their country on the battlefields the help that they need... and deserve.
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Faces of Recovery - Eric Newhouse
FACES OF RECOVERY
Treatments that Help PTSD,
TBI, and Moral Injury
Eric Newhouse
ISSUES PRESS
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39129 264th Ave SE, Enumclaw, WA 98022
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Author photo: Larry Beckner, Great Falls (Mont.) Tribune
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Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
Names: Newhouse, Eric, 1945- author.
Title: Faces of recovery : treatments that help PTSD, TBI, and moral injury /
Eric Newhouse.
Description: Enumclaw, WA : Idyll Arbor, Inc., [2018] | Includes index.
Identifiers: LCCN 2018017238| ISBN 9781611580624 (alk. paper) | ISBN
9781611580631 (electronic)
Subjects: LCSH: Post-traumatic stress disorder--Treatment--United States. |
Brain--Wounds and injuries--Treatment--United States. | Veterans--Mental
health services--United States.
Classification: LCC RC552.P67 N4783 2018 | DDC 616.85/212--dc23
LC record available at https://lccn.loc.gov/2018017238
This book is gratefully dedicated
to the courageous combat vets and their families who shared their stories with me in the hope of helping their comrades and forcing reform of the system and
to God, without whom none of this could have been possible.
◊ ◊ ◊
They will beat their swords into plowshares
And their spears into pruning shears.
Nation will not lift up sword against nation,
Nor will they learn war anymore.
— Isaiah 2:4
He (Jehovah) is the Maker of the earth by his power,
The One who established the productive land by his wisdom
And who stretched out the heavens by his understanding.
When he makes his voice heard,
The waters in the heavens are in turmoil,
And he causes clouds to ascend from the ends of the earth.
He makes lightning for the rain,
And he brings the wind out of his storehouses.
Every man acts unreasonably and without knowledge....
I well know, O Jehovah, that man’s way does not belong to him.
It does not belong to man who is walking even to direct his step.
— Jeremiah 10:12-14, 23
Eric Newhouse and his team on the Lochsa River. (Photo courtesy of Susan Newhouse.)
Contents
1. Introduction
2. Defining PTSD and TBI
3. Untreated Vets and Society’s Band-Aids
4. Treatment
5. The VA Is Unable to Meet Veterans’ Needs
6. Painkillers and Alternatives at the VA
7. Tough VA Standards for Diagnosing TBI
8. Suicide and Moral Injury
9. Writing is Therapeutic for Vets
10. Atonement and Forgiveness
11. Therapeutic Exercise
12. Some Concluding Thoughts
About the Author
1. Introduction
For the past half century, America has been almost continuously at war somewhere in the world. And that means that we need to care for a growing population of warriors with visible — and invisible — wounds.
Most challenging are the emotional wounds that result from combat. They can be even harder to treat when Traumatic Brain Injuries (TBIs) are involved.
Recovering from PTSD — an Overview
Some truths about post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) are commonly accepted. Combat causes trauma and extensive combat causes PTSD, which is a natural reaction to unnatural conditions — it’s a mechanism designed to keep a soldier alive in a world that’s out to kill him or her.
So PTSD is a behavior learned by a plastic brain that is molded by the conditions that surround it. The problem with PTSD is that symptoms like hypervigilance continue even after the warrior leaves the battlefield. Night terrors and flashbacks continue to make the battlefield threats seem current.
How to help vets unlearn those survival tactics is a critical question for our society today.
Moral Injury
But the trauma of what your enemy does to you is just one part of PTSD. The other part involves moral injury. That includes what you did to your enemy — or failed to do for your friends. Moral injury may also involve an element of betrayal by the chain of command, by your society, or by your country. One particularly damaging aspect is self-betrayal, when you choose to something horribly wrong because you’re angry. Unfortunately, this issue of moral injury goes largely unrecognized by the medical community.
Betrayals, yours and others’, rip you away from the interconnectedness of society — from community. These actions and lack of actions keep you from joining others to co-create a better world, and make you an agent of meaningless destruction. And meaninglessness plays a large part in PTSD, too. When you are betrayed by your leaders who represent the society you wish to rejoin, or you yourself are a leader who has betrayed those you lead, all possibility of safe reconnection is ripped away.
