Lost Boy- Bipolar Dreaming
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Mental health issues touch all of us who live in the human community. In Lost Boy Bipolar Dreaming, Jocelyn Price tells the story of her journey with her son (Cameron suffered from bipolar disorder and eventually suicided). She writes of his dreams, his good times and his not so good times. Told through the veil of a mothers compassion, dawning consciousness, receptivity, understanding, acceptance and strength to go on in life with peace, we see Cameron as a person with a unique purpose in life, a purpose that is no way diminished by the manner of his death.
Jocelyn M. Price
After a lifetime of experiences in various parts of Australia, New Guinea, Afghanistan, Russia, Germany, Pacific Islands, and China, Jocelyn Price now lives in a small town in the outback of Australia. At 75 years of age she was determined to try her hand at writing, but first she had to learn to use a computer – a challenge that ranked right up there with being mislaid in a freezing Russian winter. Jocelyn writes across varied genres- stories for children, romantic stories set in outback Australia, and non fiction.
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Lost Boy- Bipolar Dreaming - Jocelyn M. Price
Lost Boy
BIPOLAR DREAMING
JOCELYN PRICE
Copyright © 2013 by Jocelyn Price.
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Contents
PROLOGUE
CHAPTER: 1 Bipolar Dreaming
CHAPTER: 2 Heaven in Chaos ’Cos My Angel Wears Tattoos
CHAPTER: 3 Dreams and Stars for Cameron
CHAPTER: 4 Confessions and Regrets
CHAPTER: 5 Friends Who Remember
CHAPTER: 6 Cameron—Mum’s Story
CHAPTER: 7 You ’Orright, Mate?
CHAPTER: 8 Miss Me—But Let Me Go
CHAPTER: 9 Through My Eyes
CHAPTER: 10 Mum’s Reflections
CHAPTER: 11 Opinions and Decision Makers
CHAPTER: 12 Phoenix—The Phantom Horse
CHAPTER: 13 I Remember—I Remember
CHAPTER: 14 Conclusion by Umba Beven
PROLOGUE
I AM WRITING this book about my son Cameron who committed suicide nearly five years ago. He had suffered from bipolar disorder for many years. It is his journey from despair to paradise. I started writing it in the form of letters to him, but somewhere along the way I found that I had things that I wanted to say to people which could not be written down and addressed to Cameron exclusively. I want the contents of this book to go out there not only for Cameron, his family and his friends, but also for all those people in the same position as I was those many years ago, when not much was known about bipolar disorder. I would like you, my readers, to share this journey with Cameron and me—Cameron through the letters I have written to him and me with the many other things I have felt myself compelled to say. It is not just a book about bipolar. I hope it will be a book also for those people out there who have ever had depression, or have ever had to deal with a mental illness. There is a touch of sadness in some of the pages, especially regarding his diaries. I have only put down some excerpts from them—to put everything down would have been too emotional for me and too depressing for my readers.
But on the other hand in my letters to him I have also written of happy times—times which will always be remembered. I can almost hear Cameron saying to me, Mum, why don’t you simply go ahead tell it like it was!
and that is just what I have tried to do. This book is a mixture of many things—sadness and happiness, indifference and compassion, despair and hope, loss and recovery, lows and highs. These are all part of the shadow world for a person like my son who had to live with a mental illness. I know that for me Cameron’s story will be never-ending. I will go on remembering things about him that I had forgotten or failed to put down while I was writing this, but it can’t be helped now. Nevertheless I sincerely thank you, my readers for bearing with me, and I do hope that you will enjoy Cameron’s story just as much as I have enjoyed writing it.
Jocelyn Price
image001.jpg"I will guide you in the way of wisdom
And lead you along straight paths.
When you walk, your steps will not be hampered;
When you run you will not stumble."
CHAPTER 1
Bipolar Dreaming
DEAR CAMERON
It is nearly five years since you crossed to the other side of Life. Such a lot has happened in that time—good things and bad things. But it all boils down to one fact. You are not here with us any more, and even though I think of you every day I have to remind myself of that.
I have everything you wrote over the last few years, and together with what I have written since you passed over, we might just be able to help other people out there who suffer, just as you did, with bipolar disorder. Also I know that for years I did not understand what you had gone through. Perhaps I was too wrapped up in my own life or I may have put it in the Too Hard
basket. Who knows? But now, Cameron, we are in this together. OK? So let’s get this show on the road.
Cameron, did you ever have any idea just how much of an impact you made on people you met? Nobody I know was ever indifferent to you. Even people I talk to today remember things about you—Things that I had long forgotten. Surely that must mean something!
During the last 12 months of your life when you came to live with me at Forrest Beach, do you remember when we used to sit out on the verandah? The mornings were the best—you with your book and coffee, and me with my Sudoku and green tea. We used to listen and watch the tropical birds in the trees. We would also hear the screaming birds
(curlews) under the house. Eventually they would come out and wait for us to give them their daily treat of bread and honey.
One particular morning stands out in my mind. You had just been speaking to Jaki on the phone and you were so happy. You thought everything was going to be all right, despite the divorce. Later on that day you had an appointment with your Case Manager in Ingham and you were looking forward to that. Then Jaki rang again. I don’t know what was said but your mood suddenly altered dramatically. The look on your face changed from one of happiness to one of despair. I saw it at once but even if I wanted to, I knew that I could not help you. But still my thoughts and heart tried to reach out to you.
The next thing I remember you went inside and came out with paper and a pen and you wrote the following poem. You called it
Bipolar Dreaming.
I dream that one day
I will fly down the highway
On a Harley—free as