Killing violates our inborn moral code and failing to save our buddies leaves us feeling powerless. Both cause what is becoming known as a moral injury. Anger, guilt, and depression are common symptoms, as is survivor guilt. Dr. Jonathan Shay, a recipient of a MacArthur Foundation Fellowship genius grant; Edward Tick, director of the private group Soldier’s Heart; and Brett Litz, a VA psychologist, argue that both types of moral injury cause deep soul wounds that pierce a person’s identity, sense of morality, and relationship to society.
Both aspects of PTSD generally occur simultaneously. As we look at the stories of warriors throughout the book, you’ll read about many who have been in damaging situations. But you will also see how the situation was made worse by feelings of guilt at not doing more to help comrades. And the worst of all may be the betrayal the warriors felt when superiors, the government, the society the warriors were returning to, and the medical system all failed them when they desperately needed help to find new lives back home.
Let me give you an example: my friend Jack Jager, who was a scout dog handler during the war in Vietnam. That meant he lived in the field, using his dogs like bird dogs to flush out enemy soldiers or to sniff out mines and booby traps. That put him on the cutting edge of combat.
We got overrun once, and that was my last combat experience,
he told me. We ran into a camp of NVA regulars, and our battalion commander told us to withdraw a little. But in the evening, we got surrounded. Later I found out it was called the Easter Massacre because it happened on Easter Sunday. Out of the 21 men in our squad, we had 11 killed and six wounded. I remember a guy with his arm blown off asking how the hell he could load his rifle with just one hand. So we withdrew. We had a river at our backs, and two guys who were mortally wounded tried to do their best to hold them off. We slipped into the river, floated downstream, got out on the riverbank, and spent most of the day eluding them.
After the war, Jack came home and tried to live a normal civilian life, but couldn’t. He was nervous about living inside, so he found a wooded area behind his apartment, built a camp, and lived there with his dogs for protection.
His breaking point came when his mom asked him what had happened to him over there. But he couldn’t tell her. Instead, he fled to Montana, got an isolated job as a long-haul trucker, drank heavily, and fell in and out of four marriages.
I felt very guilty,
Jack told me a few years ago. There are things I did that I feel very guilty about. I was brought up right, brought up to do right, but in war the compassion is not there. Human beings were not made to kill each other. I saw some soldiers who just could not pull the trigger on an adversary face to face, and they died. After all the depravity of war was over, I was afraid people would know what I was, so I just ran away from it.
Treating PTSD
Jack’s an extreme but fairly typical example of a vet with PTSD that has not been treated. And it’s typical of most ’Nam vets — PTSD didn’t exist as a medical diagnosis until 1980, so their disorders largely went untreated.
Not surprisingly, treatment options are still evolving.
Over the years, the VA has relied on group therapy and individual counseling on the theory that talking about trauma will lessen its severity. This approach, part of cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT), frequently relies on psychotropic medications to numb vets down between sessions and to dull their chronic pain.
Retired Brigadier General Rebecca Halstead told a conference at the University of Nevada — Las Vegas a few years ago that she was prescribed a brown paper lunch bag full of medications for chronic pain due to fibromyalgia. I counted 15 different pill bottles in a slide that she showed. Her advice: Replace pills with physical fitness.
Pharmaceuticals are just a mask because they don’t deal with a problem,
agreed the late Hardie Higgins, a retired Army lieutenant colonel who served 20 years as a chaplain and who also wrote the book To Make the Wounded Whole: Healing the Spiritual Wounds of PTSD.
Another form of CBT is prolonged exposure treatment, which forces vets to face their fears so they can learn that the consequences they feared in combat are no longer a threat in civilian life. Psychiatrists argue that the brain can unlearn some combat-inspired behaviors, but most vets find the task daunting.
Some VA centers are offering courses in Tai Chi and Qigong. I’ve been working with vets for the past 20 years, and I’ve found that someone with TBI (traumatic brain injury) or chronic pain will quickly become very frustrated with Tai Chi, which appears simple but is actually fairly complex to learn,
Chris Bouguyon, co-founder and instructor of SimplyAware, a Qigong training academy in the Dallas-Fort Worth area told me. Qigong, the grandfather to Tai Chi, can be broken down into simpler parts using basic principles which allow vets the opportunity to learn useful tools for their daily lives and to become self-aware on a physical, mental, and emotional level.
Qigong is one of the energy system therapies, like acupuncture and acupressure, which posit that that the chi, or life energy, flowing through the body will become stagnant if blocked. It’s a forerunner of EMDR (eye movement desensitization and reprocessing) and EFT (emotional freedom techniques), both of which involve remembering past traumas, then using immediate motions like rolling the eyes or tapping acupressure points in the body to help defuse their emotional content.
We’ll take a deeper look at all of these techniques later in the book.
Atonement
But remember that these treatments are most effective when working with traditional PTSD. Additional therapies are required for moral injuries. Dr. Tick, author of War and the Soul, told me that combat vets understand the concept even though we don’t have words in our language to express this kind of spiritual loss.
Mike Orban did a tour of Vietnam half a century ago. (Photo courtesy of Mike Orban.)
As we’ll see in more detail later, war creates an identity crisis for returning vets, Tick told me. They can transform from civilians to warriors, but they can never return to being civilians again, So healing involves asking forgiveness for what they have done, making atonement for the harm they have caused, creating a new post-warrior identity for themselves, and sharing their experiences with the community. That lifelong journey can lead to acceptance and spiritual peace again. Failure to do that leads to nightmares and flashbacks as the suppressed combat experiences struggle to be recognized. Holistic medicine looks for true healing, not just symptom management,
said Tick.
My friend Mike Orban is a ’Nam vet who never really recovered from losing his sense of morality in combat. His book, Souled Out, examines his years of pain in searing detail and unflinching honesty. It also details his struggle for atonement.
Mike wrote about his yearlong fight in 1971 to stay alive on the killing fields of Tây Ninh Province in the Central Highlands of Vietnam, with every sense on high alert to protect him from ever-present danger. He wrote about how empty it made him feel when he realized there was no legitimate purpose to his mission, that he was merely killing others so they wouldn’t kill him. And he wrote about the anger he felt toward the Washington bureaucrats who so needlessly sacrificed the lives of young American soldiers that they deemed expendable.
But unlike so many war books, this part merely gives us a taste of what Mike went through. Most of Souled Out is about the aftermath of war and how he no longer fit in. Mike compared himself to an abandoned house with a leaking roof, sagging floors, dirt-smeared windows, and rotting furniture on the inside, but with a fresh coat of paint on the outside. All his energy for the next five years went to keeping up that façade.
But it wasn’t until 1976, when he volunteered to go to Africa with the Peace Corps, that he noticed a huge positive change. Part of it was the beauty of the jungles of Gabon, and part of it was living among rural natives so close to nature. But finally he realized that he simply needed to help others to make up for the harm he had inflicted in combat. It felt so good that after three years in Gabon, he joined USAID (United States Agency for International Development) for another two years, in Cameroon.
Returning to America in 1980, he began a long slide downward, working just enough to pay for food and alcohol as he scrounged off his brothers and sisters and as he did his best to avoid facing the major problems in his life.
At the end of that long road, Mike faced a grim choice: suicide or recovery. And recovery meant facing the demons that he had worked so hard to avoid. But in 2001, he committed himself to a 90-day inpatient PTSD program at the VA hospital in Tomah, Wisconsin, to begin that process.
In some respects, Souled Out is just one of many books detailing the odyssey of a warrior coming home from war. But it’s much more than that because at the end of the day, Mike summoned up the courage, energy, and resolve to fix the roof and the floor, pitch out the rotting furniture, clean the place up, and slap a fresh coat of paint on the inside walls so he can live again in that once-abandoned house.
Like every restored home, there are always new problems and fresh additions to the maintenance list. But there’s a real joy in seeing fresh life in this house — and in my friend Mike.
Forgiveness
Hardie Higgins, in To Make the Wounded Whole, argued that the battlefield strips away the belief system that soldiers grew up with, leaving them empty. The key to recovery for victims of PTSD is, I believe, to assist them in discovering the redemptive meaning of their suffering and how to use that suffering to add meaning to their future life,
he said.
One of the vets he had been counseling was crippled emotionally for decades by the memory of clubbing a Vietnamese boy to death with a rifle butt. Higgins reached out for healing by setting two chairs in a room, then asking the vet to sit in one and explain to the boy why he clubbed him, then move to the other chair to let the boy talk with the soldier. He explained to the kid that he was just a soldier doing his job and he was sorry,
Higgins said. Then I put him in the other chair and said, ‘Now you’re the little kid. What do you want to say to the soldier?’ And it was amazing how much more forgiving that little kid was. He said, ‘I know you were just a soldier and you didn’t know what you were doing.’ When you hear that kid talking about forgiveness, there’s some real healing going on.
Higgins also used the Bible to help vets lift their levels of guilt. He reminded them of that familiar verse in the Lord’s Prayer: Forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us.
That’s a deceptively simple phrase, but it really means that God will forgive me only if I forgive others. And if God forgives me, I have to forgive myself, too.
Exercise as Therapy
Self-forgiveness means giving yourself permission to enjoy life again, and one of the best things you can do is find recreation that’s fun. But it should also be something physical. That’s because Eastern medicine knows exercise helps chi to flow and Western medicine knows it is therapeutic in helping produce new brain cells.
There are some fascinating medical studies that link heightened anxiety levels to deficits in new brain cell development.
This realization could lead to novel approaches to treating a variety of anxiety disorders, including post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), because people who suffer from such conditions have trouble telling the difference between situations that merit fear and those that are innocuous,
said two Columbia University neurology professors, Mazen A. Kheirbek and Rene Hen, writing in the July 2014 issue of Scientific American magazine.
For years, scientists believed that adult humans stopped producing new neurons, but about 20 years ago evidence from the brains of adult rodents, monkeys, and even humans showed that new neurons are being produced continuously in two areas of the brain, one of which is involved with smell and the other involved in learning, memory, and emotion.
According to Kheirbek and Hen, one of the learning and memory functions that appear to involve new neurons is pattern completion, which is laying a memory down so that it can be retrieved. The other is pattern separation, which is recording details of an event so that it can be distinguished from other events.
The neurologists tested their theory by shutting down neurogenesis, the production of new neurons, in some lab mice and boosting it in others. Then they took the mice from their safe home cage and put them in another cage in which they got a mild electric shock.
Animals lacking new neurons remained overly skittish, reacting in alarm in both environments, even after repeated trips to the harmless box proceeded without incident,
they reported. But that didn’t happen with mice with an increased number of new brain cells.
Several other studies have also shown that mice lacking in new neurons have been unable to distinguish between safety and danger, the neurologists said.
In their Scientific American article Add Neurons, Subtract Anxiety,
Kheirbek and Hen said: "If neurogenesis is, in fact, involved in pattern separation in humans, the finding could offer insights into the cause of anxiety disorders such as PTSD. Psychologists have long suspected that the overgeneralization of memory contributes to anxiety disorders, which are marked by an exaggerated, sometimes crippling, fear response, even when the environment holds no immediate threat. Such inappropriate generalization could be the result of a diminished ability to distinguish between a past trauma and an innocuous event that shares some similarity with the traumatic event — for example, a picnic that is interrupted by an unexpected loud noise.
Individuals with a normal capacity for pattern separation might flinch at the sudden boom but quickly realize that the park is not a war zone and continue with their lunch,
it said. A veteran with impaired ability to carry out pattern separation, on the other hand, may be unable to separate the sound of a car backfiring from the memory of a battlefield — a mistake that could precipitate a full-blown panic attack.
Researchers have found that most humans continue to add about 1,400 new brain cells per day to the hippocampus well into old age. While the authors speculated about a deficit in neuron production, they suggested no reason why so many vets would be experiencing this disorder.
They did, however, explain what cures the condition: exercise. Mice running on a wheel in their cages showed increased rates of neurogenesis.
And that may well be one of the reasons why vets who are kayaking, whitewater rafting, hiking, and mountain climbing are able to alleviate the symptoms of PTSD. They’re producing more new brain cells and reducing their anxiety levels.
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